Saturday, July 21, 2007
my apologies for my mannerisms in the previous post, i was just sincerely very pissed off by everything around me.
to those which this matter concerns : I'm sorry, I've been abit not understanding lately, i don't know why, it's just that things lately, have been affecting my mood in such a manner that I'm so easily angered, frustrated and well, pissed off. I'm sorry for not being understanding, and for those times that i flared up. i won't deny my fault, but i just want to let you know that I'm apologetic.
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well, i just don't really know what's going on, i think I've been putting unnecessary stress on myself lately, due to God-knows-what reasons. i just don't know how to do stuff anymore i guess. i just don't know what happened, all i know is that i gotta pick up the pieces, where i left off, and get my ass movin' again.
at least now i know that I've got someone that'll support me, be with me till the end, and i really thank God for that person. indeed, that person has really been a blessing and a gift to me.
well, I'm a little confused about all the things that are going on now, it's like, all hazy after the falling debris. God, it's like, argh. whatever happens, Father, just know this, I'll fight, I'm not gonna give up, because it's both a promise to myself, and a promise to someone special.
in general, i gotta learn to trust once more, i'm just hurt by things that are going on around me, till the extent that i'm changing again, reverting, more or less, to a state where i don't wish to, that's why i'm fighting it. i'm not gonna let myself become what i was, not now, not ever.
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in other matters, i'm still contemplating, Bonecrusher, or no Bonecrusher. argh. note to readers, Bonecrusher is actually a Transformers Action figure.
As Dusk Falls
7/21/2007 11:58:00 PM
