Thursday, May 17, 2007
well. i can't seem to stay happy for long. it's like, temporal. maybe i shouldn't be using the word 'happy'. instead, i should use, "trouble free"
like they say, one battle after another. but is this the thing that tortures me? i doubt so. i doubt there's anything that i can feel tortured by. or disappointed by. strangely enough.
to me, disappointments become fuel. over the years, i've become used to it, and developed the ability of turning almost everything into fuel. fuel to push myself forward. to prevent myself from falling. to hold my ground against the inner demons. to hold myself against the comments of the world. or have I?
strangely, i don't know what i've become. i don't know what I truly am. i just don't feel that i know myself anymore. i seem to be on a quest to seek out my true self. that's my battle, not all these small matters. these aren't my real problems, or problem. my real problem, is to ultimately find myself.
life, like like people say, is truly about choices. the choices that you make. well. no matter how cliché it has become. it's true.
haha. come to think of it. i'm fine once again. lol. =P just things to reflect on posted in this post.
As Dusk Falls
5/17/2007 08:09:00 PM
