Friday, December 08, 2006
this is the 200th post! hooray!
but the contents of this post isn't really that joyful i guess. it contains my thoughts. i shouldn't be here at a time like this, since i'm having a camp tml. if you're interested in what happened to me today, then you should be reading my previous post. but i suppose this post will catch ur attention too. so read on.
i've been thinking. the reason for me to start thinking is cuz of this feeling. this gut wrenching feeling, this love sick feeling, this so-joyful-i-want-to-jump-around feeling, this i-can't-seem-to-do-anything feeling.
first thing i wanna say. i really love my spiritual family. especially my "inner circle's" most inner two people, Jasper, my current best bud + bible-verse-bonded brother, and Joadine, my just-turned-18 DaJie, and source of council, love and encouragement. really want to thank God for them. they've been so much of a blessing to me, so much so that they don't even know it. its really such a joy to have trusting and loyal friends like them.
i don't know. the thing i really want to do now, is to seek God and grow closer to Him. and also to form a greater bond between the members of the few cells that i always hang out with. i'm thinking of using this holidays to do so. so much so that i'd rather choose not to work. i really feel that i'm getting very close to God, closer than I've ever been before. but its not gonna be easy.
i really love God. i really love my spiritual family. i really love those in my inner circle. I want to Draw Near to God. i want to seek Him with all I am. and i want the people around me to reach heaven with me too. especially the ones I love and hold so dearly.
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God. I know you're hearing me. I know you can hear every single thought i'm thinking. then do me this favour won't you Father? make sure that everyone I know, everyone I love goes to Heaven. I know it may sound selfish, but please Father, just this once. bring em up when the time is right.I love you Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit, Father God. Draw nearer to me as i draw nearer to you won't you. I really wanna bask in that Holy presence of yours, stand in that uncomprehensable glory of yours, and experience forever that comfort of you by my side. I just feel so empty without you, I've been searching for such a long time, i'm just so tired, but I'll continue searching, until that day that I find you and manage to come to you, reach out and touch you. God, Father God. I really love you. come, don't pass me by. never let me go.
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that's is what my heart is exactly saying to God. that is my true heart's desire.
once again, if you wish to read about my day, its in the previous post. God Bless you.
As Dusk Falls
12/08/2006 12:27:00 AM
