Wednesday, May 30, 2007
tryin to study at jurong? lol. well, can't be done on a public holiday. haha. like i was suggesting to hannah today, study, err, jurong library lor. yea, i just woke up when i thought of that suggestion. and i didn't consider the fact that it was a public holiday, or maybe my brain was still in the start up mode. haha.
well, i had a great time with them, Hannah, Clarence and Bingrong. lol. amazingly, or rather, stupidly, completed TC4 two times today. lol. ok, i should find another game to play, cuz plainly, it's pointless to continue just playing that same old game. haha. shan't blog about the LJS matter, cuz plainly, it's like a waste of time see. haha. gawd, i'm typing like a blonde. lol. like, totally. hahahahaha. baka.
A Second Chance, Would You Take It?
it's an interesting question. but if you were given a 2nd chance to right a wrong that you did in the past, anything, would you take it?
well, i've been contemplating on this question. and i've come to the realisation that i don't, or rather, i wouldn't. even though my heart would want to. but sometimes, following your heart isn't the best thing to do.
it's like what Clarence said on my tagboard, All the lessons you learn along the way help to make you a better person. isn't it so true? we face difficulties everywhere, we make wrong choices at any juncture of our lives, we condemn those who don't deserve to be condemned, we praise those who don't deserve to be praised, we indulge in bribery, in bootlicking, in what we call "the way of the world". and true, i dare to say it, that i myself am guilty, as charged, of this sin.
but nonetheless, we who learn from our mistakes are the ones who have the greatest takeaway from the "encounter" or, as i would call it, "challenge", "enemy(opponent)", or "adversary".
learn, from your mistakes. and don't make them again, or let's just say, try not to. but first, you need to be conscious of your wrong. then, do the right thing. be a man.
As Dusk Falls
5/30/2007 11:45:00 PM
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
well, it sure is hard being a good guy. lol. why do i say that? well. it's like you don't get appreciated when you do good things. what's more than that, what's worse, is that even after you do good things for people, the bite you back, they give you that stinking "I'm superior to you" look. for God's sake. We good people are here to help you out of our own kind hearts, what gives you the bloody right to think that you deserve it? let alone think that we owe you something. especially you foreigners. for God's sake.
well.. enough of that. i just wanted to elaborate on how the Good People in society nowadays always get shot for no special reason, even after they try to help people. it's not that it really bothers me, but i just thought that i'd blog about it. to let everyone realise. haha.
well, caught a movie today. Shrek the Thrid. lol. i'd rate this movie, 3.8/5. haha. it was a nice movie, and if you're really in need of some 'laughter'-treatment, then it's a movie you should catch. garaunteed to laugh your socks off. not literal. haha
but wait, the good thing just got better. there's a moral of the story too. lol. and it's one that really would motivate people. to think that, hey, no matter what people say about me, all the bad stuff, that i can still do what i set my heart out for. what i'm passionate about. =P my dream. haha. nice movie, nice moral. watch it. =P
As Dusk Falls
5/29/2007 11:45:00 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
so. as Chrislyn suggested. interesting insights.
well. i decided to come up with an up to standard post. talking about my 'role models' or the people or characters that i look up to in my life. currently. featuring Peter Parker or better known as Spider-Man.
why do i look up to them? well, lets begin with the friendly neighbourhood spiderman. if you guys know his whole story, the guy's gone through alot. from the loss of his family, to his uncle, to his wife, then to his aunt and all those who were close to him. tragic story, for someone who just wants to do good. but never did he give up. never did he stop persevering. never did he once give up his identity as the web slingin' wall crawler. haha.
and even when he was fighting against the supervillians. he didn't allow his fear to overwhelm him, and he could always find a way out of a tough spot that he was in.
it's such an admirable story, for a guy who's life changed ever since that fateful encounter in his teenage years. like i am now, in my teenage years. it's that quality that i admire, the never give- up attitude, the intelligence, the ability to think so quickly on the spot. yup.
strange as it may seem, or you may even debate with me, He's only a comic book hero. true, but research shows that he's one of the most celebrated comic book heroes ever created. why, cuz his life resembles the many lives out there, the problems they face and all. so much so that people can find things that they say, hey, here are the problems that i'm facing too. if he can do it like that, why don't i give it a try too. maybe i'll be able to do the same.
and here's my tribute to him. 3 cheers to peter parker, spiderman. and 3 cheers to stan lee. lol.
well. i guess that's 'nuff said. here's another picture to share.
my lego shock trooper, with two blasters in the fashion of the dual elites. lol.
As Dusk Falls
5/28/2007 05:21:00 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
man, i'm running out of ideas for titles. lol. at the 340th post, henzy david, the blogger that hopes to achieve what he says when he says it, is seriously running out of ideas to blog about besides his day.
well, if those loyal readers out there wouldn't mind, you guys could do him a favour and give him some suggestions and interesting topics to blog about. haha, anything you need advising on?.. haha.
well. today's quite a normal day. although i felt abit lazy in the morning. had a normal day, service, dinner. yeah. that's about it. haha.
oh yes, here's an interesting webbie that all you believers might wanna visit. haha.
http://godtube.com/
check it out. it really exists, no kidding. check it out, and spread the word! =P
(i sound like some promoter. lol)
As Dusk Falls
5/27/2007 11:32:00 PM
Friday, May 25, 2007
well, this sure is the life man. all problems settled, everything going fine and all things feel like they're going your way. haha. well. that's all because of one thing, God. haha. well.
man, i sure wish i could work full time in Trybe man. lol, after this whole week of doing trybe runs, impacting and inspiring youths, helping them understand their potential and value. haha, well. it sure is a great feeling. lol. it's a feeling that you can never get anywhere else, that's what i reckon. haha, savvy? =P
well, after the trybe run at HuaYi Sec today, a school that leaves me a lot of memories whenever i go there, including that time about a year ago. haha. we(me, ben, clarence, hannah, liying and vege) headed for JP, had lunch, played arcade. then headed to CDANs, just cuz superbowl at lakeside was having some kinda competition. lol.
the first H is my score. but i'm gonna use this as an example. haha.
well, after looking at the turkey that i got. i wondered, hey, that was a miracle man. cuz i knew i definitely couldn't do it by myself. so, besides thanking God for that, i decided to decipher the codex(lol!) behind this little miracle. i thought, it was a perfect blend between the right way to do it, and the right direction of the ball to go.
well. what i'm tryin to say, is that, sometimes, in life. we do things with abit too much of this and abit too much of that. or abit too little. well, the thing is to achieve an ultimate balance in life. lol. i don't know why i'm saying this. but, oh well. haha.
well, i have a friend to intro you to. haha.
well, as hannah would say it. TIAN AH! IT's WEI LONG! lol.
As Dusk Falls
5/25/2007 09:00:00 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
if i was to summarise my whole day in one sentence, it would be
PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN; AT WORLD'S END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in a cinema like this. the Vivo City Golden Village Max. haha.
movie rating, 4.5/5 haha. i am so BIAS to this movie. haha. but really, if you're a fan of the series, you really should catch it. beautiful end to the whole story, wonderful action scenes, romance, deception, courage, comedy and heroism.
it's a great movie, although some parts may be draggy, but it's great nonetheless. 3 cheers to Pirates of the Caribbean; At World's End! Hip Hip Hurray!! haha. another 3 cheers to the whole Trilogy! Hip Hip Hurray!! haha. (oh ya, PS, be prepared to sit for a long time if you wanna catch this movie, it's 3hrs long! hahaha.)
well, apart from that. my day was great nonetheless, Jurongville Trybe run in the morning, lunch and movie with Jasper. haha. great day. lol.
"The World's still the same, there's just less in it." - Capt'n Jack Sparrow
As Dusk Falls
5/24/2007 10:33:00 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
cool. the great thing about today is that i did almost all the things that i love doing in one day! it may not be such a great thing to you guys, but it's a great achievement Henzy David! haha.
first of all, was the Trybe Dare to Dream run at HuaYi secondary, this must be like the 3rd time i'm goin there this year. lol. but waita sec, that don't mean i'm not gonna go back there again. haha. there's another one this friday! lol. i'll be back!
well. it was off to jurong point thereafter, Pizza Hut, with DaJie Joa, Hannah, LiYing and Clarence.
after that, went down(or up two storeys in this case) to the arcade. where i played my favourite game thus far, Time Crisis 4! lol. i'm not bored of it. i'm actually tryin to achieve and average of 75% completions. currently 10-15% lol. then it was off to dance.
sad to say, but today was the last lesson for Hip Hop 1. aaaahhhh. lol. but there's Hip Hop 2! haha.
the cert of completion. haha
ah yes. really wanted to thank Ryan personally, but didn't have the chance to. so i don't know if you'll be reading this but, a BIG THANKS to Ryan of O School! haha.
and yes. one last thing. a song, or video that i wanna share with ya. haha. this is also the song i'm lookin for! lol.
As Dusk Falls
5/23/2007 11:45:00 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
well.. i seem to have grown used to travelling alone or doing stuff alone. haha. well. cool. haha.
today! victoria school! you can do it run! haha. it was an okay thing. haha. yeah. but a little different from normal YCDI runs, that what i felt. haha. maybe partly cuz i wasn't really conscious of myself today. like, really, be myself know. haha. guess i do things better like that. haha. crazy me. not conscious of myself me. =D
headed down to Superbowl at Lakeside, with Bing Rong, Siok yit, Yew Choong and Wayne. haha, kind of a different group from the normal people that i hang out with. but it was a good change. haha.
well, had dinner at the bowling alley.
played 2 games, this was the 2nd one. haha, where mostly all was playing seriously.
and the last game, where Yew Choong and Wayne teamed up, i was supposed to be with SiokYit but she passed, and BR wanted to train himself. in the end, I was the only on who played seriously, having found out the correct way to play. haha. lol, my max speed for the ball is 24.40km/h! lol. that's fast. for a person with an injured thumb. lol. but speed isn't everything.
it was such a good time of fellowship that we thought, hey, why not have this like once a week! haha. well, thinking that it'd soon become real boring to play bowling all the time, we thought maybe, bowling-pool-bowling-pool, in sequence. haha. but this is the basic plan. lol.
overall, enjoyed myself today. i really thank Father God for blessing me with so much daily. =) thank you Lord. =)
lookin for the song [Hope] by Twista ft. Faith Evans. anyone have it? contact me please. haha. thanks alot.
As Dusk Falls
5/21/2007 11:14:00 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
it's sure gonna be a packed week up ahead, with another one of those Trybe marathons coming along. haha. but i'm game for it. and i'm definitely going. hahaha.
so, no more mysteries huh Henzy David? let's think about that now shall we.
sometimes i wonder why can't i do stuff well. the stuff that i'm real interested in. is it cuz i ain't practicing at it alot? is it cuz i'm not doing something right? i don't know. i don't really understand either. God, can i ask you for an answer to this question of mine? can i ask you for the ability and grace to do well in these things that i like? i believe i can. so i'm gonna do that.
i've really learnt alot, i don't know how many times i've said this, or i'm going to say this but i'm still going to say it. that i've really learnt alot. after the time that i opened the door for you to come in. i really thank you, for changing me, moulding me, breaking me, into what I am now. and i really thank you for the grace enough to pursue what i really want to do. Thanks alot. my Father in Heaven.
but i've still got this question running wild within me. how can i be good at the stuff that i love. art, animation, sketching, dancing, speaking to the youths, and most of all, loving you. I don't think that I've done my best yet, i still think that there's way for improvement. and I want to keep on pushing myself to the limit, to the next level, so that i can be better at all these things that i love.
help me, father, help me.
i really think i can't do anything without you.
just be there for me.
just listen to me.
just speak to me.
just let your presence be there with me.
let your love, continue to be with me.
just like it has been all this while, let it grow stronger.
that's what i want dad. that's what my heart feels.
so now, no more mysteries Henzy David. no more mysteries. come into the light. and let the pure, kind heart of yours, that sincere heart of yours, be the thing that attracts people to you. not the things that you pretend to be able to do, not the things that you say you can do. but the things that you do. be what you are Henzy David, be what you truly were meant to be. no more mysteries, no more masks. just you, my boy, just you. the one they call Henzy David. just you.
As Dusk Falls
5/20/2007 11:24:00 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
i've been thinking.
how is it that when people give advice, others don't want to listen. (as i post this, i'm now thinkin bout' if i've been taking others advice too.) it's about people's reactions isn't it? it's about the amount of influence isn't it? or is it about the age, or the goddamn qualifications? sigh, this world sure is sickening. (song changes from Dani California to Listen)
well. i've sure been thinking. thinking about what is going on. or why, are they, doing this. what truly makes leaders? their lives? the examples they set? the "problem-free" state that their in? being "according to the rules that are set there for them by the people under them"? no doubt, some part of these things that are stated are true. but once again, it is a perspective, a point of view.
loyalty, trust, faith, submission, accountability. looks like everything is really judged by credit or qualifications, or are they? sigh. you, you call yourselves Christian. but do you really know what it means? do you really know what it truly means to be christian. or are you governed by a set of rules laid down by someone else? do you even know if you're being deceived? do you even know if the person your following is truthful.
wow, i'm truly amazed at the amount of 'reasons' you people have for your actions. strangely enough, all this sounds so familiar. doesn't it. it sure does. sounds so familiar.
consider yourself before you try to consider others, if you yourself can't take care of your own life, how can you even talk about taking care of the needy and the poor. i don't know how you even think that you can. is trusting God really about knowing He's there? or is that just another one of your reasons?
as for Me. I choose God. I choose to follow Him because I know that if I don't have Him in my life. I will be obliterated, destroyed, torn apart, restless, troubled, angered, hated, blind, deaf, mute, hopeless, failing. but I am not, because He is there. because He has done things in my life that I could never do. because His grace is there for me. because He laid down His son for me. or have you people forgotten how painful it was for Him to do so? How torturing it was for Him to be a Savior to the broken, the beaten and the damned?
you may ask, in what position am i to say all this? only now do i understand. because i prayed to Him, for understanding, and He gave me that. He gave me experiences, real life experiences, first hand experiences of how it truly feels like. how it truly feels like to lose people you love, to lose your children, to feel hated and neglected by the world, to be tempted by the dark one, to be forsaken by all you once called friend, and to be a savior, a guardian angel to those who are around you. to offer help and not be rewarded in return, not even the slight place in the memory of the one you helped. I know how it feels. that's why I am here, saying all this. do you? have you understood?
As Dusk Falls
5/19/2007 07:43:00 PM
Friday, May 18, 2007
well. today was Trybe Dare to Dream run at Jurongville Secondary. woke up at 6, thanks to Ben, my handphone alarm and Father God. haha. well, had quite an interesting time. lol. surprised when nearly all the students wrote my name on the eval form even when i didn't do nuts. lol. haha, them kawaii little ones, just lovable souls with untapped potentials.
after the run, headed down to CPF building to settle some stuff. then headed down to Bugis, Kinokuniya to get a little something that i shall elaborate on at the very end of this post. haha. also met kaiyee there after bumping into DaJie Joadine. lol.
somehow, i suddenly have a feeling that i'm pretty addicted to comics and reading now. lol. i want more stuff to read. lol, i'm like devouring text, page after page. won't say book yet, unless it's comic books. haha. i want more comics!!!
Of Venom and Carnage
well. this is the thing that i wanted to elaborate more on. haha. really cool comic that i just got today at kino. haha. Venom Vs Carnage by Marvel comics. lol. kinda fell in love with marvel comics the moment i saw the book. and the storyline, and the lineart. cool man. but it comes at a price too. but worth it. haha.
well. all in all. i had a great day. =P awaiting the next trybe run on monday! hahahaha.
As Dusk Falls
5/18/2007 11:32:00 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
well. i can't seem to stay happy for long. it's like, temporal. maybe i shouldn't be using the word 'happy'. instead, i should use, "trouble free"
like they say, one battle after another. but is this the thing that tortures me? i doubt so. i doubt there's anything that i can feel tortured by. or disappointed by. strangely enough.
to me, disappointments become fuel. over the years, i've become used to it, and developed the ability of turning almost everything into fuel. fuel to push myself forward. to prevent myself from falling. to hold my ground against the inner demons. to hold myself against the comments of the world. or have I?
strangely, i don't know what i've become. i don't know what I truly am. i just don't feel that i know myself anymore. i seem to be on a quest to seek out my true self. that's my battle, not all these small matters. these aren't my real problems, or problem. my real problem, is to ultimately find myself.
life, like like people say, is truly about choices. the choices that you make. well. no matter how cliché it has become. it's true.
haha. come to think of it. i'm fine once again. lol. =P just things to reflect on posted in this post.
As Dusk Falls
5/17/2007 08:09:00 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
well. today was quite the okay day. woke up quite early, went to meet bing rong and hannah at mrt station. but end up, only me and BR went down to Trybe Centre. at tampines. we saw alot of people like holding coke bottles and walking around. then we discovered that they were giving out free bottles of coke light. haha. and yes, true to the spirit of Kiasu-ism, some Loyal Singaporeans were even spotted carrying plastic bags full of the freebies.
so we slacked at Trybe Centre, then headed down to Orchard for dinner. Wisma Atria. haha. yeah. that was all bah.
sigh, i got a feeling that a 2nd war is going to break out. the second "battle within". this time, i don't know. but i realised that there's something in me. which i can only describe as the Negativity Amplifier. and true to it's name, being very literal and self explanatory. it somehow amplifies the negative feelings that i feel. one thing i know is that, i have to settle this problem. right now.
gonna have to beat it down to the depths of my soul, or crush it and throw it out of me. strange as it seems, it feels like what bleach watchers would call, Hollow Suppression(it's only an analogy). Grr!
Lord, I Need Your Help. Otherwise, I'd be a dead man. figuratively.
As Dusk Falls
5/16/2007 11:20:00 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
if i were to decribe my day in one word, that word'd be. Cool. lol.
first of all. i'd like to wish dear sister Venelyn, a happy birthday. lol. although it'd might be a little late. but yeah. haha. Happy Birthday. =P God Bless You Lots!
secondly. i'd like to say that today was a great day indeed. we around orchard lookin for stuff with Ben, and finally got the Never Stop Album by Planetshakers. haha. then headed for City Hall to have dinner with Br and Ven. haha.
after that, was dance at O School. which was great. lol, of course.
but i guess the second highlight of the day, is this. look below. and read!
yes. haha. it's true. lol. i'm IN! woah. Thank God! lol. it's just blessing after blessing man. haha. arigato otosan!
As Dusk Falls
5/15/2007 11:30:00 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
it was a good day, aside the fact that the rain was pouring at the time where i wanted to head down for service. haha. but nonetheless, i headed down anyway. even having to resort to squatting on the bus stop seat to wait for the bus, so as to not get splashed by the water from the passing cars.
Jackie Pullinger was preaching for service today and the day before. and she was great. i mean, the stories that she brought along with her and all. very thought invoking and mind boggling. really made us think alot about the ministry with the poor. and she also spoke about how the system of society has really crippled the youths, to grade people by the amount of credits they have, or how well they did their exams. exactly what i was thinkin about a few days back. but indeed, look at what it has done. look at the childhood that has been taken away from us. so true.
after service, celebrated mother's day, the cell bought a cake for ah ma mrs Koh, and well yeah. a sweet sight to see. to bad i don't have pictures. haha. then headed down to Marina Square to have dinner with SiokYit and Cherie. followed by that, headed to Candy Empire. then Cherie left.
on the way back to the MRT station, We(siokyit n me) saw this.
so i told her, hey, let's go check it out. lol.
and to our amazement. or well, yeah, no other nice english words to use. we found out that they were having some light show at the Fountain of Wealth. supposedly, the biggest fountain in SEA. then like taught her abit about photography and all. headed to the suntec arcade, played TC4, completed TC4 and headed home.
well. before heading down for service, i was feeling abit hungry. so i decided to go to the nearest 7-11 to get something to munch on. and Praise God. introducing the newest, Snickers(C) Dark Bar! lol. damn nice. since i'm a Dark Chocolate lover. haha. you should try it too. haha.
and last but not least, (yeah, saving the best for last =P). congrats to Min, her baptism. is today! lol. God Bless you!
As Dusk Falls
5/13/2007 11:48:00 PM
Friday, May 11, 2007
here it comes people. hahaha. it's strange that i don't feel nervous. haha. maybe not yet huh? haha.
well, really thank God for bringing me so far. haha. for all the inspiration and all. now, the final stretch. it's all the way for Jesus! all the way. haha. no turning back. =P really, Thank You Lord. =) you are Holy Lord.
well, here i have a preview of what's inside my portfolio. haha. it's one of my most prized works. haha. copyrights to Marvel. Behold, the Web Slinger!
sadly, the picture on the computer screen isn't that good. lol. but oh well. =P
Rising up in Spirit and In Truth,
a Living Sacrifice we worship you.
a people undivided Lord hear us sing
We are yours and you are our King.
This is our love, hearts joined as one
Desperate for you Lord.
As Dusk Falls
5/11/2007 11:58:00 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
it's almost complete. the time is nearly up. haha. can't help feel nervous huh. guess i'm still human after all, no matter how much i deny it. well. my portfolio is currently 89% complete. it's very near completion. so it's the final stretch. here i go.
i askin those out there to keep me in prayers. to claim victory for my situation as i do the same. bless others and you'll be blessed back. haha. claim that i will enter lasalle. thanks all. thank you Lord for this chance. now Lord, i'm gonna show you that this, is what i really want to do. and i'm gonna go for it. thank you Lord.
As Dusk Falls
5/10/2007 10:58:00 PM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
ooh, i sure am running out of time. and i have another 2 and a half works to complete. haha.
it sure feels like defeat huh. well. i'm learning to trust God. to see thru His eyes instead of mine. =) to see victory, when it feels like defeat. cuz God, our God, my God, isn't a God that will allow those who are called by His name, to perish, to suffer. this is our God, this is Jesus Christ. this is His power. =)
as we open our eyes, fill our hearts with your fire. Love.
the tide is turning, for this is redemption's hour
As Dusk Falls
5/09/2007 11:17:00 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
well well well. wouldn't it be. haha. somehow, the feeling is back. like, right now. but i'm not sure how long it's gonna last. haha.
i realise that there are things that i keep doing, and the more i do it, the more i love it. currently, 2 things. 1 - dancing, 2 - drawing(basically artwork). woot. lol. i sure am loving it. haha. ahh.
well, thank God for tuesdays, i think they're like the best days of the week for me, besides sundays. haha. well, why, cuz i have dance on tuesdays. and no matter how tiring it is, i still love it. lol. it's like, developing a passion, i'm not even sure whether i should say developing! lol.
haha. i was reading my daily verse today, and it said this-
Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete. [John 16:24]
- like, the answer to my problem huh. and your joy will be complete. thanks Lord. thank you. developing the habit of praying like its breathing. and i heard this just now, "do things for the glory of God." i don't know, but i just feel that we should develop that habit too. to do things, everything, for the glory of God. just for the glory of God. =)
really really really love God. like, there's nothing else that's more important right now. like, well, put it simply. it's like the essence of my life.
now, let my joy be complete lord. =)
As Dusk Falls
5/08/2007 11:33:00 PM
Monday, May 07, 2007
wow. talk about tears. lol. half-completed 1 point perspective sketch. dinner at tiong bahru plaza with Keith, Jasper, Wayne and Bing Rong. gosh, the tom yam at rajah's inn can really make one tear man. haha. my eyes seemed like they were melting. haha. but it was a good fellowship outing. haha. sry couldn't make it for lunch with ya Eileen. haha.
Black VS White [.5]: Of Ire and Insanity
gosh, even though i'm not doing anything, there seems to be a war raging inside of me. warring emotions? i don't know. i can't really decipher what's going on inside right now. it's like the sense of peace isn't there. that carefree spirit seems to have vanished. and i have no idea why.
Ire–noun intense anger; wrath.
well. it's not like as though i have either of those. but it just seems like the inside of me is angry with something. it's like, insane see. ah. haha. let's not dwell on it. a problem must be solved before it takes control of the person. like the symbiote in Spiderman 3. lol.
God, i just pray that you grant me your Holy Spirit, let Him dwell in me. let your peace be upon me, your servant, your son. thank you Lord. Thank You Father.
As Dusk Falls
5/07/2007 10:50:00 PM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
today's service was about prayer. man, really thank God for Pastor Melvyn man. he rocks! lol. yeah. haha. nothing much to say.
Black VS White [.4]: The End, The Beginning
it seems that this battle is nearly at it's end. well. at least i figured out mostly where i went wrong. to put everything simply, it'd be labelled as uncertainty, and lack of faith in God. so much for me saying that i'd have full faith in Him. guess there truly are times where we really lose faith.
but it feels better, like. once you really realise ur mistakes and really set out to change it. it just feels so much better. but the best thing, is that. you know that God's still with you. just that you didn't choose to hear Him when He spoke, you weren't listening properly. oh well. that's the truth for you Henzy David. that's it.
you know, truth is, i really feel like crying, but i just can't. it seems that the trade that i made truly stands. the sacrifice of tears for power. now, i've found power. but not the type of power i was seeking those 4 years back. now, i've found something even greater. i've found God. and His power, is so potent, yet so widely unused, it's called, Prayer. ---
Every Ending is a Beginning, you just don't see it at that time.
As Dusk Falls
5/06/2007 08:43:00 PM
Saturday, May 05, 2007
woot. caught Spiderman 3 today at Plaza Singapura. with Keith, Ben, Ivan, Melvin, Wayne, Jasper, Bing Rong, Shermaine and Felicia Yap. haha. ok. the show was good, but you gonna have a lot to say about it if you're an ardent fan of the comics or the cartoons. in terms of criticism. haha. gah, the planetshakers newest album is out!! aahh!! haha. i wannnnn... lol.
Black VS White[.3]: Goodbye, Good Old Days
say goodbye to the good old days, here's where the whole plot changes. it seems that going back to the times whereby everything was so simple is pretty impossible. seems that right now, i've got to start planning well for my future. or even for short term stuff.
well, it seems that people don't see what i've got. i don't know. it seems that right now, people seem to judge one by the way they do things, or by the amount of credit that one achieves. not by the true potential, talent or character that the person has. well. this is the acursed world after all. so, Goodbye, Good Old Days. God's the only one that can truly be trusted with all that I have. the rest, are still trustable. =)
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. [Proverbs 16:9]
Black VS White, Kuroi VS Shiroi.
As Dusk Falls
5/05/2007 11:32:00 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
wow, today was a great day. haha. ribbit-toot! lol. ichi ichi ichi, one one one, two two two, dua dua dua! lol. curse! monster!
lol, those were basically the sounds heard while at cell group today. CG was held at Holland Village, Settlers Cafe. haha. helluva good time! could've laughed till i fell off my chair, well, i did once, fell of my chair. haha.
Black VS White[.2]: Welcome to My World
well. welcome to the world of Henzy David. hahahaha. i always wanted to say that. since i really do live in a world of my own. haha.
well. i read my daily verses today. and to my surprise, or, amazement. it was a verse about what i was blogging about last night.
Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.[1 Peter 4:12-13]
so I'll be overjoyed when His glory is revealed to me. knowing that the true fact is that i don't suffer for nothing. indeed, Thank God for everything. so ends the 2nd installment of the Black VS White series.
thank God for spiderman3 tml. indeed, the greatest battle lies within. but i know that within, or even around me, i have someone who's always there to support me. i will not fear. thanks Father. thank you, Lord Jesus Christ.
As Dusk Falls
5/04/2007 11:58:00 PM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
had a new experience today, went to model, lol, for Ben's friend in lasalle who was taking her degree's final assessment. it was a good experience, but I told myself after that, that I'm never gonna do it again. haha. saw an old classmate there too, Brenna. lol, her first reaction was, eh! you, long time never see you le! haha. well. yeah.
Black Vs White [.1]: The Battle Within
well, some of you may have seen this title before. but i chose to adopt this title too. for my own purposes. for, what one would call, an internal battle. like the caption for Spiderman 3 says, The Greatest Battle Lies Within.
well. it really true, that the battle within is truly the greatest. well, right now, i feel very confused, and very, moody. if i were to really put things in words. turns out that even though God has made a way for me. i don't seem to want to take it. I don't know why, or what is making me do this. but, the feeling there, the feeling for this problem, this situation just seems to. argh. pissing see. haha.
well. it's black versus white now. which decision will i make, which path will i choose? as always, the right path, the right decision always seems the hardest to make. but as Apostle paul wrote, that God has placed suffering in our path, so as to really allow us to work for what we deserve in Heaven. for if we know what is waiting in Heaven for us, if we see those things, then we would just sit there and slack off, waiting for time to pass till we reach Heaven.
We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. [Romans 8:28]
I love Him, so I'm claiming this promise, this verse against Him. I know I have been called according to His purpose, I know that I truly Love Him.
As Dusk Falls
5/03/2007 10:29:00 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
well, it just feels better after u tell someone about it don't ya. haha. that's exactly what i did.
was feeling quite irritated, pissed off and messed up about this problem that i was facing this afternoon. so i decided to go look for help, which paid off greatly in the end. haha. yeah. so right now, i feel better. haha.
little do i realise how much God has really blessed me with. little do i realise how many times have i ignored that small voice speaking to me, and said that He's not speaking to me. it's my fault. for not listening clearly enough. i will change, i will hear your voice the next time you speak to me. i will hear you. it was cuz i didn't calm myself down, cuz i let my surroundings and emotions and thoughts affect me. teach me how to. teach me.
As Dusk Falls
5/02/2007 11:29:00 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
okay, something stupid happened to me today. lol, well, i got on the bus, tapped my card and it went, not enough value, so i thought my card no money. headed down to the mrt station to top up, then it showed that it was already expired. so, oh well. grr. stupid ezlink-card-system.
anyways, had another great day. lol. today, went bowling with BR and his cousin, umm, i forgot her name, all i rmbr were the initials, MX. lol. whoa, waited damn long, about an hour or so before we finally could bowl. lol. can't blame, labour day. zZz..
the 2nd time that we had to wait was at pizza hut, but considering the queue and waiting list, we decided against it and headed somewhere else for dinner instead. saw both Joanne and Felicia loi Mei at lot1. lol. really makes me wonder, do i know so many people. oh, and Wilson too. yeah, i guess i do know so many people. lol. oh well. haha.
[edit; added at 12:36am, 02/05/07]
well. it just seems that I'm enjoying myself now. lol. but i've been blog hopping recently, alot. and i realise that shit just happens to everyone. pardon my language. haha. well. i see nearly the same thing happening to everyone around me, people running away from problems; people trying to solve their problems; and people who just feel that their problems are, hmm, how do i phrase this, somewhat, umm. Goliath-like for them.
no doubt I'm facing problems too, but i don't know. i just don't seem to see these problems as huge, or mountain-like or (like i said a few lines up) Goliath-like. am i nonchalant? am i too careless/carefree, do i demean my problems? do i look down on them? these questions just come into mind when i think of myself facing problems. so i ask myself, why? is it because of God, who has blessed me thus far? is it because of myself for having this kind of attitude towards these problems?
well, i don't know. all i know right now, is that i don't see problems as big as before right now. am i doing things wrongly? can someone tell me? are you gonna say, "Hey bro, you're just thinking too much."? (twitches mouth) oh well.
in the end, my final say is that, if you got problems, look for help. don't run away from them, neither should one demean(look down upon) their problems, lest the problem sneaks up form behind you and pokes you in the ass[sennen goroshi!(otherwise translated as "thousand years of pain")]. and yeah, don't face your problems by yourself. P.S. i learnt that, the hard way.
so, God Bless those facing problems wherever you are, just pray that you'll be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel and not give up hope in whatsoever you're hoping for. as for me, it'd be my Lasalle entry and interview. God Bless me for that. I Believe I'll get in.
Mhystry; Paradox: Contradiction; We who bear the mask
As Dusk Falls
5/01/2007 10:01:00 PM
