Sunday, October 07, 2007
jeez, i'm seriously running out of post titles. gotta think of more, and at the same time, finish up all my owed homework due to my super un-motivated period that i've just gone thru.
well, i can't exactly say that I'm over it. neither can i say that I'm even motivated to do anything. but well, even if I'm not, i can't allow it to be an excuse for me to not do anything, i can't allow it to affect me and put me down. i still have to go on, i still have to live life, i still have to continue on, being the light that I'm called to be. no matter how dim I've already become.
I'm still having thought, thinking about stuff. like when Denise, Felicia and Shermaine were talking about the upcoming youth camp. in my mind, i was like, can i even be there, serving as the role i absolutely love serving as, facilitator. am i able to? or rather, the question this time round wouldn't be whether I'm able to, but whether I'm allowed to. definitely, i love that position. but I'm not gonna strive to get there just for the sake of the position, just for the namesake. after all, that's not the thing I'm serving, it's not my master. but still questions like this still come across my mind. what happens now?
like the period of time after a cataclysmic battle(thank God it isn't my final, i don't wanna be Heaven-bound till I feel that I've done all i have to do), what will happen now? that is the biggest question. and well, i don't seem to be able to find the answer for it. i don't seem to be the one that holds the answers or can give me the answers. who is then? who knows?
well. right now, i'll definitely have to push on, regardless of whether i'm feeling down, emo-ish, or even on the verge of death(emotionally, i feel this way). cuz that's what winners always do, they find a way. well, God's definitely the biggest winner then, He's the one that makes the way.
well, here's Henzy David, once again, signing off. wish me the best brothers, sisters and friends.
As Dusk Falls
10/07/2007 10:34:00 PM
