Friday, July 27, 2007
in general, this is a simple post about my thoughts.
-concerning the things that have been happening for the past few days.
well, it sure seems like a heck of a war within myself and all around me. but the thing is, who answers what questions now? and which questions will be answered. in the end, who's side am i on, that's the greatest question. do i still go back to what i was before? or do i allow myself to change certain stuff about myself? truth be told, the answer is not the latter question, but the first question.
in the end, my stand is still that i will answer to God and God alone, i am not sinning, neither am i doing anything wrong or against human morals. this is my stand.
-in concern to more recent events within myself.
well, i've sincerely been very tired due to this events, and am surely running low on cash at this current moment, but cash isn't really the problem since i'm getting my allowance tomorrow. haha. it is the tiredness. why? why must a person be put thru this kind of events? testing? or what? well. i don't know, i just know that i need rest, and at the same time, i need to finish this thing up, before it drains me.
-the rest of my thoughts
well. certainly, it's been a trying time, leading me to think, if this is the so-called Year of Victory, what have i been victorious in? well, certainly, finding back my true self, being able to enter Lasalle, changing my handphone, finding people who understand me, growing closer to my Lord.
-my final words
this is why i say that i answer to God and God alone, cuz i won't allow anyone to take responsibility for my life except for myself. I know God i can trust, I know He can do everything for me, I know He will not fall, I know He will not lead me down the wrong way. Human Beings, i cannot trust, only a few, only a few. leaders, i understand that you are still human beings, but if you can assure me that you will only follow God and not man, then i will listen to the words that you speak, and maybe, i'll follow. but only if you can assure me that, only, if you're doing what i'm doing now.
-my prayer
Father, Father in Heaven. All I have is yours, all i am is yours. you clearly can see that, you obviously know, for you are the one that can see into my heart, the one that truly understands me. Lord, this day, i come back to your throne in awe and reverence of you, of your power and your glory. I just pray now Lord, that you grant me rest, and you grant the rest of the people around me understanding, wisdom to understand and discern what is right from wrong not by the paradigm of other humans, but by yours. finally, I commit myself, and all those who i consider friends, brethren, family, and trusted, to you Lord.
For You are my Strength, Strength like no other. You are my Hope, Hope like no other. unfailing love, stronger than mountains, deeper than oceans. you have let this reach out to me. you have died for me, you have allowed me to live for another day, you have granted me a calling, you have given me a purpose, you have taught me love, forgiveness and grace. You are my Lord and King, and I thank you, for every single blessing that you have given onto me, unto the undeserving me. and i Thank You Lord. for this. In the name of Jesus, i seal this prayer, knowing that it is answered. thank you Lord, Amen.
As Dusk Falls
7/27/2007 11:40:00 AM
