Saturday, March 31, 2007
it's another 18hours to my baptism. haha. ok, well that happened a year ago. but it's worth rejoicing! haha. soon, soon. happy baptism to me. lol
HANNAH! your prayer worked! arigato! thank God! haha. and i realised ur name is symmetrical. haha. cept for the Ns. lol.
i feel better. =) thanks bro. Thank you Lord!
As Dusk Falls
3/31/2007 01:01:00 AM
Friday, March 30, 2007
those of which are ecthed into the heart
it was quite a normal day for me once again. although i went for the med check up this morning, had to wake up early for that. it ended shortly, after about 30mins. haha, lucky for me that i don't needa do blood test, i hate injections. haha. headed home and watched hana kimi and the latest episodes of Bleach and Naruto Shippudden. haha. then headed down to CDANS to look for the ppl who went to camp, then had dinner at West Mall and headed home.
yes, i do remember you hannah, and thanks. =)
those of which are ecthed into the heart, those of which the heart holds dear and those of which hold a special place in the heart.
As Dusk Falls
3/30/2007 09:08:00 PM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
sigh. i think i've been sighing alot this week. really.
well, i understand now, really, what it means, how it feels like to be a father. i recall once in CG, ah pa said, if you want to be a father, then prepare to be hurt. i understand. and now, i'm prepared. i don't care what's gonna happen. i'm prepared for it right now.
i just feel that it's not gonna be the way you think it's gonna be though. know that it's different, you and me, this time, it's a totally different. and it's not gonna change the way i feel, the way i have concern for you. it's not. i'm sure of it. yeah. i guess i'll end here tonight.
look back at the past, read up the old blog posts. then you'll see it too.
my heart cries out for another.
As Dusk Falls
3/29/2007 09:51:00 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Rise from the Ashes
now take it all back. and just pick up the slack. it's not gonna be easy though, but i'm gonna do it. but i won't forget about you. haha. definitely not. you've done too much for me to just erase you from my memories.
you say, that it won't be the same again. i agree. =)
well. it's those kinda times that i thank God that you're in safe hands. and thank God. just thank God. =) ending here tonight.
As Dusk Falls
3/28/2007 10:46:00 PM
a few words, pissed off with myself. can't get it off my mind.
you know not of the tears that i shed, yet, there's nothing that i can do.
i laugh at totally nothing. i cry for just one thing. : ) :
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
well, i'm not gonna disturb you. but i really wonder, what did he tell you.
just got back from dance, lol, met Candice on the way there and had an interesting conversation with her. haha. then headed to city hall first, to meet up with Gabriel and Daniel, had like, lunch+dinner, then met up with Yixin, and headed down to O school to slack for awhile while waiting for the classes to start. haha.
made a new friend, lol, seems that my I profile is increasing. named Henry. and well, yea, also figured that i really needa improve. ok. that's that. i'm pretty tired.
and after knocking myself insane for a moment this afternoon, i kinda gained back my sanity. which i didn't really want to do. cuz, well, you know, it makes you think alot about stuff that you don't really wanna think of for the time being. i am, just as my MSN display name states, on the brink of sanity. but I'm still approachable, lol. i'm not insane till the extent that i'm certified insane, just, well, yeah, no other word to describe it, insane. lol.
i still miss you though. that's not a fact that i can deny. that's why, i'm not planning to do anything big now. just, slowly, one step at a time.
yup. that ends my post for tonight. =D take care guys. i've got stuff to settle. haha.
As Dusk Falls
3/27/2007 11:26:00 PM
it's like as if pure rage is building up in me man. i seriously don't got any idea how to counter this feelings. just gotta wait huh. let nature take it's course, as they say. how bout taking time to settle feelings? haha. i don't know how that's gonna help. but i presume it will. so i guess that's the way. =)
well. to all those who seem to read Henzy David's blog and seem to think that he's in a situation of great peril(in short, in trouble or having problems). he's not exactly. haha. and even if he was, there's nothing that you can do. =) the care and concern is truly appreciated. haha.
well, at least there's dance tonight to take my mind off things. haha. but i still got alot of other things to do. whatever it is, it's not over yet.
find the key that unlocks that heart.
[added at 12.31pm]
ok, i snapped. haha. lost it already. but the strange thing about me losing it is that right now, i feel better. i feel that my mind's clearer. i can think better right now. haha. i can see clearer(literally). it's like my mind has a safe in it. just totally locking up something for the time being. to allow situations in the real world to cool and just, become more condusive for me to work the next step. yup. my heart is now with my nakama.
haha. i think i'm starting to like fei lun hai's songs too. hahaha. lol. crazy me. =P
now let's let terror rise! in the warcraft. hahahaha! joking. lol. only a few would understand this. but you would if you understand that my favourite race in warcraft 3 is the Undead Scourge. haha.
Monday, March 26, 2007
i don't know what to do already. seriously.
i don't think i can keep crushing my heart anymore just to get things over with.
i don't even know why i'm here.
i can't really sleep at night anymore.
i can't really do things right.
i can't live like that.
As Dusk Falls
3/26/2007 08:11:00 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
it was an ok day for me. considering the recent sickness developed due to the rising heat within my body. i didn't know thinkin so much would make me sick.
had SOL2 in the morning, the final lesson. then accompanied Ven to the bukit merah community library. it was quite interesting, the library, cuz it was like kinda difficult to find stuff cuz the shelves were like packed in two different clusters which were 'skillfully' placed at both ends of the room. haha. great architechture huh? haha. it was also kinda funny browsing thru the different titles and categories. haha. after that, headed to catch the bus down to EXPO with Ben and Melvin.
after service, we headed to Far East Plaza, since keith had wanted to get a shirt, and finally tried out the fried mars bars! haha. ok, i stupidly threw one into my mouth, and the next thing i knew, i was going, hot hot hot hot!. lol. eh, can't blame mah, first time leh. haha. then headed to Taka, then Plaza Singapura, then home. haha.
darn, my body's burning up, and my breathing has more or less turned into gasps for air. i hate getting sick, i seldom do. lol. i'll end here. i can hardly type anymore. God Bless.
the heart aches for what is lost, but the mind fights to sustain the soul.
As Dusk Falls
3/25/2007 10:18:00 PM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Black Bear, Eternal Frost; the Truth Unveiled
in hope of trying to get my mind off things, i called a buch of people down for a movie outing, but in vain, at the very last minute, no one could make it, so it was left with me, Keith and Melvin at Suntec City, watching TMNT.
i'm learning, but it hurts. i recall Daer telling me, "why are you being so selfish to yourself." indeed, those words hit me straight there. i totally neglected myself, i didn't care what would happen to me, all i wanted was to make others happy. but i ended up hurting more than helping. suddenly, this sentence also dawned upon, "you bear the weight of the world on your shoulders." true, i'm carrying the burden of others for them. but i don't know, i've grown so used to it. and i didn't really care. until now, i still don't.
strange as it may seem, the title of this post is indeed meaningful, if you know the one christened Henzy David well enough, standing out specifically at bear and frost. my parable unveils itself. the rest of the title should be self explanatory.
i just want it to be over. i don't know how long i can withstand it. i don't even know if i should be posting it up here. i'm not rushing, i just need somewhere to place my thoughts. those sleepless nights. u ssim i lits.
As Dusk Falls
3/24/2007 11:58:00 PM
Friday, March 23, 2007
seriously, i'm starting to hate myself. where has my faith gone to? what the hell is wrong with me? why am i allowing myself to just even have this pressure on my shoulders? why am i even allowing myself to doubt God in his plan. I want to believe! and I AM GOING TO! no matter what. I'm not gonna shirk away from the light anymore, not gonna run away from the truth that God is definitely gonna do something in my life!
damn it henzy david, it's not about you anymore, it's not about how you fend for yourself or how strong you are. it's about what God wants to do in your life. it's about Him, His Time, His Will, His Strength, His wisdom. so stop counting on your self to do things. just believe won't you, just believe in Him, just do that, and I assure you that all things will be possible. remember that.
As Dusk Falls
3/23/2007 01:21:00 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
so, i spent the whole day at home reading. what a miracle. lol.
I'm wondering to myself, will the "White Rider" emerge again? or will the entity, christened "Frostwhisper" rise from the icy recesses where i last buried him? or will that damned soul of Blackheart resurface from the past? let's pray that they won't. especially the latter, the true old self of Henzy David that was christened Blackheart 3 years ago.
it seems that there's a tremendous pressure weighing on my shoulders. sigh. Henzy David's not letting in, he ain't gonna let that pressure crush him no matter what.
I'm definitely gonna fight it. press in till the end. I'm gonna work my way back to where i was before. I'm gonna learn to be a genius of hard work. I'm gonna trust and rely fully on God.
As Dusk Falls
3/22/2007 10:17:00 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
a great day, and a memorable one too. I'll tell you why. haha.
Breakthrough for the Clowns
the day that BoC, or better known as the Bunch of Clowns started filming. it was a great move. haha. met up with Keith and Wayne at Panjang LRT station, then it was forward march to Ben's house to film the first few scences. then around the neighbourhood for the next few, and it was the end of that. started about 1plus 2pm, ended about 5pm. haha.
after that, it was off to lot1 for dinner. then home. haha. it was a great day, full of laughs, unexpected changes and the like. haha. my body's still aching from last night. haha.
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[added at 1:52am]
here's Henzy David posting at 1:52 am. still thinking about the things that he's done to certain people. listening to the tune of "Heart of Worship", just finished reading abit of [Angels and Demons] and doing his full QT after a long disappearance from doing so.
can't stop thinking about the hurt that I've caused. the disappointments and let downs. i wish i could just turn back time and change it, or just erase it from the mind. *lets out a great sigh* I wish I could have done better, I wish I could have been a better person. I wish I didn't have so many things to think about. I wish that Father could just take me to be with Him right now.
Lord, I really need a Miracle! come to me, change me from the inside out. let me once again sing with that fervent passion for you Lord! let me experience that touch from heaven, your wonderous presence daily oh Lord! I'm looking for you, searching for you, where will I find you? the only one that knows my heart, the only one who's capable of removing that void from the depths of my soul. I miss you Lord. I miss you Lord. I miss you. I still love you, I still do.
As Dusk Falls
3/21/2007 11:58:00 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
although my day was pretty boring, my night was a whole load of fun. haha. was late to meet Venelyn at jurong east, so i just headed straight to douby Ghaut, initially City hall, but i was way too early, so i went to play arcade. haha.
Lesson One; Cleared
my first Hip Hop lesson at O School, was a blast. well, at least i can finally declare that I've found something else to do that I like. haha. although I couldn't catch up abit at the back, the whole lesson was great. despite the fact that the crunches nearly killed me. haha.
well. alls well that ends well. headed back home with Venelyn, who stayed back after her lyrical jazz to watch us. lol. and here i am blogging. I've got a feeling that this is only just the beginning for me. hahahaha. xD
As Dusk Falls
3/20/2007 11:36:00 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007
my nu er gave me a very touching and sweet card today. haha. thanks nu er. it's really a blessing to have someone who can always be there to cheer you up. haha. =P thank God for you.
Believe
alot of things have gone through my mind. and I'm gonna believe God for the appeal to RP to get thru. it's been a very messy period of my life, alot of decisions to make, and not all of them have been settled yet. adding to that, are the problems of life. the problems that people have about me. the problems about myself. my weak points, or 'chao kuan'.
i really really don't know what to do. it seems like the world's crumbling down on me, and i'm desperately running about to save it. i wonder when will everything be back to the way it was before. that peaceful state. i'm really holding on to God's promises now, that He'll look down from Heaven upon me, and just lend me a helping hand out of the pit that I fell into. all i can do now is believe and trust in God.
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somehow, at a time like this, what my DaJie told me a long time ago seems to stand out. "It's quite impossible to start as though nothing wrong happened once you've tasted the glory and power of God in you life."
As Dusk Falls
3/19/2007 11:58:00 AM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
today's service was totally great. one could easily sense the peace of God in that place. the pressure-less-ness, the relaxing calm feeling. indeed, it was refreshing when Pastor Cesar preached and shared his own testimony.
well, the G12 conference has passed, leaving me with alot of thoughts and takeback, one of the most thought invoking ones so far was still what Daniel Khong said, "Motion creates Emotion". yeah, it felt kinda different from last year's G12 though, haha. but it was good nonetheless. haha.
after service, headed to Geylang with my cell, to eat. haha. then headed home. quite early to be home today. haha.
just thought i'd post this too. haha
The eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love.
[Psalm 33:18](i seem to be in love with the book of Psalms haha.)
well, with new refreshment of my soul, comes a new song. currently FCBC's next most popular song, by Hillsong London(which stomped me for awhile, cuz i couldn't believe that I didn't have it, since most of my songs frm Hillsong are by United or Australia.), presenting, the new song on the blog, Hillsong London [Lord of All]. Enjoy.
Gonna shout out loud! time to let it out!
As Dusk Falls
3/18/2007 09:47:00 PM
I'm back!
at last. the greatest takeback from the G12 conference, was to have God send an usher to me to tell me that "God is pleased with you."
most touching moment, the final worship session, where all the people whom God had worked miracles in came on stage with their cards, really showing God's love and wonders.
most passionate moment was during worship, when I truly felt that i gave my all, every single bit of it, to just Praise and Worship the Lord.
most hurting part of body right now, my legs. diagnosis, overstrain due to too much jumping, but who cares! haha. it's to praise the Lord! haha.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
well, it seems that Henzy David is a genius with coming up with random 'chim' words of wisdom that has no link to anything. let's see, we have [The Evident is Mystery], [The Plight of Man] and now, [The Incandescent Phase]. totally no link. but they just sound nice. haha.
there's currently like a war going on within myself. haish. i don't like this feeling.
other than that. today was an alright day, bumped into Min and Kelvin while at west mall waiting for time to pass before going down to queensway. so had a little 'high tea' with them. lol. as Min would call it. haha.
and because all the people that i invited for dinner couldn't make it, i ended up spending brotherly time with Keith at his place, along with some great western food(Botak Jones), percious homemade water, quality entertainment from the Playstation2(Valkyrie profile 2 & Kingdom Hearts 2) and a little other companionship from Collie(his dog) and a hamster. that was the main highlight of the day. haha. oh well. shall be camping at EJ's place for the next 3 days or so. so you won't see me till abt sunday. haha. well. yeah. that's that.
As Dusk Falls
3/14/2007 11:03:00 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
well, hospitality sure passed by without any problems arising, although i won't say that I'd choose to do it again if given a choice. apart from the odd striking color combi of green and yellow, and the hat which totally crashes hairstyles, the hospitality duty was pretty fine, apart from the one minor hiccup that happened while the offering bags were being passed around. was group with Olivia, from PeiQi's side. had quite an enjoyable time.
it was off to Vivo City after that, although i sure wished I could've joined Ben and Yixin at Tampines. caught a movie, [Music & Lyrics]. it was a great show. haha. although i was abit blur about what was going on in there, but it was a great show nonetheless. haha. then headed home.
it seems that I'm going thru quite a rough patch right now. like, my heart just sank after something happened. I find that I'm not that able to talk about God anymore. it's like there's something blocking me. I hate it. and I roughly know what it is. it's pretty personal though, doesn't involve people around me. so guys, you don't needa worry. haha. It's like a heavy burden on one's heart. but i'll deal with it. together with God. hand in hand.
otherwise, the Bunch of Clowns are back! and with our, re-arrival, come a teaser poster. haha. check it out. lol.
As Dusk Falls
3/12/2007 01:38:00 AM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
just when i thought i was so close to getting my new handphone. lol. discovered that the plan was to costly. haha. oh well.
it's been awhile since i last blogged. lol, been kinda busy lately. appealing, Trybe runs, collection of stuff, configuring of my system. yup. and much more. haha. in the past two days i went for two Trybe runs, one at Yusof Ishak for the class of 2t2, and one at Swiss Cottage for their Community Club. both of which are You Can Do It programmes. haha.
went and happily created a new email address. which i think i'd be using in sometime, otherwise it's still the one that you guys have right now. haha. kinda bored right now. so i'm like here blogging. lol. made alot of new friends, been said to look like alot of celebrities and even anime characters. lol. it was a fun week for me. but now the more enjoyable time begins, it's the weekends, which means, Cell Group Meeting and Service. ah! i'm down for hospitality this week. green and yellow jacket and cap. couldn't they get a better color combi?!?!?!?! haha. oh well. complaining just for the fun of it. haha.
As Dusk Falls
3/10/2007 01:01:00 PM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
so i take back my words about not appearing online or blogging.
today was a good day, You Can Do It Trybe run for Yusof Ishak Secondary. it was great. met up with Carmen, Wei Wei, Daesiree and Huiying for breakfast at Lot1 first. then cabbed down. it was kinda weird though, being back in school. haha. and over exaggeratedly describing the feeling as treacherous. haha.. well, that was all in the name of fun. haha.
after that, headed to Plaza Singapura, the hotspot for AO tribe's Youths to hangout, with Li Rong and the 4 gals to collect 2 CDs from Trumpet Praise. then walked around abit, then headed down to Panjang to collect something else, a book this time, then headed home to an empty house. haha.
Breaking Point
those two words up there clearly describe this passage. it was one of those times. so hopeless, helpless and the inability to do anything at all. it was on of those times that God broke me down to my lowest point. to humble me down, let me realise once again that without Him I'm really nothing. shan't describe futher. find no point doing so. It's between me and God. this is just to put things down in words.
As Dusk Falls
3/07/2007 11:58:00 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
really man, it's a tough choice to make once you have no where to go. like darn man, i've got no courses. just gotta go appeal as fast as I can. which isn't the next 2 days. like friday. after i complete every preparation for it.
Trybe run today, CCKS for those who didn't make it for the previous runs. haha. abit chaotic at the start. but it was better at the end. haha. yup.
i might not be appearing on blogger for awhile. needa settle my education and stuff like that. so pardon my absence. haha. other than that, if you wish to know what's going on in my life, you can just give me a call. anytime. haha. sayonara for now. God Bless. =)
As Dusk Falls
3/06/2007 11:13:00 PM
Nonchalant Bliss; The Evident is Mystery
it seems that nonchalance is still the best remedy for the world. and indeed, Nonchalance is Bliss. not a care about anything that happens in this world, or even around you, well, not to such a devastating extent that is. if you know where I'm coming from. somehow or rather, the only thing that is evident in this world is mystery. a thing that is unfathomable to human knowledge, something that none can describe or explain. am I right? because that's what it sure seems to be.
so here I am at one of the most major crossroads of my life. but it seems that I don't really know or bother much about it. interestingly, I'd rather choose to let things go the way it was supposed to. be it nonchalance or carefree-ness, that's my style. it's what makes the evident Henzy David, evident.
here i am posting a post for yesterday 30 minutes after yesterday just passed. haha. finally caught the movie V for Vendetta. have to thank nu er for that. haha. it was a great show. had Grace and nu er over today, watching the movie. it was cool, although i didn't really understand much of it. so I'm gonna go watch it again. haha.
a few more hours, haha, let's say about 13hours and 30 minutes to the Trybe You Can Do It run for Chua Chu Kang Secondary school. haha. something that I'm looking forward to. haha. and also the 2 Yusof Ishak runs on the two following days. haha. gonna love em. another chance to powerfully impact the lives of the future generation. haha.
and I'm glad to say that I'm pretty surprised with the speed of Trumpet Praise's services. haha. they got the CDs i wanted in like, a few hours. haha. totally shocked when they called me just now saying that the stock arrived already. i was like, wow, that's fast. haha. proving that it's a good place to get Christian resources. haha. but i think that Life Bookstore is a great place too. lol, i think that's enough about featuring places to get Christian resources on my blog. haha.
alright then, I guess I'll post a better one tonight huh. haha. considering that today's already the 6th of March. haha. oh yes, heard that I'm gonna get the posting results today. haha. that's cool. lol. pray that I'll be able to get into the course I wanted. haha. otherwise, I'm gonna have to complete that portfolio. haha.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
a few hours after i reached home from my camp, like, about 8hours or so. haha. i headed for the 3rd last SOL2 class. yeah. gonna finish soon, kinda happy about that. for a few reasons, cuz first of all, it's not easy to finish SOL2, although i needa make up for 1 of the lessons. haha. and secondly, the not so good reason, because i don't need to wake up that early on sundays anymore, and the final reason, because i can finally accompany my friends down to EXPO. haha. instead of asking them to come all the way down to meet me at EXPO. haha.
well. it was a great service, and nu er joined me for the 2nd time, this time bringing with her Carmen Grace, Daesiree, cindy and one more person. haha. just hope that she'll come to rededication soon. haha. =P yup. after service, it was processing for abit, then headed for the Glass House to dine at Fish and Co. haha. had a great sharing session, at both the GH & TCC. haha. dunno what it stands for.
RainBow, no! wah Elbow!
due to the rain, there was this supposedly beautiful rainbow at the back of the EXPO halls that ah-pa claimed to have seen, but we couldn't really catch it in time. so, oh well.
so at that split second, i came up with something of incited humour. i said: "hey, i created a new weapon, it's a bow that shoots rain. it's call a RainBow! hahahaha." then anthony was like: "wah, then my Crossbow shoots crosses lah. even better, my elbow! ok. lol. it was kinda spastic.
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well. that ends most of my day. haha. oh well. post something soon. =)
PS. Trybe camp was pretty fun. haha.
As Dusk Falls
3/04/2007 11:58:00 PM
Friday, March 02, 2007
why is it that when you think you've solved it, it actually becomes worse?
it's a real wonder. i don't know what's really going on right now. sighs. you know, the time when you really feel that you wanna take care of someone, be there for people, and yet situations just come around and just smacks you in the face?
times where you just wanna do good, follow the path of the Light but it just becomes so difficult that you feel like giving up but just won't do so. what then shall become your motivation?
why does it seem that people think you're materialistic when you're not? why do people ask you if you're self-centered when you're not? why do people say you're a flirt when you're not? why? cuz it's what you're showing to others. it's not what's in you. they can't see it. or rather, this world is blind. they're lazy and won't wanna look deeper. so whatcha gonna do? sit there and wallow in you're sorrows? NO!! make the effort, show them what you really are. don't wait for them to come and find you. if they're lazy, got to them. if they're unwilling to see the truth, make them see truth, explain it to them.
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Henzy David, I know that you really are out there to help people and all. that you really wanna stand by their side, just helping them out at every stage of life, even coming to take the blows for them. isn't that true?I know it's tough bro, taking life on like that. living, without the appreciation. but I know God's proud of you bro. i know it. you ain't gonna break down man, you're one strong heck of a soul i tell ya.
continue, press on. this is what you're meant to do, this is what you're best at. remember all those small little praises that people sing to you bro? let them be your encouragement. remember the times when God spoke to you bro? let them be your reassurance. don't give up. I know you won't, but I'm just telling you again bro. don't give up. don't lose hope.
don't give in to the blows that people throw at you. don't give in to the criticism and negative crap that they give you. isn't that the very thing that you preach?! then live it! what good is the preacher if he can't practice what he preaches? huh?!
rise up! stand tall! don't fall! remember you're dream. to best the devil. you gonna do so bro. don't care about what people say about it, whether it's too far fetched or not. if you believe it. you can do it! that's the thing about you bro. cuz you've got faith that not many have. a faith so great that sometimes people say it's stupidity and illogical. but that's your gift bro. that's what makes you you.
face up to your problems, you've never been good at running away or cheating, and neither of those will help you cuz your problems will always come back to haunt you if you do so. embrace the destiny that has been bestowed upon you by God. embrace the destiny that is your name, Henzy David. he of which has great faith, insight and the beloved child of God.
remember bro. don't lose hope. I'm always here for you.
As Dusk Falls
3/02/2007 01:25:00 AM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Henzy David shall disappear for 2 days, due to a camp that he is going for once more. haha. i'm sure it's gonna be a great one.
As Dusk Falls
3/01/2007 10:45:00 PM
it's the 1st day of the month of March. time sure flies doesn't it. school's gonna be starting soon, for those of you who haven't already started school. haha. gee wiz, it seems that my holiday plans sure didn't work out right.
besides slacking around at home and enjoying myself outside, what else have i been doing during this long winter-summer vacation you ask. well hey, isn't improving oneself a thing to do? ah, that's where all the pieces of this broken puzzle called Henzy David comes together.
talk about improvement. what have you been doing to improve yourself? from my point of view, i guess i've done quite a number of things, looking back on where you've gone wrong, taking a better look at your surroundings and stuff like that. shan't drag on about this. i'm beginning to sound like some lecturer. and i don't really feel good about that. haha.
that was a pretty random post done by yours truly. haha. maybe i'll post again tonight. haha.
