Sunday, December 30, 2007
i'm back from my retreat. and yes, i'm pretty tired out. well, although the retreat was tiring, it was good too. a good time of fellowship and coming back to God and experiencing his touch.
i can only say that throughout this retreat. there are a few thing that He spoke to me about which i'm going to cover in this post.
the first question i received, Have you lost your innocence? why are you doing all that you're doing now? is it because you've been serving so much, giving so much, helping others out so much, yet don't feel appreciated. but then you tell yourself that it doesn't matter because appreciation cannot be asked for, but deep down inside you really want it because that's basically how all humans are?
the next question is this, why? why do you care for others so much, but don't let others care for you. or choose not to accept the care that others give to you. why do you worry about others so much, but don't even worry about yourself. but then again, my fear, or my question to this question is. how many can assure me that what they say is true. that they'll be there for me just like how i said i'd be there for them.
truly, i wonder. truthfully, it the end of the year. it's time for closure. but i don't think that i'm capable of closing anything right now. i'm confused, there are just so many things that need to be settled. justice to be done. names to be cleared. hearts to be calmed and comforted. i'm not gonna fall out now. i will fight till the end. till everything is settled. God be with me.
As Dusk Falls
12/30/2007 09:50:00 PM
