Saturday, October 27, 2007
at the base of every problem, there is a source, or as others call it, the root of the problem. at the juncture where you find the root of the problem, one has two choices. 1, is to stay and fight the problem. 2, is the sneak, and run away. basically, dealing with a problem, is like having an encounter with a monster, or a boss in any game. but strangely enough, all of us can simply fight that boss in the game, yet, choose otherwise in our lives, to run. what is the cause of this?
some would say that they aren't as prepared, others would say that they've got too many problems to handle. well, i guess the answer would be on a personal basis. everyone has different forms or situations we are in. but we aren't to allow this to be an excuse to run away. or are we just ignorant, arrogant, or even belittling ourselves so as to allow ourselves an excuse, or an unreasonable reason to let us run away from the problem.
i once said this, and i still believe in it. Reasons are always excuses. but now, i add one more sentence to it. Reasons are always excuses, unless they are reasonable. yet, we shouldn't use the loophole on this sentence to turn it to our own advantage.
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Enter Arcane Frost.
well, i guess i'm just so pissed about not being able to effect change in the environment around me. about all these people that i want to help but just can't, due to the reason that they don't want to be helped. but what should i do when i face these kind of problems? it's not like as if i could just turn my back on them. that wouldn't be doing justice to them, neither will it be upholding my words, that i would be there for anyone that needed my help. like i said before.
yet, it's just so difficult as people just either, don't want to understand, or just can't. Lord, sometimes i just wonder, am i really doing too much, or just stepping into an area that's out of my control. but isn't that what i am? after all, Henzy David is one that wouldn't care about the boundaries, or rather, transcend boundaries. going the distance for people just is so difficult.
i had a vision today, i saw a person standing in an empty space, i could feel that that person was very lonely. after all, he was the only one there. i could feel the loneliness in the heart of that person, but in the next scene, i saw him celebrating his birthday, and there were many gathered around him. all celebrating for him, and i saw that he smiled, so happily. i could sense that that was the first true smile that he showed on his face. i just wonder what this means.
Enter Arcane Frost. I've got nothing left, but a name, and the most powerful entity in the whole of the universe.
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when i look at others, it just makes me wonder, will i ever have that kind of joy that they do. can i ever find one to love me, and for me to love as much. and the question that i always ask myself comes crawling back to me. "what of henzy david?" sometimes, it's not that i want to be selfish or seem to act selfishly. it's just, will i be able to enjoy what they are enjoying? or is this the price to pay for talent, for power, for wisdom, for what i am now? will i be able to be like them? or am i destined to be like this. what of henzy david?
remember the names, Blackheart, Frostwhisper, Black Justice, Mhystry. my name, is Henzy David.
As Dusk Falls
10/27/2007 10:04:00 PM
