Sunday, November 11, 2007
truthfully speaking, this time, i really brought it upon myself. well, no doubt about it, i'm in the wrong. but then again, all that i can do now is change. but the hard thing is that people just don't see it, don't look deeper, and when old habits(which usually die hard) come back, the perception of the person returns back to, well. whatever you choose to label that person as.
why? why do we always have to do that? when people do something wrong, we immediately think, oh he's at it again. why? because, we're human. but sometimes i really wonder, is that a reason, or an excuse, and when it's a reason, is it a reasonable one. well, i can't change anyone's point of view. so, once again, it's up to you to decide.
i know i'm wrong. you don't have to tell me that again. truth be told, i'd rather be encouraged for changing that little bit of myself, rather than be put down for not changing alot. which would have the greater effect, i believe it's the first one. i personally feel i've done my best in changing myself with all the shit that's happening around me so far. and truthfully, if the world can be encouraging, why can't the church be the same? or even more encouraging. well, look on the bright side eh? at least i'm still here, at least i'm still trying to do even better, to rise up.
what would i do? i'd rather let those little things propel me, encourage me, and push me further, closer to the goal, than just say, i'm not good enough cuz i've only managed to change so little.
As Dusk Falls
11/11/2007 10:12:00 PM
