Tuesday, October 03, 2006
gah. after the chem mock paper, sorta went around doing stuff.. although i got highest in the EL paper 1, tying with Aziemah. strangely, the both of us got the same marks for both ppr1 and ppr 2, i still didn't manage to beat her. gah, lost by 2 miserable marks. which kinda cost one mark which cost me a B3. GAH!.. Ms Ng initially awarded me with a B3, but Ms Poh said it would be a B4 instead. well, didn't they moderate? gah. anyway, this isn't important.
got freaking demoralised and disappointed by the total prelim results. it was drastic. and thy shall finally muster up the courage and throw my face away and subject myself to some nagging and scolding by putting up my mark here. 28points. yeah. 28. L1R4. somebody kill me. but NO!! i will not allow myself to wallow in the depths of this err, setback. haha. that's the word. lol. gah.
i will walk away from the hall victorious, holding up my O level results and then enjoying the long awaited holidays, dye my hair, and make my way to that Multimedia Animation course in Ngee Ann Poly. just watch me! God will be behind me. and I know He will. faith in God. Faith in GOD!!.. now, i have to work like i never worked before. 100% man, 100% God.
headed to Keith's place after school. *continues to bite on the Pocky Stick that he just went down to buy* got some of the star wars movies from him. but i guess i won't be keeping it long.. after i watch it i most probably gotta delete it cuz my hard-disk not enough space. lol.
alright. one thing to praise God for today. this is that i feel that he's with me again. yeah. thank God for that. =) I was more or less telling God when i was walking to school, "Hmm, if you could like make it rain to 'clean up' the haze it'd help alot." that was around 7.20am. haha. at 9plus it started to rain. and i was like, thanks. haha. you really did make it happen. haha.
i was standing outside my class this morning, look down four storeys. now my class is like on the 4th floor. so after the mock exam, i was like standing outside my class, alone. then i kinda had a lil' conversation with God. I could really feel He was there. was talking to Him abt the dream i had yesterday, and my prayers. and my life. haha. it just feels good, being able to talk to Him and feel that He's there, so near.
and this is how i got my new blog name. "you were always there, never far." because God was always there with me, even in my darkest times, where i felt most alone, He was always there.
ok. i shall end here. haha. that's all for today. i'm gonna make myself work hard these few weeks before the 'O's.. and i'm gotta take that exam by storm. just watch me! God be with Me.
As Dusk Falls
10/03/2006 09:30:00 PM
