Monday, April 30, 2007
yeah, finally grasped the art of drawing still life. haha. ok. now i need to perfect it. haha.
today was a good day, found myself in the library with my ah Mei, Felicia loi. doing what was supposed to be research on still life and other art forms for myself, and she doing her own stuff for her own artwork. haha. had a sudden surprise when someone called out "kawaii", then voice was so distinctive that i turned and saw a group of people walking by, but i was too slow to notice the one who said it. but it knew it had to be you syafiqah. haha. =P
well. after that, headed to arcade, then to pastamania at west mall for dinner with Benjamin and Bing Rong. after dinner, mei left for home, while the 3 of us heded down to macdonalds to await the arrival of melvin lim jun rong! lol. and yes, all thanks to him, i now have the new Good Charlotte album, Good Morning Revival! haha. yay! lol.
ok. off to meet jasper and shirosaki in cyberspace. haha.
today was such an enjoyable day!!!!!! must announce it again. lol. today is such an enjoyable day!!!!!!
As Dusk Falls
4/30/2007 09:42:00 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
haha. today was a little different. really, truly a day of refreshing, and a day off. haha. sermon today was great. truly, our words are immortal. haha. and our words have power. haha.
well. after service, headed down to bedok market to have dinner, people who were there, melvin, keith, teryl, justin, ben and me. lol. then headed down to Jurong East entertainment centre with Keith, Justin and Teryl. lol. train ride with melvin was super funny, cuz justin's mp3 had these songs, super classic. in a good way i mean, like, Complicated by Avril Lavinge, It's My Life by Bon Jovi. yeah. list goes on.
so it was quite the day. enjoyable nonetheless. haha.
i want ice cream! lol.
sushi, i wan shushi!!! lol. (spelt with extra H for the sound.)
As Dusk Falls
4/29/2007 10:24:00 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
well, today's like the first Saturday in i don't know how many months that i stayed at home for the whole day. lol. it's like all previous Saturdays i've been out. but today, well. all i can say is that i got things to do. lol. haha. like my portfolio. haha. ahhh!!!
calling out all those who are very good with character designs/development, still life sketches and umm, photoshop pros. i need your help. like, so desperately can. haha. haha. obviously, these are the areas where i'm having problems in. and they're also the areas which i need to finish in order to complete my portfolio. hahaha! what the heck eh. lol.
well. truthfully speaking. I'm in fear, yet, i can't do nuts about the fear except brush it aside cuz i can't do anything about it. lol. seriously one of those times that i can only trust in God. which i am so doing so. yet. i dunno. lol. dun really know how to descirbe it either. =P not to worry!
i am so gonna gather a few people and get them to a sushi bar after i finish my portfolio man. grr! haha. had a funny dream that i was eating sushi last night. lol. well. yeah. lol. all my dreams are funny. haha.
was watchin Teen Titans this morning, lol. eh, it's not a kid's show ok! lol. and i came across this quote. "You don't have to hurt others to feel good." - Kid Flash. i don't know, lol, i just felt it was meaningful. in a way. like, saying, you don't have to hurt others, or yourself, to feel good. lol. kinda applies to everyone now that i put it this way. haha. =P
"Life is about making choices and not looking back." - Han (The Fast and the Furious; Tokyo Drift)
As Dusk Falls
4/28/2007 08:41:00 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
i guess it's that time of the year again huh. haha. the time where i go back into deep thinking about what i've been. the time which i take to just sit down and go through deep thinking about where i can improve myself. haha. yeah. seriously, i understand, and i've been telling myself, i needa change, i needa amend some parts of myself, my character, my behavior. but the thing is that i haven't been doing it. so now, right now. i decided to bash myself in the face(don't worry, it's just figurative; figure-of-speach), and tell myself to stop slacking and being lazy and being proud and just sit down and change myself. yeah.
why, i don't know. i just realised that somethings need to go, and good things need to be cultivated. it all happened about a week or two back. haha. serious wake up call after a first quarrel in i don't know how many years. well. glad that i made me wake up.
so here i am. reassuring my readers and beloved friends, family and brothers and sisters that i'm totally fine. =) just help me thru this stage my just continuing to be there for me and supporting me. which i really appreciate. =D
soon, a new, better me shall rise from the ashes once more. like the pheonix from the flames. my spirit won't be crushed. just like it, i shall arise with a much greater joy in me, presented to me by God the father Himself. =)
final words, don't worry. =)
As Dusk Falls
4/27/2007 08:54:00 PM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
random fact 101: aahhhh!!! i want the new Good Charlottle album, Good Morning Revival.
case closed. problem settled. finally got it off my chest. haha.
err. nothing much to blog actually. haha. just that, went to meet Br and Alvina at Lot1 just now, had the intention of watching movie, but didn't have time. haha. so ended up in the arcade in the end. haha. then it was CG. which was great. lol. no explaination needed i guess. lol.
normal day, normal me. yup.
As Dusk Falls
4/26/2007 11:04:00 PM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
wah. never felt so, umm. muscle-strained in my whole life. haha. all thanks to the crunches and push-ups last night. haha.
well. went jacket hunting with jasper at queensway. but sad to say, couldn't find the one i was looking for. haha. so, oh well. guess i'll just have to wait another 1week plus for the bugis street shop bah. haha.
well. nothing much to post about anymore le. haha. hao bah. next time. currently inspirationless for bloggin. haha.
we who bear the mask; masked soldiers; vaizards; 仮面の軍勢
As Dusk Falls
4/25/2007 11:12:00 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
wah. dance was great today! haha. as always. lol. right now, i'm tired. haha. and yes! i finally completed Time Crisis 4!! haha. at last. lol. crazy nut! lol. very little to update today. just a random image, and a random quote. from myself of course. =P
We who bear the mask
right, off to edit my logo on photoshop. =)
As Dusk Falls
4/24/2007 11:29:00 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
today, i have only a few words to say.
Humour Me.
pfft!
GG.
As Dusk Falls
4/23/2007 07:33:00 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
tiring day. lol, i slept till quite late. then the rest of the day felt quite ok. but abit of it felt like a drag. haha.
to my brother. my sincere apologies. kinda got flared up at one point. just blew up.
now i understand why i don't want to get angry, or pissed in any case. cuz when i get angry, i have a bad habit of bringing up anything and everything of the past, linking everything and anything to the situation and just pressuring a person to his wit's end. evil i am. sure am.
tryin to change that. no, shouldn't say i'm trying. i'm going to change that!
right. nothing much to say. just pretty tired right now. had a great dinner just now, with my cell and shermaine. haha. at botak jones clementi. haha. yeah. other than that. nothing le. lol.
never shall the darkness cease, only till the end day comes. this, your curse shall be. lest we repent of our sins.
As Dusk Falls
4/22/2007 09:34:00 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
for those who know, and for those who don't.
wow, it was a first, and it was great for a first. a CG McRitchie reservior hike. talk about walking. haha. 11km total. haha. boy it was great. haha. really was a time of pushing and motivating each other to press on forward. haha. well, i shan't comment much on that, cuz at this point, my mind can't really think. haha. all i can say was that it was a great experience, and it's a good way for you to push yourself further.
it was the Long House after that, this hawker centre somewhere near where we were. haha, had lunch and a great time of fellowshipping. and then it was off to home. haha. but home for only awhile. haha. it was not long after that i found myself on the street outside Raffles City Shopping Centre, on my way to O School, where i bumped into Shawn Tan Shao Xian! lol. what a coincidence. haha.
yeah, shan't talk about the rest of the day, cept that i met W330 on the way to city hall, got a tip for a new clothing outlet opened by one of their cell members called 'Extreme' at Suntec city. checked it out, you should go too. very nice place! haha. i want that shirt! lol. ok. enough. let's look at some pictures.
haha. look at our tired faces! =P
Pushing your limit
what i learnt today, was about pushing one's limit. Genkai Kaishou!! if you know what that means, if not, then nevermind. haha. well, i shared something this morning, with my cell group, so i decided that i should share it here too.
everyone of us has a limit. which is only this much, but as we continue on, pushing ourselves to ur limits, our limit gradually increases, even if it's by the slightest bit, it also increases. so if we keep pushing ourselves, the limit gradually get's higher and higher, and our cap on doing things, our capabilities and endurance gradually get higher and higher, or rather, better and better. yeah. just food for thought. but also note that we shouldn't over do it. too much of a good thing can become a bad thing. haha. when our bodies really cry out in pain, we should take a break. haha.
We Bear the Unbearable
Pushing your limit
what i learnt today, was about pushing one's limit. Genkai Kaishou!! if you know what that means, if not, then nevermind. haha. well, i shared something this morning, with my cell group, so i decided that i should share it here too.
everyone of us has a limit. which is only this much, but as we continue on, pushing ourselves to ur limits, our limit gradually increases, even if it's by the slightest bit, it also increases. so if we keep pushing ourselves, the limit gradually get's higher and higher, and our cap on doing things, our capabilities and endurance gradually get higher and higher, or rather, better and better. yeah. just food for thought. but also note that we shouldn't over do it. too much of a good thing can become a bad thing. haha. when our bodies really cry out in pain, we should take a break. haha.
We Bear the Unbearable
As Dusk Falls
4/21/2007 09:48:00 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
1 point perspective, complete! next up, 2 point perspective and logo design, followed by my character development. gonna go print out my photos soon. then it'll be down to the tough tasks, still like sketching and photo realism. but I love doing it so much that i don't even bother to complain! haha.
funny, i realise how music affects my mood. play me a song from a hip-hop genre and i feel like dancing, play me a rock song and i feel like jumpin, playing a sad song and i feel emo-ed. haha. love music. haha. i think i'm in love with art forms. haha, i realise most of the things i do are related to art or art forms, or can be seen as an art form. haha. great! that's exactly what it's supposed to and going to be like. haha.
How Fragile We Are
there's one line in this song that i remember, and it really got me thinking. how fragile we are, as humans, as people, as friends. we fall and crash at almost every bad comment our friends give us, we feel that our world is crashing down when we lose our friends and fail in what we do. then we resort to running away, to putting on a mask or strong front to cover up for our weaknesses. to not show how fragile we are. but we are, fragile, very.
no doubt, i myself am guilty of this as well. but by God's grace we all learn. so i thank God that i have him, cuz He's the one that's there to support us, so that when we "break ourselves down", we don't have to "build ourselves up with disappointment" or any other thing. yeah. thank God that we learn, thank God that He teaches us through trials and obstacles.
the title of the song, is [2nd Period: Shoot the Stars Down] by Gym Class Heroes.
As Dusk Falls
4/20/2007 09:47:00 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
well, it was a good day. haha. went back to YISS, i place i thought i'd never go back to to collect my leaving cert/testimonial. but hey, returning there was a good experience. haha. went back, saw alot of people. yeah. haha. really enjoyed myself. haha. had a good chat with Felicia Loi mei before leaving. haha. yeah.
then headed down to Lasalle with Alvina to submit my application form. and my interview is on the 12th of May!! keep me in prayer guys! haha. thanks for that. somehow, it feels rather great doing something related to what i like, i wonder how great it'd be doing what i really like. hahaha. then met up with Ben and Raffy at Taka's Art Friend to get my paper. lol. dinner and home. yeah. i've got an interesting topic ahead. read up. lol. it's food for thought. enjoy.
And the Cry of my Heart
true, sometimes things do hurt you bad. but when they do, look around you, look at all the people you've met, some of em are really those who are there for you, supporting you; catching you when you fall; encouraging you when you feel bad; hearing you out when you feel sad; talking to you when you feel mad. yeah. thank God for everything, that's become my lifestyle, a lifestyle of thanksgiving to God, the one who made me, the one who gave me life, the one who sustained me till this day.
today's post, "And the Cry of my Heart", really talks about the cry of one's heart. my heart, well, the cry of my heart is to give God praise in everything I do, giving Him His due glory. glory and praise that i don't deserve. i know, i still fall sometimes, i still fail in doing this, but listen to this, "Your will above all else, my purpose remains." that says most of it, so long as you put God's will above all else, your purpose will definitely remain.
today, what i'm trying to do, is to commit myself to God's purpose. to really make the cry of my heart, to give Him Praise from the inside out of my soul. so, what is the cry of your heart?
As Dusk Falls
4/19/2007 10:42:00 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
headed down to Trybe centre today to look for Eric for advice on the portfolio making. thank God, cuz He guided me into making the best decision by going down there. boy did i learn a whole great big lot. haha. great, now i have guidance and a heading. i know what i have to accomplish. thanks bro Ben too. your advice and umm, scolding, worked wonders too.
the 2nd reason i headed down there was also presumably to help Alvina with her Social studies stuff. but, haha. didn't manage to do that. lol.
well. i thanked my DaJie Joa in my previous post, now i thank God for my buddy Hannah. haha. =P thanks, for always believin in me and encouraging me to go further even in this time of apparent darkness. yeah. you deserve it buddy! don't tell me you don't deserve my thanks anymore! haha
apparently, i'm stuck with another decision in my life. well, it's not the Lasalle one, cuz obviously i know that I'm going for what i wanna do. praying that God will give me the grace and bring me into the course. well, thank God for everything. and yeah, even though i went astray, He was still there for me. Thank you Lord.
it's grace, that's what i need right now, God's grace.
As Dusk Falls
4/18/2007 10:28:00 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
didn't go to school today. instead, went to Lasalle. to find out about the course there.
decided that i ain't gonna stay on and continue to do something that i have totally no interest and don't even like doing. wanna go and do something that i really really like. so, here i am, doing my best, tryin to do up a good portfolio as soon as possible. yeah. God, thanks for the chance. Lord, now I just pray that you see me through this. thank you Lord.
had dance after that, and oh yeah. Ben and Jerry's were having their free cones day. lol. so, Ben and I went to get free cones after getting the info frm Ven. haha. then headed down to Suntec city to look for gabriel, daniel and ya da nar. had dinner and headed for what i think was the most tiring dance session of all my dance sessions. haha.
yup. thanks DaJie Joa, =) ur advice and listening ear really helped. haha. now i understand what i have to do. now, i'm just gonna do that. now this David has to overcome his Goliath, along with solving all the other problems at the same time.
God, thanks for everything, i know i was the one who went the wrong way. i just pray for you to guide me back on the right path. i know you're always there for me. thank you for that Lord. thank you.
A thousand times i've failed, still your mercy remains.
Should i stumble again, still I'm caught in your grace.
Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades.
As Dusk Falls
4/17/2007 11:52:00 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
first day at school. truthfully i don't like what i'm doing right now. i wanna change school. really. i've got lots of things to think about right now. thing that can't be rushed. things that are just too heavy for me. it feels like my world's crashing down so fast that i can't place everything back into place in time. immense pressure. argh.
sometimes, i just wanna shout BAKA!!(pardon me keith).. and take out every single thing from me. just throw it all away and start anew. with the good things in hand. i know myself, i know i can't push it further. but i'm doing it. i'm pushing myself to the limit. there will be no words of defeat. i will not fall. my faith will not falter. but in the end, i'm still human.
just emptying out things into this place, where everyone can see it. which is what i want them to. cause what i'm feeling inside, isn't obvious enough to be seen. cuz i don't want people to worry about me, since they've got too many troubles of their own. but i still need people to care. i know they do. thanks for that.
my final words.
no words of defeat, just a crushed heart beneath the strong exterior.
God, i know you're hearin me. I know you're here. come. now. before i fall apart beneath the every growing shadows of the darkness that i chose to fight for you. I need you now, more than ever before. i'm holding on to that shard of hope, the bleak light within the darkness.
As Dusk Falls
4/16/2007 10:21:00 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
shan't elaborate much about my day. cuz it was the plain normal thing. haha. good service, i cried during worship, like i don't know how long since so many tears flowed out.
i wanna apologise, to those who were hurt by my words and actions before. i'm sorry. i really don't know what else to say. i just hope that you forgive me for what i've done or said to you. i'm trying my best to change, to learn. i would like to ask, that you help me along. help, me change. i don't wanna lose anymore friends cuz of this.
i feel that heavy weigh on my heart getting more burdening. it seems, that, i just really don't know what to do now. i don't really know what else to say. i really don't know what to do anymore. i just pray for forgiveness from everyone. and the grace, for another chance.
As Dusk Falls
4/15/2007 10:07:00 PM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
today's trybe run, HuaYi secondary. was quite the normal one, in the class was Dy, Carmen Grace and Ryan Fan. haha. nothing much to elaborate on that. after that, headed down to O School with Daniel, Gabriel, Alvina, Carmen Grace and Weiwei nuer. had difficulty flaggin cab. lol. so arrived pretty late. lol. then headed down to O school, watched them dance, and the headed down to Marina to slack off abit. well yeah.
here's a song i wanna share, if i'm not wrong it's called Alones, by aqua times. lol. the new bleach Opening.
[Alones] lyrics, translated.
Your fragile folded wings, are just tired from the pure blue sky.
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone,
It's okay to smile... for yourself.
Hearing your sweet voice didn't always hurt.
It's too late to block it from the inside.
I want to take back our time, but luck and karma are against me.
There are no words, but your eyes can't hide what you want to say.
I don't even know anymore...
Try to bury it deep down, okay?
We don't need that sky if we're free to swim,
Even if you won't talk about yesterday,
I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow.
Your fragile folded wings, are just tired from the pure blue sky.
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone,
It's okay to smile... for yourself.
As Dusk Falls
4/14/2007 11:58:00 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007
the 300th post! on my lucky day!
despite it being the friday the 13th, everyone's bad luck day, but my self declared day of good luck. the day was good. haha. had cell group just now.
ah, i hate my timetable. lol. oh yeah, i'm going to nanyang poly. lol. and i hate my timetable. haha.
sighs, i don't know what to blog about today. i actually had alot to blog about. but things just happen, and my mind suddenly just blanked out on me. so, oh well.
at least there's trybe run tomorrow at HuaYi sec. haha.
gawd, i don't know. lot's of things going thru my mind right now. it's not about that thing, i mean, you know what i mean. it's like, it's over, so long ago. but, something else just came out of it. it seems that i'm still, like i said, concerned. yet. ah. doesn't matter. gonna go take my mind off things, Red Alert 2, ere' I come.
As Dusk Falls
4/13/2007 11:58:00 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
haha, great. according to the post's title, the black blade returns. lol, totally random, useless information. haha. but, the good news is, my CPU is back! haha. praise the Lord!!
well well, today was a great day, or quite okay. haha. completed the good campaign on the Battle for Middle-Earth on my laptop. lol. i'm thinking of changing my blog song, to a track from the new Relient K album, Five Score and Seven Years Ago. haha.
today, met up with wayne and siokyit and headed towards City Hall to try out that orange addidas jacket that caught my eye last night, and guess what, it looks great. now all i needa consider is whether i wanna get it or not. haha. oh well.
this year, i'm blessed with such great blessings that i don't know how to describe it. haha. thanks to all those who blessed me with birthday presents and wishes. haha. now let's see a few pictures. really, a few, only 2. haha.
the bunch of people that celebrated my birthday with me last night. haha.
haha, the new addition to my collection of random stuff, a battalion of clone troopers. haha.
well, guess that's that. haha. once again, thanks to all for making this birthday such an enjoyable one. haha. Praise God for all of you.
As Dusk Falls
4/12/2007 10:16:00 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
yay! it's the day that was expected so much. haha. it was a real great day today. haha, celebrated with Dajie Joadine, Jasper, Wayne, Bing Rong and Raffy. had Carls Jr., then headed to NYDC for dessert. haha. yay. really praise God for this family. haha. i had such an enjoyable time, playing Time Crisis 4 with Jasper, pool with BR, Raffy and Wayne, and dinner with everyone. lol. haha. so great.
thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday, in order, Min, Hannah, Carmen Grace, Melvin, Joadine, Ivan, Keetat, Bing Rong, Benjamin, Venelyn, YiTing and Abigail mei, Keith, Ah Gong Pastor Adrian, Wayne, Jasper, Felicia Loi mei, Felicia, Shermaine, KaiYee, Steven Junior, and Wei Wei. in order of sms received. haha. thanks ALOT guys!! haha. really appreciate and love you all for this. God Bless you. you've made Henzy David's 18th birthday a real enjoyable one. =D God bless, and Praise God for all of you. haha.
and also thank you, all of you who wished me on my tagboard, namely, Daniel, Syafiqah, Jennifer, Elaine, Chrislyn and Liying again. haha.
As Dusk Falls
4/11/2007 11:42:00 PM
happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me-E, happy birthday to meeeeeeee.
lol, nutcase. haha. 44 minutes into my birthday. and here i am bloggin as fast as possible before my connection gets, pfft! cut. haha.
had a great day today, played lan with Daniel and Gabriel, then went for dance, with not Ryan teaching, but Venelyn. haha. lol. i did, don't know how many bounces. but i think i'm slowly but steadily gettin the hang of it. haha. yay! praise the Lord.
aaahhh!!! i lost my touch at C&C Red Alert 2! lol. how can! well, rusty le, how many years never play le. haha.
well, gonna enjoy today. a day where i finally cast off my worries. and be happy! haha. gonna go lunch with Min later, then Dinner with a whole bunch of people. tradition! Seoul Garden! lol. happy birthday to meeee! you are a G12 LEADER! lol. i miss that. haha.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
10th April, approximately about another 8hours more.
haha, here i am bloggin now, cuz i might not have a chance to do so later. lol. gonna go for dance soon, meeting Gab, Daniel and Ya Da Nar later. lol.
yeah. thing is, i don't seem excited or anything. lol. oh well. haha. maybe i'll blog later.
just plainly holding on to that shard of hope.
As Dusk Falls
4/10/2007 03:11:00 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
9th of April, 2 more days to go.
it seems that it's truly becoming pointless, and that Monday Blues are really true. darn, was at home the whole day again, like, every monday, after that fateful event, i've been at home. why? i've got no idea.
well, my dad bought me a new game, haha. thanks. lol. guess i'm still a little child at heart, the only thing that's different is that i love strategy games. Command and Conquer, the First Decade, was the title. haha. 12 games for $59.90. or rather, $5 per game. lol. great deal. haha.
one of my friends reminded me about this. it seems that i run around, being the 'guardian angel' for everyone, always appearing out of nowhere when people need help, counselling, comforting and giving advice. i wonder what will happen when i'm become the 'human' or 'mortal'.
it's nearly time. just a little while longer. Henzy David tells himself. and it will reveal itself to the world. just hold on a little while longer.
As Dusk Falls
4/09/2007 10:04:00 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
8th of April, 3 more days to go!
great miracle service today. not too bad. that was for the start of the day.
yeah, weesiang accepted Christ. haha. great, Praise the Lord, even got slain. haha.
well, the next part of the day was truly a blur, went to have dinner at Tampines Mall, after dinner, i had totally no idea what went on. maybe i was just too tired or something. haha. oh well. then it was home.
i just wanna list a few people i wanna thank. in no particular order, Jessica, Jasper, Joadine, Grace, my Cell group, jessica's two cousins, Adeline, Cheryl, Kaiyee, Valerie, Huiying, Wei Wei NuEr, Ah Pa and Daniel(GH tribe). yeah.
hold on to it. till the next time. i'll be waiting.
As Dusk Falls
4/08/2007 10:25:00 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
7th of April, 4 more days to go to my birthday.
travel, i never liked travelling alone, especially alone. but today, i did most of it alone.
first of all, to marina square, alone, lol. met jasper, wayne, samson, jaren and brian, watched them go into Kbox, then headed down to O school to meet up with Daniel and Gabriel, watched them dance, then headed down to pasir ris for daniel's sister's birthday party. it was enjoyable, with Cheryl and DaJie there too. haha. then, it was a long ride, ALONE! all the way back to batok. and here i am. blogging. haha.
well, i gotta say something, but i just can't say it here. only two ears need hear it.
As Dusk Falls
4/07/2007 11:42:00 PM
Friday, April 06, 2007
6th of April, 5 more days to go.
today is good friday. well. i can't say it's very good for me. but somethings happened that just cheered me up. haha. first of all, thanks CG, thanks AhPa. thanks. by that simple act of celebrating my birthday after the good friday celebration. it did wonders by bringing joy to me again. no matter how little it was, i cherished it alot. arigato.
good friday celebration was ok, had the message shared, a few people received Christ, and well, the hearty dinner sorta sums up all things. after that, it was Citadel. although i lost again, i seem to be improving, this time. just. haha. oh well.
yeah. thanks hannah, but i guess you don't know the whole story yet. however, i don't think you will. haha. sorry bout that. i think it's better to just leave it between me and the person involved. haha.
my wish, i just hope that my birthday wish comes true. =) holding on to God. =) i know you can do it. don't run anymore.
As Dusk Falls
4/06/2007 11:44:00 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
5th of April, 6 more days to go. =) i'm still sadly counting down to my birthday. haha. just for the sake of it. no, i ain't gonna give up. i'm gonna try, and try and try, until one day, it finally happens.
well, it seems like a boring day for me. again, another homestay. oh well. at least had dinner with Ben and Melvin just now. haha. gonna email ryan later about the DXO thing on saturday night. haha.
well, i can say that it's not easy for me either. broke down last night, after yet another quarrel with my dad. it seems, that, my faith is failing. my soul, crushed, and my heart broken once more. deep are the wounds of within. yet no one knows. it really ain't easy.
sometimes i really wonder. why, why am i doing this? why am i really, thinking of it so much. why can't i just let go of it like what i did with all the other previous issues that i had. just plainly using that method, one which crushes every single feeling in my heart, would do. but i wonder, why can't i do it again. it's pretty obvious though, the more i do it, the less heart i'd have. i can't keep crushing my soul, i can't keep being so selfish to myself. cuz i'm still concerned. that's why.
i still remember the time we ran through the rain. i remembered it today, and it brought a smile to my face. like nothing else could. don't run away, face it. i know it's possible. believe, trust Him. my counsel is still here, just waiting. i'm doing it too.
As Dusk Falls
4/05/2007 10:08:00 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
4th April, 7 more days to go to my birthday.
sigh, i wonder sometimes, does anybody remember it. haha. and here i am, counting down to my own birthday. haha. what a joke. i don't even know whether it's such a grand day anymore. after all these years. it just makes me wonder. so emo now. lol.
another thing i realise, is that every year, before my birthday, things just happen, and the person i wanna celebrate it with just cuts off because of that. sigh. either that, or people just don't have time. haha. oh well. well, at least this year, i know what i can hope on, what the best birthday present to me could ever be.
had dinner with Daniel, Gabriel and Bing Rong just now, down at Marina Square, then headed home after that. haha. but it was good, kinda took my mind off things.
well, sometimes i really wonder, do you still come here. do you still read what i write, listen to what i say. it's just a thought.
As Dusk Falls
4/04/2007 08:42:00 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
3rd April, 8 more days to go!
ooh. i can say that I'm improving on my dancing. haha. well, i recently, and quite slow as a matter of fact, discovered that the key to being not so stiff, is to relax. lol, quite obvious this fact was, yet i just didn't know how to do it till today i guess. haha.
met up with Daniel and Gabriel for dinner just now, then headed down to O School for dance, haha. quite a great day today was, met alot of new people, like, Ya Da Nar, Cheryl, and Sin Keat aka Cash. haha. as what he'd like me to call him. haha. yup.
well, there still seems to be a hole in my heart. i see you in pain, yet i can't extent my helping hand. cuz i know it's not the time, cuz i know that you won't wanna accept it right now. it seems that i would, my heart tells me to, but i know better than to do so. what a dilemma I'm in. just gotta wait. and i'll just continue to do that. prayin for God's love. for God to just come to you.
"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:34-35(NIV)
As Dusk Falls
4/03/2007 11:58:00 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
2nd April, 9 more days to go!
today was quite a happy day for me. haha. despite the fact that the matter bothered me a few times during the day. but i have to say that i enjoyed myself. basically, i found myself at 2 major places today. Queenstown Ikea, and Plaza Singapura.
met up with Daniel, Gabriel and Dajie to go mirror shopping today. lol. shall show oyu a few pics later. haha. basically had lunch, then walked around IKEA, which was like DaJie described, a giant playground for us. haha. and really found a few good prices. haha. and comfortable furniture too. lol. =P we were practically just lying on the sofa beds. lol. after that, the 4 of us parted ways for the moment, and headed our different directions.
left: the four at IKEA. right: the mirror i'm eyeing. lol.
buy the sofa and the two guys for just $1195!!! haha.
then, fried mars bars at Far East Plaza. haha.
it was next to Plaza Singapura with Bing Rong, Keith and Jasper for the movie, the Number 23. lol. i wouldn't say it was that nice, kinda boring at a few parts, but it was brilliantly composed, if that's the word. haha. conclusion, the director/scriptwriter/author either is super bored, or super bored. haha. then we were like walking around plaza Singapura after the movie looking for everything that was associated with the number 23. lol.
disclaimer: don't be mistaken, i'm not behind anywhere pulling strings.
As Dusk Falls
4/02/2007 11:58:00 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
1st April. the countdown begins, 10 more days to my birthday!
well, it seems that i've been quite a tough time for me for the past week. things have been going down and down and down and it finally made me hit rock bottom. i realised alot of stuff through this lesson though, so i'm kinda thankful for it. there's just something missing still, haha, but i shan't elaborate.
sowing what you reap was the main topic of today's sermon. and it's great to say that it really hit me, some of the points. yeah. i really felt God's touch today, went down to the altar, and there i felt it. began to just pour out everything, tears just couldn't stop flowing. i just placed my hurts and sorrows upon God. and there, i gave it all to Him. i kinda feel better now. =) glad to have such a great family of God all around me. it just, encourages me, just brightens up my day. haha.
well, today's funniest thing that happened was that the first jump i did during worship, made me feel as though i was in flight. in short, i felt like i was flyin. haha. totally weightless. haha. guess it was just the peace of God flowing into me. haha.
yup, i got myself a baptism present for myself today. lol. i'm so self pampering. haha. presenting, the Razor Mantis Control Mousepad. yeah, it looks more like a doormat cuz of it's size. but oh well. haha. yeah. that's all for today i guess. haha.
As Dusk Falls
4/01/2007 11:58:00 PM
basically, this post is dedicated to the ecapade of Henzy David about Singapore today. joining him in his 'adventure' is his brother Ben. lol.
basically, i went to meet ben at panjang at about 4, then headed down to far east to get fried mars bars! haha. later on, side tracked all the way to heeren, walked around abit, headed to cineleisure, had dinner and then, headed down to CDANs to visit the Trybe Cluster 4 camp being held there. haha.
it was great. haha, met alot of new people. and did quite alot of stuff. shan't elaborate more. lol. kinda tired. haha.
well, i've talked about the game Battle for Middle Earth, now let me show you one of the screens, featuring, one of the most fearsome summonable in-game units, the Balrog.
