Sunday, December 30, 2007
i'm back from my retreat. and yes, i'm pretty tired out. well, although the retreat was tiring, it was good too. a good time of fellowship and coming back to God and experiencing his touch.
i can only say that throughout this retreat. there are a few thing that He spoke to me about which i'm going to cover in this post.
the first question i received, Have you lost your innocence? why are you doing all that you're doing now? is it because you've been serving so much, giving so much, helping others out so much, yet don't feel appreciated. but then you tell yourself that it doesn't matter because appreciation cannot be asked for, but deep down inside you really want it because that's basically how all humans are?
the next question is this, why? why do you care for others so much, but don't let others care for you. or choose not to accept the care that others give to you. why do you worry about others so much, but don't even worry about yourself. but then again, my fear, or my question to this question is. how many can assure me that what they say is true. that they'll be there for me just like how i said i'd be there for them.
truly, i wonder. truthfully, it the end of the year. it's time for closure. but i don't think that i'm capable of closing anything right now. i'm confused, there are just so many things that need to be settled. justice to be done. names to be cleared. hearts to be calmed and comforted. i'm not gonna fall out now. i will fight till the end. till everything is settled. God be with me.
As Dusk Falls
12/30/2007 09:50:00 PM
Friday, December 28, 2007
this is my 501st post. but i'm still contemplating whether or not to blog.
haven't been blogging for like what, yesterday and the day before. haha. been pretty busy i can say. the day before, went to Minds with Grace, Denise and Edwin. and then yesterday, i went down to bugis to get ASM #545, One More Day 4/4. the last issue of J.M.S's Amazing Spider-man reign. lol.
well, i'll be off to a pretty relaxing retreat with the G.H.Tribe. haha. till sunday night, then i'll be back home. and monday night is the countdown party, theme: Warriors of Light. now how the heck is anyone gonna pull that off. this is gonna be interesting. haha.
phase one: initiated.
beginning phase two once require information is accquired.
to begin phase three, either plan A or B. to be decided upon completion of phase two.
caution, stealth mode required.
well, Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year. haha. =D and i'm enjoying my PSP!! and i'm glad to say that i accomplished one of my goals this year. which is to get myself a PSP on Christmas! yay. haha
Henzy David, signing off. be back on sunday night. =) cheers.
As Dusk Falls
12/28/2007 10:26:00 AM
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
[posting at 1:22am due to returning home after 12]
well it's Christmas Day. and today, truly is enjoyable i have to say.
caught [I Am Legend] this morning and the movie left me pretty much confused. haha. confused about how to rate it, as it's not exactly a very bad movie, neither is it a very good one. i guess, it's my kind of movie. haha, the deep thinking, not so direct kind of thriller. where the portrayal of words like 'savior', 'friend', 'compassion' and 'love' take on a somewhat darker and mysterious side. i wouldn't really recommend you to watch it. but it's somewhat of a good movie nonetheless.
then, around evening, was Adeline's Christmas celebration at her place. that about sums up my Christmas Day.
well, it's a season of giving, and this picture is just about most of the gifts and cards that I've gotten this year. haha, just for the sake of chronicling them.
As Dusk Falls
12/25/2007 11:17:00 PM
[continued from previous post]
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
well, this christmas, i just pray that God, you allow me to just truly enjoy myself. yeah. and well, i cast my problems and burdens at your feet. knowing that my faith is in you. Merry Christmas Lord, Happy Birthday.
Monday, December 24, 2007
Christmas eve. its the day before Christmas. and well, somehow, even though I've got alot of stuff that's either unexpected, or wanted and I'm pretty much happy. but there just seems to be something missing. what is it? i have no idea. truthfully, amongst the festive joy, carolling, cheering and smiley faces of the people that surround me, there just seems to be this, imminent gloom that resides within me for no apparent reason.
but then again, i'm blogging this post at 12. so....... continued on next post.
As Dusk Falls
12/24/2007 11:56:00 PM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
well, it's like what? 2 more days to Christmas and i'm already in the Christmas spirit. lol. halleilujah, and the countdown begins.
but then again, along with the festive joy, comes problems. issues. issues like, why can't people just be themselves in front of others. why must there be pressure and the like. and why do people still assume that they know what truly runs within my blood? why do they still assume?
why don't they let others have a fresh new page. must the sins of the past truly be held against them? isn't it, forgive and forget? forgive, and let go them. do not remember the sins past. do not remember the things that people have done wrong against you. is it truly that difficult? or is it just me?
As Dusk Falls
12/23/2007 11:09:00 PM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
random comment of the day: Syazel Aporro is disgusting. his fornicaras' "Gabrielle" ability is disgusting.
well, I'm back from youth camp. i can't really say I'm very happy. but well, I'm just thankful for the stuff that happened during the camp. haha. truly, i did have fun. i thank God for speaking to me especially on the first day, reminding me of this sentence. a bible verse to be particular, but which one it is i don't remember.
to the gentiles, we were sent as a gentile. to the jews as a jew. telling me that in order for me to influence people, i must become like one of them. =)
i also thank God for my facilitators, although a last minute change, but thank God for Annabelle, Ben and Chris! haha. and also for all the other people that God has placed in my life, namely, Shing Kai, JiaYu, PeiShan, Group 7, Bobby, Tian Ci, Justin and many more. yup. i guess i'll end here then. pretty tired out right now. haha.
As Dusk Falls
12/22/2007 11:04:00 PM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
yay, one day before youth camp and Henzy David has lots of consolations for him. one of them is catching the movie [National Treasure; the Secret Book] with his brothers(Jasper and Frans) and 'brother' hahaha. cool movie i gotta say. lots of very, heart and emotion wrenching moments. definitely worth the $9.50 that we paid for it. haha.
i'd rate it at 8.5/10. Aaaaaawwwweeeesome! lol.
other than that, i'm not exactly very looking forward to what's coming tomorrow. but well, i'm gonna go there, and still have fun no matter what happens. and another consolation is having one other person join my group. haha. i'm happy for that.
well, the day's fine.
to believe in what you originally believed in and to hold on to that till the end.
i just wonder, how can some people see the good things in me, and yet, the rest just see something totally different? who tells the truth? who's being blinded by perspectives? or rather, who's thinking that they've seen the true side of me? that's a pretty good question. has anyone ever considered that what they've seen in me is an act? does it even occur? or do they think that they've already seen me? how wonderful is this analogy. it seems that reading between the lines doesn't just apply to my blog only. what a wonderful truth.
but then, for those who can see the good stuff in me. truly, thank you. know that you've made my day more than once. =)
As Dusk Falls
12/19/2007 11:11:00 PM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
as i do not wish to place things in to juxtaposition. as always, the differentiation of perspectives turns out to be the cause of interrelational issues. the art of this, however, is always as it seems to be, a joy, and a gift. the power to look at both perspectives is also another gift, giving a person insight to that which is unseen, that which is, shadowed within words, in between the lines. truly an art form which i adore.
but truth be told, if you feel upset by showing concern, or upset by the things that i do. then once again, there is a choice for you to not bother. but if you don't bother, then also don't bother trying to tell me about it. truth be told, if speaking to me makes you angry, then why do it?
i guess the reason i can do so, is because i don't let myself have perspective of people. having a fresh page for every person that comes into my path. naive? maybe. how do i describe this? i have no idea. i admit, i'm good with words, but i'm not good with describing myself or my feelings.
truly, for those who have been there, willing to stand by me. to see me through my problems. who are always willing to give me another chance. and not willfully stab me in the back with words that pierce the heart or intoxicate the mind. i am grateful, my debt to you i know not how to repay. i thank you.
just as Christ loved us, we are called to do the same. in the same manner that he did, ever forgiving, ever loving, ever graceful. slow to anger, quick to forgive.
or will words stir up the storm within just at the mere contact with your ears? choices, this one, is once again, a choice that all of us, have to make.
As Dusk Falls
12/18/2007 08:06:00 PM
Monday, December 17, 2007
there are no happy endings.
for those who still do wish to stand by me, i thank you. i will follow the guidelines that i have set for myself. i will not betray the trust that you have placed in me. i will accomplish that agreement that i have agreed to this evening. i am looking forward to my birthday next year, for there is one who still believes in the significance of birthdays, and is willing to do something about it.
i will be myself. i will not let anyone look down on me again. i will show them that henzy david is not to be trifled with. you have underestimated my power, my abilities. for the glory of he who is yet to come, i will let no one ever underestimate me again. i will prove my true worth.
i foresee that there will once again be people who will misunderstand this post of mine. but rest assured, there is nothing that i'm trying to pull.
seemingly, the queks/kueks, have many things in common. well, i was blog hopping and i felt that this statement, meant something to me.
I'm trying to run way, far too many times.Draw me nearer, so that I can surrender to You, look up and say, "You've won my heart".
Brethren, as many as the world seems against you. you note to yourself, don't ever lose yourself, even when you change. become better, but do not, don't ever lose what truly made you you. don't let the world take away what God made would be ours. advance, do not retreat. look forward, do not fear. have faith, believe. He will see you thru the darkest night. and even as you walk through the valley of the shadow of death, you will fear nothing. for He is with you.
As Dusk Falls
12/17/2007 09:50:00 PM
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Abysmal, abysmal.
he wishes to show it, but he doesn't know how
I've no idea what to blog about tonight. for three years, three years i haven't used that word, and now, I'm pushed over the edge to use it.
truth is, he really wants it. he wonders, why.
Death has a new name.
no words can describe his feelings now
it's a wonder how a single sentence can have so many different meaning to so many different people.
acceptance? flaws. so many flaws that i can find.
Imagine me without you, I'd be lost and so confused. i wouldn't last a day.
tell me again. who am i? what am i to you?
what am i here for? where.
of all places to hit me, you hit me here. genius indeed you are.
i will rip you to shreds if i have the chance and the power to. i assure you i will.
i will decimate you, obliterate you, make you regret your existance. your sin. your corruption of man.
damn you. perpetrator, infiltrator, defiler, advocate, nemesis, adversary.
We will not fight to save that which we do not love. - Stephen Jay Gould
read between the lines if you wish to understand. sight is the key.
As Dusk Falls
12/16/2007 11:33:00 PM
Saturday, December 15, 2007
well, there are two things that i wanna talk about today.
firstly, yay. i finally get an outing today(with Jasper, Joadine and Weiting) after a whole day of staying at home rotting. lol. jeez i better start getting my stuff done before time runs out on me. haha. and damn, the urge for playing CS is getting stronger. lol, i feel like going to get one of them condition zero games since my CS source can't be installed in my PC and if i instal it in my laptop it lags like crazy.
the other thing, is this.
here i have to different kinds of music to recommend. haha. one is pretty old, about a few months back, and the other, is quite new. duh.
firstly, yay. i finally get an outing today(with Jasper, Joadine and Weiting) after a whole day of staying at home rotting. lol. jeez i better start getting my stuff done before time runs out on me. haha. and damn, the urge for playing CS is getting stronger. lol, i feel like going to get one of them condition zero games since my CS source can't be installed in my PC and if i instal it in my laptop it lags like crazy.
the other thing, is this.
here i have to different kinds of music to recommend. haha. one is pretty old, about a few months back, and the other, is quite new. duh.
the first CD, is the Secret(不能說的秘密) OST. i got this cd, courtesy of Cyndi! yay applause. lol. or rather, i borrowed it. haha. but this is one set of good sounding music i tell you. some of it soothing, some of it exciting. but all in all, good. haha.
the next cd, is my early Christmas present from my step-mum. it's Chris Tomlin's [See The Morning] album. well, this one i haven't really completely listened to, but a few highlights are his personal rendition of the hymn [Amazing Grace], brilliant this one. [Made to Worship] and [How Can I Keep From Singing]. it's a pretty good worship album. yup
and that's all for tonight folks'.
Once Upon A Time...
As Dusk Falls
12/15/2007 10:59:00 PM
Friday, December 14, 2007
alright! Henzy David's first posted question.
how can i update everyday? question courtesy of Adeline! lol
well, i guess it's all a choice. and i guess one of the other reasons why i can update everyday is cuz i guess i just have the things to blog about. like, things that bother me or make me happy. fateful events that happened during the day that require the art of archiving. yup. haha.
but i guess, the reason why i'm so happy is cuz i made the choice to look at the positive side of things, the happy stuff within events. it's a choice, it's not easy. but i guess, well, i just choose to and have the will to do it. haha.
well, it seems that this year's nearly over, a few more days to 2008. but i seem to be enjoying myself more and more nowadays. well, i really thank God for all the things that have happened today, be it good or bad. haha.
I am, Once Upon A Time..
As Dusk Falls
12/14/2007 10:57:00 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
argh, wasted one day. lol. oh well. let's make the most of it here then.
random quote of the day: Henzy thinks that this world(Singapore) is very small!!
between once upon a time and happily every after, is now. and during the now, is where the most risks have to be, or can be taken. at every risk, there is a chance of failure. but failure, is the chance for the power of God to be shown, for miracles to take place.
-summarised chapter from [Chasing Daylight] by Erwin McManus
i believe God places us in places to shine for him. but then again, the problem with us, is that we either don't want to shine, or we just are too tied down by situations around us to shine for him. well, i am guilty as charged. but i'm not gonna stop myself from trying in future. will you? seize your divine moment.
---- Soon, the night will engulf the city. but as the darkness overwhelms, and the shadows shift, a new light is birthed. a light that is brighter than those of the street lamps and shophouses. and within it, an energy so potent, that it could consume the stars.
もう二度とほんとの笑顔を取り戻すこと
できないかもしれないと思う夜もあったけど
There were nights when I wasn't sure if I'd be able to
Get my real smile back again
supported by the warmth of the people that I love
I thought that maybe I should try to believe, one more time
-"Ketsui no Asa ni" Aqua Timez
<- reads right to left
remember this? well, thanks to someone, whom i shan't mention. i decided to post this up. haha
As Dusk Falls
12/13/2007 08:48:00 PM
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Blogging, is an art form. and just like any other art forms, your heart and soul seems to unknowingly seep into it. giving it your own special touch. i think, my special touch's name is called mystery. the art of hidden messages only able to be deciphered by those who try to read deeper.
truthfully, i'm thankful for those who care to read deeper, or between the lines(try copying and pasting the post in microsoft word, then increase the text size). and those who can feel or sense that there's something else behind my posts.
well, i'm super happy! lol. and i'm totally enjoying this holiday.
random comment of the day: henzy thinks that Lord of Avernus is a pretty good dota hero! lol.
that special touch; the heart of Henzy David
i wanna watch Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium! lol.
千の夜をこえて 今あなたに会いに行こう
伝えなきゃならないことがある
愛されたい でも 愛そうとしない
その繰り返しのなかを彷徨って
僕が見つけた答えは一つ 怖くたって
傷付いたって 好きな人には好きって伝えるんだ
その想いが叶わなくたって 好きな人に好きって伝える
それはこの世界で一番素敵なことさ
- "Sen no Yoru Wo Koete" by Aqua Timez
As Dusk Falls
12/12/2007 08:22:00 PM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
ooooooooooooooooooooooookay! the skin on my back has started to peel. zzz. but other than that useless piece of information, my day's been a great one.
firstly, down to Trybe centre, all the way from batok, to meet up with Raffy for lunch. lol. his call, but it was nice to sit down and just chat. like, i pure carefree chat. haha. i liked it. haha.
random comment of the day: EH, Henzy like the new Jay Chou album.
after that, was dinner with bobby, cyndi and cherie down at suntec city's place where they sell overpriced hawker centre food. then, since it's a tuesday, waffles at gelare! lol.
well, that's pretty much my today for you guys.
and well, somehow, i guess, it's nice to be natural, to be me, myself and not try to impress anyone with another me. i'm born with a carefree lifestyle. and that's pretty much how i'm supposed to be. haha. thank God for it. but not carefree to the extent that i don't care about anything. haha.
-Henzy rarely posts chinese stuff up. but heck, this song is nice.
if you gave me a chance, maybe. i wish that i didn't appear in your life.
i know it's easy, if you want to leave
As Dusk Falls
12/11/2007 11:57:00 PM
Monday, December 10, 2007
well, nothing really really interesting happened today. but then again, maybe it was just cuz i didn't notice anything. it's been a stay home slack around kind of day for me. and well, i really think i'm wasting time here.
feel to tempted to post this. haha
Henzy David likes
-slow-to-medium speed guitar, drums and piano music(eg. Ketsui no Asa ni by Aqua Timez, Glory to God by paradise live)
-punk rock, gospel, j-pop
-photography, both ways, me in the picture, or me taking the pictures.
-blogging, well this is pretty obvious
-drawing, sketching
shall end here, there are many more. but i'll just end here for now. lol.
Henzy David is pretty random
As Dusk Falls
12/10/2007 10:07:00 PM
Sunday, December 09, 2007
i'm kind lazy to replace the other post, so instead of that, i'm gonna do a new one. haha. or just post it here. haha.
yesterday was Pastor Adrian and Aunna's wedding! yay. lol, finally they are joined in holy matrimony. haha. sincerely, i don't really know what about it to blog about, is it the event that i want to capture, or the people, or the things that just happened throughout the day. i'm not sure man. haha. all i can say is that it was a joyful occasion, and well, it's really God-Blessed. haha. an occasion that nearly brought me to tears, tears of what i myself don't know, i presume it's joy, cuz there ain't any other kind of tears for me to shed on that day. haha. but once again, congrats Pastor Adrian and Aunna! haha.
well after that, it was our own little outing, consisting of the 18 of us, Jasper, Wayne, Me, Ivan, Melvin, Daryl, Jaren, Brian, Bobby, Victor, Huiyu, Jessica, SiJia, Michelle, Adeline, Joadine and Cheryl. first to esplanade, then to marina square. haha. took a heck load of pictures. about 1GB worth of them, so many that it's kinda scary. haha.
so spot the similarities.
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on another note, i'm gonna blog something that i feel lately. and that is, well, it seems that the 'family' feeling from the church is building up. it's not a bad thing. but i especially want to comment on it, since well, i'm more of a 'certain/selected crowd' person. its a good thing, well, at least now i feel that i have somewhere to come back to where people care and are concerned and show appreciation. God, thank you.
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on another note, i'm gonna blog something that i feel lately. and that is, well, it seems that the 'family' feeling from the church is building up. it's not a bad thing. but i especially want to comment on it, since well, i'm more of a 'certain/selected crowd' person. its a good thing, well, at least now i feel that i have somewhere to come back to where people care and are concerned and show appreciation. God, thank you.
well, i'd just like to add a few words of thanks to a few people.
firstly, thank you Pastor Adrian and Aunna for guiding me thru that period of my life. you guys, ronghui, and all those who really stood up, and spoke out to me. thank you. and well, still sorry for the trouble.
next, thank you Jasper! best friend! lol. verse sworn brother. your words of wisdom, well, you can fill in the blanks for the rest.
Wayne! Reno shirosaki! thanks. from bleach to anything else. haha.
Jessica and Huiyu! well, another special thanks to you guys, or gals, for you know what reasons. haha
Joa Dajie! Xie Xie Dajie! for everything.
and last but not least, the cell, Min, Hannah, Grace, Wency, Bryn, Marcus and all those who stood by me or aided me when i was in need.
thanks. and God bless everyone of you.
As Dusk Falls
12/09/2007 09:54:00 PM
Saturday, December 08, 2007
post to be edited
As Dusk Falls
12/08/2007 10:21:00 PM
Friday, December 07, 2007
who am i bluffing? what am i really doing? why does it affect me?
As Dusk Falls
12/07/2007 11:27:00 PM
Thursday, December 06, 2007
it seems that it's destined, that the masks will forever be placed on the face of man. that the rumours will forever be spread from the mouths of man, even though it was meant with good will. but do you ever consider, what one sentence to incite fear in a person, can do to another?
who are we? what are we?
no longer is it black and white, but now, it has become, black with white.
As Dusk Falls
12/06/2007 03:22:00 PM
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
second post of the day, this one pretty near midnight. just got home after going out with Bryn, Wency, Lisa, Joel and Marcus. at where, minds cafe. haha.
damn, my sun burnt back is hurting like crazy right now. like a thousand needles being pierced into a multiple spots on my back once every second. here it goes ag ain. argh. no, I'm not exaggerating.
and well, i realised something else. that sometimes, i do silly/funny stuff that's totally embarassing, and yet, i don't know it. lol. either that, or i realise it a few days later. haha.
note, henzy david is currently unable to continue blogging. God, i never knew pain could be so, painful.
As Dusk Falls
12/05/2007 11:57:00 PM
i realised i've been doing alot of early morning/afternoon blogging. well, for yesterday and today only. i just felt that i don't wanna use the computer till late night anymore. one of the reasons is cuz my dad keeps nagging and stuff. but well, oh well. haha.
i realised that most of the problems that we have with other people actually come from within, or rather, come from ourselves, if its put in another manner. i mean, like, the way we say stuff, or even to the things that we say that makes others not like us. and strangely enough i only realised this last night. interesting ain't it.
and there's one more thing that i wanted to post. cherish, lest it perish. simplified, since most people are telling me that my bloggin style is pretty mysterious/chim/blur/covered-up, it means, just cherish the things that are around you before it perishes/disappears/poof/gone. yeah, you get the drift.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
what am i doing here bloggin in midday. hmm, well, i decided that just before i go on to clean up my room, i felt that i wanted to blog about something interesting. but then again, i'm not too sure how to elaborate on it. haha. but here we go anyways.
its pretty interesting, don't you find it. that every now and then, you walk into someone's life, and then, at the next moment you find yourself thinking, "hey, when did i last talk to this someone." interestingly enough, leaving someone's life, may just be as easy as blinking an eyelid.
you never know when you did if, or even if you are still in that person's life. thinking about it, i guess there are many reasons why, and along with that, many people who have left my life, or vice versa. who know's when they'll be back, or even if they will ever return.
well, i guess that's about all i have to say right now. no worries eh. haha.
its just you and me, and all other people, with nothing to do, nothing to prove.
As Dusk Falls
12/04/2007 03:12:00 PM
Monday, December 03, 2007
"what a perfect day" and "i'm never alone" seems to be the top two most encouraging statements of today. haha.
other than the 3 our long wait and the boredom and the turn up rate, i guess i can call the class outing today a just pass success. haha. and now, i want to thank those who turned up. Candy, Esther, Lydia, Deidre, Cynthia, Wency, Lisa, Joel, Bryn, Lawrence and Marcus. yes, thank you very much for turning up, without you, well, i guess i'll pretty much be there alone. haha. yup.
aside from wading around in the pool on top of vivo city in the morning, playing around in the water, burying lydia and digging a big hole, i guess another of the more eventful happenings today has to be the skyride/luge ride. and we have to thank lisa, who knows why we are thanking here, for even having the chance to do so. hahaha. well, let the pictures do the talking.
and a magnificent sunset to end the day.
As Dusk Falls
12/03/2007 09:18:00 PM
Sunday, December 02, 2007
well, it seems that i've missed a day of bloggin. haha. but well, can't be helped, got home damn late last night. haha. why you ask? well, yesterday there was an event going on down at marina bay, and it was having steamboat/bbq/seoul-garden-like dinner to celebrate both nic sit and joadine dajie's birthday. there were 3 tables, and guess what, our table has got to be the noisiest i tell you. haha, with all the jokes and funny comments flying around the table where Jasper, Grace, Bobby, Jaren, Ryan, Cheryl and Joadine were seated at, why not?
live prawns jumping out of water, 60% cooked chicken, prawns splashing water out of the pot, oil jumping out and flying at people, and well, that's just the gist of it i have to. haha.
nonetheless, it was good. haha.
well, today was another fun packed day, if i say so myself. an inspirational, heart-felt message from a person with no limbs. Nick Vujicic. there's like no words i can find to describe it i tell ya. look him up on the net. that's the best suggestion that i can give to you. =)
As Dusk Falls
12/02/2007 10:59:00 PM
