Thursday, April 05, 2007
5th of April, 6 more days to go. =) i'm still sadly counting down to my birthday. haha. just for the sake of it. no, i ain't gonna give up. i'm gonna try, and try and try, until one day, it finally happens.
well, it seems like a boring day for me. again, another homestay. oh well. at least had dinner with Ben and Melvin just now. haha. gonna email ryan later about the DXO thing on saturday night. haha.
well, i can say that it's not easy for me either. broke down last night, after yet another quarrel with my dad. it seems, that, my faith is failing. my soul, crushed, and my heart broken once more. deep are the wounds of within. yet no one knows. it really ain't easy.
sometimes i really wonder. why, why am i doing this? why am i really, thinking of it so much. why can't i just let go of it like what i did with all the other previous issues that i had. just plainly using that method, one which crushes every single feeling in my heart, would do. but i wonder, why can't i do it again. it's pretty obvious though, the more i do it, the less heart i'd have. i can't keep crushing my soul, i can't keep being so selfish to myself. cuz i'm still concerned. that's why.
i still remember the time we ran through the rain. i remembered it today, and it brought a smile to my face. like nothing else could. don't run away, face it. i know it's possible. believe, trust Him. my counsel is still here, just waiting. i'm doing it too.
As Dusk Falls
4/05/2007 10:08:00 PM
