alot of things have gone through my mind. and I'm gonna believe God for the appeal to RP to get thru. it's been a very messy period of my life, alot of decisions to make, and not all of them have been settled yet. adding to that, are the problems of life. the problems that people have about me. the problems about myself. my weak points, or 'chao kuan'.

i really really don't know what to do. it seems like the world's crumbling down on me, and i'm desperately running about to save it. i wonder when will everything be back to the way it was before. that peaceful state. i'm really holding on to God's promises now, that He'll look down from Heaven upon me, and just lend me a helping hand out of the pit that I fell into. all i can do now is believe and trust in God.

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somehow, at a time like this, what my DaJie told me a long time ago seems to stand out. "It's quite impossible to start as though nothing wrong happened once you've tasted the glory and power of God in you life."