Thursday, July 19, 2007
what was it? how would i know? what am i really expecting? i wouldn't know either. it's just that sometimes somethings just don't fit well with me. somethings that are done. everytime i tell someone, they just don't heed the advice, i just don't understand. well, it's true that i can't have my way all the time, but is this really how it goes? must it always be i that is the one doing things? how'd i know.
Sins Past, if you ask me, whether or not things would be different if i didn't go this way, i'd say, truthfully speaking, it would be just a little bit different, but nonetheless, things that i've set in motion, would still be set in motion. the "rebellion", the Civil War, would still have come and gone. it would have come anyway, one way or another, one day, i'd reach my limit about the things that are going on around me, especially with the Church, to finally put it bluntly, since after so many months, you people just don't get the message.
then, the chance of whether or not i'd do it again if i had the chance, i would say, definitely. after all this, i finally know who are with me, who will stand with me thru thick and thin, and those who are just fair-weathered friends, followers of that which is presumably right, well, here, there's nothing for me to comment on. cuz, well, this is Saviour Mentality, and well, those choices are not mine, the lives involved are not mine to weave.
God, i fer~reakin need to do something else rather than think about things that i can't change. for God's sake! i'm just freakin pissed. argh. forget it. grr.
As Dusk Falls
7/19/2007 11:01:00 PM
