it seems that this battle is nearly at it's end. well. at least i figured out mostly where i went wrong. to put everything simply, it'd be labelled as uncertainty, and lack of faith in God. so much for me saying that i'd have full faith in Him. guess there truly are times where we really lose faith.

but it feels better, like. once you really realise ur mistakes and really set out to change it. it just feels so much better. but the best thing, is that. you know that God's still with you. just that you didn't choose to hear Him when He spoke, you weren't listening properly. oh well. that's the truth for you Henzy David. that's it.

you know, truth is, i really feel like crying, but i just can't. it seems that the trade that i made truly stands. the sacrifice of tears for power. now, i've found power. but not the type of power i was seeking those 4 years back. now, i've found something even greater. i've found God. and His power, is so potent, yet so widely unused, it's called, Prayer. ---