Saturday, May 19, 2007
i've been thinking.
how is it that when people give advice, others don't want to listen. (as i post this, i'm now thinkin bout' if i've been taking others advice too.) it's about people's reactions isn't it? it's about the amount of influence isn't it? or is it about the age, or the goddamn qualifications? sigh, this world sure is sickening. (song changes from Dani California to Listen)
well. i've sure been thinking. thinking about what is going on. or why, are they, doing this. what truly makes leaders? their lives? the examples they set? the "problem-free" state that their in? being "according to the rules that are set there for them by the people under them"? no doubt, some part of these things that are stated are true. but once again, it is a perspective, a point of view.
loyalty, trust, faith, submission, accountability. looks like everything is really judged by credit or qualifications, or are they? sigh. you, you call yourselves Christian. but do you really know what it means? do you really know what it truly means to be christian. or are you governed by a set of rules laid down by someone else? do you even know if you're being deceived? do you even know if the person your following is truthful.
wow, i'm truly amazed at the amount of 'reasons' you people have for your actions. strangely enough, all this sounds so familiar. doesn't it. it sure does. sounds so familiar.
consider yourself before you try to consider others, if you yourself can't take care of your own life, how can you even talk about taking care of the needy and the poor. i don't know how you even think that you can. is trusting God really about knowing He's there? or is that just another one of your reasons?
as for Me. I choose God. I choose to follow Him because I know that if I don't have Him in my life. I will be obliterated, destroyed, torn apart, restless, troubled, angered, hated, blind, deaf, mute, hopeless, failing. but I am not, because He is there. because He has done things in my life that I could never do. because His grace is there for me. because He laid down His son for me. or have you people forgotten how painful it was for Him to do so? How torturing it was for Him to be a Savior to the broken, the beaten and the damned?
you may ask, in what position am i to say all this? only now do i understand. because i prayed to Him, for understanding, and He gave me that. He gave me experiences, real life experiences, first hand experiences of how it truly feels like. how it truly feels like to lose people you love, to lose your children, to feel hated and neglected by the world, to be tempted by the dark one, to be forsaken by all you once called friend, and to be a savior, a guardian angel to those who are around you. to offer help and not be rewarded in return, not even the slight place in the memory of the one you helped. I know how it feels. that's why I am here, saying all this. do you? have you understood?
As Dusk Falls
5/19/2007 07:43:00 PM
