Wednesday, September 12, 2007
well. scrap the PSP slim goal. after thinking, i just feel that i don't exactly need it. it's more of a temporal wanting impulse than a need nor a long lasting want. other than that, it's also quite costly. haha.
other than that. i'm just so tired. physically, mentally, emotionally, in anyway that you can think of. i'm pushing myself to go on. holding on. unconsciously, to God. or must that be conscious?
sighs. i'm confused people. i'm running dry. i tried running away. but i know that in the end, it'll all come back to me one way or another, so that was no point. i tried pushing it aside, but i'm not exactly one that will let problems stay as problems. i tried not thinking about it, going out with people. but in the end, when i'm alone, i still think about it. i still am here. my heart's still open.
well. i don't know. God. i just don't know. somehow God. just tell me what to do will you? thank you for the people that you have given to me in my time of need. thank you for showing me those who will stand by me because they choose to Lord. truly, you know how i'm really feeling. lonely, even though i've always got so many people around me. helpless and lost, even though i always seem to know what to do. hurt, fearful, afraid, even though i always seem so strong. tired, even though i always seem so energetic. helpless, even though i know what to say when people are in need. Lord. i thank you for always using me. for always letting me be a blessing to others, letting me have the opportunities to teach and to learn. i thank you for dying for me. i thank you, that when i was so unworthy of your love, of your care, of your concern. that you cae down, laid your life on the cross, because you chose to do so. thank you.
No occasion justifies hatred, no injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love. today, i will love God and what God loves.
As Dusk Falls
9/12/2007 10:56:00 PM
