Wednesday, August 01, 2007
PS, read red paragraph first. =)
sometimes, it just isn't fair is it. that life kicks you in the ass like that? all because of what? all because you were trying to do something good for the people that were under fire, all because you had cared about whether or not the people around you will arrive in the same place as you. all because of a simple bit of compassion for the people that the majority thought did wrong. well, i shan't comment, cuz if i comment somemore, i shall once again be the one under fire. sometimes, it just doesn't pay to be good.
so, it really doesn't matter to me right now, whether or not people will respect me, flame me, shoot me, scold me, persecute me or even reject me. cuz why? i know now who are those that will turn away the moment i'm in trouble, i know now those people who will run and cower within the majority and be perceived safe. and I don't care, cuz i've got the people who will care for me no matter what happens, and in life, those people are the people that you wanna be with. since well, you've already given your trust to them.
truth be told, i've given my trust to everyone, i just respect and honour those who did not betray my trust, a few to name not all, cuz all is too many. i'll just name the ones who stood me thru this period. as follows, Amelia, Ivan, Melvin, Jasper, Hannah. strange, it seems that Jasper's still there, if not, always there, ever since so long. you know what that means? it means, he's a true friend. one that people can rely on. cool ain't it? not saying the rest ain't people that can be relied on.
well. truth be told, I'm actually not bothered about the damned problem anymore, although some people just don't believe me and well, i don't know, can't believe that a person like me, who can easily let go of past happenings and problems, emotional entanglements and stuff exists. only the matter of whether i want to or not. well, i'd like to just say, if you can believe in a miraculous God, a God that rose from the dead after 3 days exists, why can't you believe people like me exist? is it that unbelievable?
PS, if you have been reading the past few paragraphs in a very negative, offensive tone, then i would like you to re read them once again. without the tone, since, well. it's just my thoughts and it's not a negative thing. =) this is just a disclaimer notice, just in case anyone misunderstands again.
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well. today is a happy day. although i'm once again broke, which now i don't wanna think about since thinking about it only makes me feel more broke, i wanna think of the happy stuff that happened. hmm, highlight? Fish and Co.! man, it's been awhile and it really rocks to be there again. hahahahha!! and it's been awhile since i felt this way, ecstatic. man, i love God and I love the person/people God has blessed me with. halleilujah! Praise the lord, thank you Father!! and not forgetting the Holy Spirit! who's always there, never far! =D PTL PTL PTL!!! (just in case you don't know, PTL stands for Praise the Lord! xD)
As Dusk Falls
8/01/2007 11:33:00 PM
