Saturday, May 31, 2008
it was quite a long day today. all the way from morning 8am to now.
well, sad to say. we lost the tournament during the 2 match of the day. there's no blame going on anywhere. like. hung around the gameslab till around 3 plus and headed down to queensway where me, frans, alvin and wayne had a very nice talk about stuff. haha. then headed down to victoria concert hall to support Junjie! haha.
it was cool. a good time of fellowshipping, and supper at lau pa sat. haha. i'd post the pictures soon. actually quite late le. haha. it's a big picture post. haha.
the whole group.
lol. unsatisfied me tried to take another group photo. / me and dajie!
one retared and one serious shot.
feng shan you na meh hao wan meh?
the guys (excluding EJ and photographer) / EeJay and JunJie
not exactly allowed to but well. it's abit of the concert. one part of 'shan hu hai' by Jay Chou.
As Dusk Falls
5/31/2008 11:42:00 PM
Friday, May 30, 2008
"how much of human life is wasted on waiting."
above was taken from Indiana Jones and the kingdom of the Crystal skull. it was quite a good movie. just that i didn't really like the thing about aliens. lol.
went out around 6plus, nearly 7pm to Cdans with Sihan, Angela and Vege. initially wanted to go bowling. but because of vege's 'timely' arrival, we decided to head back to bukit batok and have dinner there instead.
seriously, i really wanna thank you guys, veg, sihan, angela and albert. i mean, you guys helped me alot yesterday and today. for reasons that you know yourselves. haha. =) shh, it's a 不能說的秘密!" haha. ok.
the energy used to stabilize my fluctuating emotional state now is immense. i mean, i can tell when i unknowingly just burst out just now. ended up quarrelling with my dad again. sigh. it's not like i want to or anything. i mean, it's just triggered. like. damn. irritating.
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as if you couldn't be more obvious about arrowing/shooting people in particular. jeez. call yourself a christian. using these kinds of underhanded means to get people to do what you think is correct or right. right in God's sight? what is? who decides that? you? if you decide what's right in God's sight or what's not. then you're telling us that you're God? how interest.ing this is.
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请不要放开我的双手
已经习惯你的双手
牵着我的那种温柔
只要你懂
我会流泪是因为最深处的感动
"...that one glimpse was enough"
As Dusk Falls
5/30/2008 02:10:00 PM
Thursday, May 29, 2008
"...it's a desperate attempt to keep myself busy."
answering Albert's call to help pack stuff down at Trybe centre today. met Sihan and vege and Jurong East Mrt station. while waiting for Albert, i did a little something. lol. picture this, a floating spinning card suspended in mid air between my two hands in the middle of Jurong East Mrt station. the reactions from the passer-bys were amazing. eyes wide opened, stares. clearly, some of them were freaked out. but it was amazing.
off to tampines, Trybe centre, where we packed stuff for the Girls brigade CWC. did abit more sorting, pasting and stapling work. and then had dinner. haha. that was pretty much all for today. pictures! =D
"...it's just so different without you."
As Dusk Falls
5/29/2008 10:20:00 PM
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
"... we wish we'd met each other earlier. but i know that wouldn't have been a good thing."
we all know about influence and it's power over people. but what we don't know is that influence also only comes when one has trust in the "influencer". even that slightest bit of trust to say that "hey, i'll see what this guy has to say." is good enough trust for the person to come under the influence of others.
it's not as simple as going to somewhere as a leader and taking your power as teh leader and saying that i have to influence people so these people must listen to me. that won't work. pure, true influence only comes when trust is present. without trust, that influence is nought.
however, the power that influence carries also must come with responsibility. like the saying goes "with great power, comes great responsibility." influence, if placed in the wrong hands, may become "manipulation", or bring about unintended consequences. use it wisely, the gift of influence is a powerful tool. but as always, you'll reap what you sow. if you sow discord, you'll reap discord, if you sow unhappiness, hate, sorrows, you'll reap the same.
"...what can i say? i'm always full of surprises."
As Dusk Falls
5/27/2008 01:54:00 AM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
the alarm rang at 5.45am. i thought i could sleep just 5 minutes more, so well, i turned it off. i woke up at 6.50am, found my fist against my cheek and my cheek sore when i woke up. i was like, oh crap, I'm late.
left my house at 7.07am, and finally reached at 7.15 - 7.20am. assembly was going on, i didn't really bother, i mean, I'm not there anymore, so i headed to the hall just as usual.
"you're still with them?"
"yeah, third year running already. haha"
that was one of my teacher's questions and my response. where was i? the place that i was in a few years ago. Yusof Ishak Secondary. and it was for the Trybe You Can Do It run. it felt, nice, strangely enough to be back in YI. since i told myself that i'd never have to return here when i left unless i had a proper purpose and reason. i guess i was wrong huh. the people that I've left here still haven't forgotten the face of Henzy David. all his Gan-Mei's, ex-trybe students and teachers. it was enjoyable to be back here. but this year, with a greater difference than the last. this year, with magic up my sleeves.
2t2 was an enjoyable class. the potential of the people in that class is amazing. I'm just wondering whether they'll find out about it. we see them in that state and we know that they're destined for greatness. but we wonder about whether they'll realise it themselves. knowing the factors that might affect them along the way. it requires a great deal of courage to stand and fight for what you want, what you believe in. and my prayer for them is that they will find that courage.
Raffy and Sebastian were great. i was well, more or less shy when presenting in front of a crowd that i just come to know. well, guess it's something that i have to work on. especially my voice projection. I'm generally soft spoken unless triggered to defend my rights and beliefs.
the coin in the soda can, think and alot of 2cm performances. I'm growing to like the 2cm. haha. lunch was at batok east ave 4. followed by a walk to west mall for "Accuracy of Death" which was a particularly weird movie for me. haha.
As Dusk Falls
5/22/2008 09:58:00 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
"...always worth the wait."
"why?"
"cuz good things come to those who wait."
you could say it was a great day. looking back at it. haha. it was waking up at a darn early time and off to Huayi sec for the Dare to Dream Trybe run!
you could say it was exciting. i mean, it was. in the class was Dy and Yimin and we got the class of 2e2, Sihan's class. hahaha. went thru the program. performed a few tricks. it's actually surprising that i can rmbr a few people from the school. lol, like Kohser, who walked up to me and said, still remember me anot? den i was like, yes kohser. haha. but then again, there are also occasions where i don't remember, like bobo for example. haha. =P
well, it's a good thing. it's a good feeling. the west side people are more, open to magic than the people of the east side. the responses you get from performing over this side is gratifying.
after that, Albert, Vege, Angela, Sihan and me went for lunch at the yuhua market area. cuz i needed to get stuff from there. then it was toward bukitbatok mrt station, a long wait for a very close friend, and then home.
you know, i really enjoyed myself today. it's a fulfilling day. one of those days that i feel that i did good stuff and felt loved. haha.
As Dusk Falls
5/21/2008 10:59:00 PM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
"choose the one that you can't live without? well, i guess i did."
i guess if there really was an area 146, the only thing you'll see inside the high security lock down facility would be a wooden desk, a tall chair, and me sitting on that chair looking out the window. if there even is a window to start with. but I'd like a window.
the secrets that we all keep. the amount is impressive for people like me. the secrets, the knowledge, the truth about people. and, as the general term "birds of a feather flock together" used. these people usually find solace in congregating together.
we should make a move soon. the opportune moment dawns upon us. for the truth, to set us free.
"it's the job of an artist, to convince the world of his lie. meaning what he creates, isn't real. but it's okay to enjoy it for what it is."
As Dusk Falls
5/17/2008 11:33:00 PM
Friday, May 16, 2008
"it's like, I can live without you. but without you, I can't live."
well, Henzy David is feeling his lonely self again. as always happens whenever he's just left alone, staying at home for the whole day. well, i'm just darn bored alright. really, there's like no one to call out cuz everyone's busy. nowhere to go cuz ever place's boring. and well. i'm dying of boredom here.
that's darn sad. really, i never thought i'd say this of myself but i'm darn sad. i mean. you know so many people, but you don't know them at the same time. it's true ain't it. what they say, you're a walking contradiction.
well, here's a video.
"some stories, needn't be said to everyone."
As Dusk Falls
5/16/2008 03:20:00 PM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
"...i can't allow myself to be tired when you are."
i'm predicting another whole stay home day. partially because i have no idea where to go, who to call out, and what to do. and partially, also because well, it just feels so, empty. there's like, really nothing much that sincerely interests and amazes me.
maybe because i've had the liberty to run around the whole of singapore, discovering, exploring and "uncovering" new stuff since young, that i seem to practically get bored of most of the places of interest in SG. or maybe, i just find that it's much more rewarding to spend time with those people that you feel are closer to you. well, whatever it is. i'll just have to find some way to counter this boredom, somehow or rather.
well, the past two days have indeed been tiring. culture shock after culture shock left me in a spot struggling to adapt as quickly as possible and put in the best that i could for the run. tiredness and hunger were also another affecting factor.
went down to Ashton's opposite Katong Mall for lunch after yesterday's run. they were telling me that it was better than botak jones, so well, why not give it a try. haha.
turns out that it was alright. quite filling. but i wonder, is it just me, or does fish taste, tasteless. lol. well, dory fish, for the least of it. or maybe i was just having a tasteless day yesterday. haha. sat around and improved a trick, then headed towards bugis.
another interesting this we found just outside Katong Mall. I'll call it, the ultimate rivalry of the century. lol, coke is cooler. pepsi's only in water.
and well, i finally bested Minerva. after 3 times of completing the game. lol. and here's my stats. haha.
right. guess that's pretty much it.
upcoming runs, 20,21 may - Huayi sec. 22 may - Yusof Ishak sec.
i got another shot of the flyer yesterday morning. this time, abit later than the day before. but still, here it is.
Majestic Flare
Henzy David
Canon IXUS 850IS
As the last remaining light of the sun fades beneath the horizon,
a thought rises from the heart,
the remembering of a close one's embrace,
the gentle touch of care and love.
the Heart suspended in exubirant joy.
hoping, wishing.
knowing that everyday that passes, is a day closer to the next encounter.
"Will I, see you again?"
As Dusk Falls
5/15/2008 12:35:00 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
i got up pretty early today. expecting a wake up call, i let myself lie there in bed for 15 more minutes. eventually got up, prepared, and headed out even before the sun had risen. it was towards the rising sun, as i got on the cab all the way down to Victoria School for a You Can Do It trybe run. and well, indeed, it has been ages since i last been to one.
the school was cool, the boys were, well, they're just boys. i mean, typical normal boys that i don't seem to find myself in the category of. haha. they were a fun bunch, well, that was practically after the break, where i got a decent "comeback".
So Much for Deep Water
Henzy David
Canon IXUS 850 IS
headed toward Jurong entertainment centre after that with Vanessa, Glenda, Jia Ying and Albert. initially they wanted to go ice skating, in which they did, but me and albert stayed out. but i found myself going off to another place after that.
Jurong point, dinner and here i am home. well, cutting out my own emotional feeling now, my day has been great. enjoyable, and well, just perfect. although i sincerely wish the last part could've stretched a little longer. and well, i got home after the sun went down.
Rebirth Glow
Henzy David
Canon IXUS 850IS
As Dusk Falls
5/13/2008 08:06:00 PM
Monday, May 12, 2008
good teammates are hard to find.
really, good people are hard to find too. haha. nothing much to post today. it was a stay home day. well, gotta get up at 5.45am.
[note from self]
i personally feel that spamming on tagboards is darn retarded. lol. especially when people have done nothing to you, and you just seem to find fault with that person. like, get a life man. if you don't like the person, go up to the person and tell him. otherwise, just don't give a damn.
As Dusk Falls
5/12/2008 11:05:00 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
"...you are the missing piece to complete this puzzle."
it's strange, weird to find me home before the sun sets. this post, titled "Against the Setting Sun", is basically about the thoughts that i have on the way back home just now.
it's more of a thinking thing. you travel halfway across the island homeward bound alone. well, in some sense, it's good cuz it allows you time to think your thoughts, consider your options, think about who to trust, who not to. where to place this and that. but the cons, well, sometimes, it just makes you feel so, alone.
"it's so easy to misunderstand Henzy David"
so true, so very true. over the years, the amount of people that misunderstand Henzy David has grown. well, it isn't exponential, i wouldn't want it to be. but i've got the feeling that it's not just gonna stop here.
because of the things i do, the way i think, the stuff that i set into motion. it's just strange. but i can't blame them, i can't blame anyone. i'm the only one who really knows what's going on with myself. maybe it's my own upbringing, the way that i grew up. relying mainly on myself, with no pillar of support to lean on, no words of encouragement to push me forward. the only thing i told myself was this, "never give up". what i had, was the standard chinese family, using negative comments in hope of making the person work harder and become better.
"you don't know the pain that i endure with the passing of each day."
so, while the rest of the world out there celebrates mother's day today. i find myself sitting here in front of the computer screen blogging. knowing that my actual mum isn't exactly here. maybe that's the reason why i prefer to hang around girls more. just maybe. it's not proven. but it doesn't matter either way.
"i have a choice, to choose the art of deception, or the power of trust."
knowing me, well, i'd choose both. i'm a guy that's constantly seeking balance in my life. well, i'm constantly seeking it, that doesn't mean i've found it yet.
As Dusk Falls
5/11/2008 08:18:00 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
well, it was surprisingly fast. that, i have to tell you. but the thing is that it leaves you in a position wanting more. maybe it's a strategem or something. but it works.
end the thing fast, leave it on a cliffhanger, and people would want to come back for more.
the service was great, the message was wonderful, and well, hunger really gets what hunger wants. Tommy Tenny's Godchasers seminar was well, a blast. haha. entertaining, humourous, yet at the same time putting the message over clearly. wouldn't mind for another one of these. haha.
it was off to IMM for dinner after that. well, i still feel like going for Ajisen. haha.
As Dusk Falls
5/10/2008 11:53:00 PM
Friday, May 09, 2008
i was kinda thinking about first impressions. i mean, i can't help but do so. i just met a couple of new people just now cuz i was at Gameslab gaming with Anthony's guys. it turned out pretty well. it was fun, enjoyable. but the greatest take back from today was this. their reactions to even the simplest of effects like making a card disappear and grabbing it back from thin air.
i guess that's where the first impression really starts. that's the 'wow' factor. the factor that really puts a "label" or a "category" onto a person. i guess mine was "the guy that can really amazing magic stuff". but i have to admit, i wasn't really that smooth with my moves tonight, but that's another story.
well, in other news, i went to check out keith's grad show today. wanting to check out his final, and well, it was really really good. it felt like a movie trailer, the music was great and/but it left me cliffhanging. haha. great job bro! =) enjoyed it alot. haha. i'm darn impressed.
looking for the link? well, click here -> http://thedreamshop.net
all details are at the website.
As Dusk Falls
5/09/2008 11:12:00 PM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
night of the crescent moon. it's generally a quite warm, still can-do-cooling night. running through my mind, pretty much are thoughts about my assessments, about trust, about people who make things complicated for themselves.
it's just strange. I'm worried, yet i keep telling myself to trust God, believing in Him so much for a miracle to happen. I'm unsure, uncertain. but I've got trust. i know I'm not gonna give up hope no matter what. because I'm happy. and well, even though I'm weak, I've got the feeling that I'm ready to take on anything that comes my way.
it's weird. weird to see that even the people who you were biologically birthed to don't seem to trust you. come to think of it. it's sad. but what the heck huh? they're just like everyone else aren't they? they just make things complicated for themselves. just like every single human being.
P.S. i don't harbor any hate, dislike, or whatsoever negative emotion against them. i'm just pissed cuz of what they say about the people around me.
this is a note to parents out there who read my blog. take it from me, learn to trust your kids. give them freedom to choose. guide them through their consequences. but never, ever, lose faith or trust in them. believe in them, help them realise their dreams, not your unfulfilled ones.
Beneath the Burning Sky
Henzy David
Canon IXUS 850IS
As Dusk Falls
5/08/2008 09:38:00 PM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
well, today was an island creamery happy day. haha. enjoyed myself pretty nicely today.
lemmie jump to the emphasis for tonight shall we. so, what's the great debate topic tonight Henzy David? ok, first, i need to stop talking about myself or to myself as in a 3rd person. next, the emphasis.
Age does not define maturity
maturity. this word brings up multiple thoughts in the mind of humans. the power of this word, the meaning of this word. well, the power of thoughts.
okay. let's begin. there's like this common thought that your maturity is directly related to your age. well, in general, the common human being is subject to this theory. however, there are a group of people who are not. ok, not to be raining fire down on the normal human being. but the point that i'm trying to prove is that yes, age does not definte maturity.
there are some people which are generally more mature than their age tells them to be, and vice-versa, people who's maturity aren't of their age. it's a two way thing. personally, i don't rule out possibilties of things happening, so i won't rule out the possibility of having one that's more mature than their age, and one that's less mature than their age.
personally, i feel that we shouldn't have a stuck-up mindset that all of us are subject to the age is related to maturity theory. because in my life, the point has already been proven false, and most of the time, the people who are more mature than their age hang out with each other. because it's only with these same "blood" that they're able to relate better.
so, moral of the story, "Age does not define maturity" and "Don't rule out possibilities".
and last but not least.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God Bless. becareful what you wish for, cuz all your wishes will come true if you believe. haha.
As Dusk Falls
5/06/2008 10:03:00 PM
Monday, May 05, 2008
yes. yes. yes yes yes yes yes yes yes!!!! why? ok. this post will tell you.
1) David Blaine's Split Spades Lions 1st edition!
ok. this might not interest a numerous amount of audiences. but it's mainly for archiving sake. i got it. haha. darn cool. the cards are darn smooth. yea, i have a natural attraction to smooth, shiny, black or white stuff. haha. damn cool. haha. and they feel damn great, the handling is like, man, awesome. haha.
2) Iron Man!
finally caught it. and truly, it's definitely a must watch for all those who really know iron man even before the movie was out. comic readers will get a very huge pleasant surprise after the credits which may either spell Ultimatum, or (HUGE SPOILER WARNING) A-V-E-N-G-E-R-S!!
i rate this movie, 5 stars. perfect blend of CG and story telling. ultimate rush of the century man. it's really good. haha.
well, guess that's all for tonight. haha. really enjoyed myself. but i guess, it could've been a little bit better. hahaha.
As Dusk Falls
5/05/2008 11:27:00 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
the recent changes have been abit weird. so to say. i find myself being in a situation needing to adapt to a very new surrounding. working with a new set of people. my stage has been reset, and now, it's back to the drawing board for Henzy David.
it's strange, i have to admit that i quite like the old way. before everything changed. now, i need to be more patient than ever, take my steps more careful than ever. i made a slip, i revealed my gameplan abit too early. now i'll have to pay for my consequences, whatever they will be.
argh. i'm pissed. i'm pissed at myself. guess i can say that my mind's pretty tired out. it's gonna work. the next phase will definitely work.
argh. stress!!! sigh.
PS. don't worry. my will power is strong enough to withstand this pressure. i won't crumble beneath this. i'm gonna work my magic. cuz i know that there's someone with my this time round.
As Dusk Falls
5/04/2008 09:33:00 PM
Thursday, May 01, 2008
i just finished reading the book titled [The Last Lecture] by Randy Pausch. the guy that wrote this book actually did a last lecture in this place called Carnegie Mellon. a lecture titled "really achieving your childhood dreams". but there was something else to this guy, he was dying, of cancer.
the book is really about achieving your childhood dreams, about being optimistic, about how to live life as a human being. no, it's not a religious thing, instead, it's something that he quotes "transcends all religion", instead, has an emphasis on what any humans being with a right working set of morals should have. it was about living.
well, i felt that it was a great read. and you guys really should go pick it up and read. haha.
"The Eaten by Wolves Factor"
you know what i really agree with Singapore? it's that it's complacent. we're so comfortable living in such a safe society that we instantaneously forget, or well, disregard the possibility of worst case scenarios. which is in general, what i always consider. although sometimes, i'm guilty of neglecting that scenario and heading on as planned.
always think of the worst case scenario. don't rule it out as a possibility that can't happen. things may happen when you least suspect it to. seemingly, i just smiled at the last sentence. maybe its just because that's how i seem to play out my life. enshrouded in mystery.
As Dusk Falls
5/01/2008 10:12:00 PM
