Wednesday, August 08, 2007
with all the things going around me, i suddenly remember, what i was before, what i was, in the past. i remember,
Black Justice; the Curse of Blackheart
i remember once which i couldn't care less about everything around me, where the world truly revolved around me. me winning, me doing stuff, me going places, me me me. i remember those times, when nothing around me affected me in any manner, my will was my will, my way was my way. and nothing could change my mind about things. i remember a time when nothing, not even the death of a family member could shake the tears from my eyes. i remember, the darkness within me that no one would ever believe. i remember, those times, i used to be so power-hungry. i remember my name, as i called myself in the past, his name, was Blackheart.
its just a wonder, how much God has changed me to become. it's just that, sometimes, people around you don't look at your past. they say, your past is your past, it doesn't matter now. but no, it does. in comparison to my past self and my current self, i'm sure, many would say that i've taken a 180degree turn from bad to good. but sadly, it's just that some people, or most people around us just don't look at it. and they just are concerned about what you are now, not what you have become from before.
taking a look back, i may still be a little selfish now, but not as selfish as before. i used to be very possessive in the past, but i learnt that if you love someone, you've got to give them space. i learnt to think for others instead of only for myself. i learnt to soften my hardened heart, i learnt to treasure those around me. i learnt to listen to and understand people around me. most of all, i learnt to love those around me.
As Dusk Falls
8/08/2007 11:58:00 PM
