Saturday, September 16, 2006
i've been thinking again. cuz recently i've been quite bored. wondering to myself, how could i even be bored at a time like this, when others are out there studying and yet i'm here, not getting the drift, not feeling the need, not understanding why its required. i feel abit afraid, abit uncertain.
i've been thinkin about what do i really like. what do i really wanna do after my 'O's and where do i really wanna go. what do i wanna become when I grow up. and i totally can't agree more with what Min said. that when you'll feel afraid when you don't know what you wanna be. and i'm kinda gettin that chill now. thanks for the wake up call.
seriously, i want to study. i want to do well. i want to get into some place that i want to be in. i wanna be successful in life. i kinda lost my purpose in life, besides the fact that we are required to reach out to the lost. i feel everything in life is just a bore.
lookin at this. i tell myself. i'm gonna find out what happened. i need to rely on God and not my own strength to do so. maybe its another test, this one to see how reliant i am to Him. cuz i feel that the past few tests that he placed in my path, i've always been relyin on my own strength to overcome it. its time to let go.
seriously, i also feel that i've lost my compassion and heart for the lost. what has happened to me? sadened by the thought of it. hwat are my long-term goals? its time to find out what do i actually want to achieve, what do i actually live for. and i'm gonna do it. definitely.
-phased, uncertain & in deep thought
The Brethren. Henzy David
As Dusk Falls
9/16/2006 11:51:00 PM
