Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I'm currently in a state of turmoil. the emotions inside me, running amock. i'm feeling, all at the same time, lost, confused, stressed, anxious, tired and pissed. at what, well, you can say that I'm pissed at the situation that i put myself into.
whether or not for reasons good or otherwise. i still gotta deal with it. i keep telling myself i can, i won't fall down, i won't give up, i will not be defeated. but somehow or rather, it seems that as much as my mind tells me so, my heart knows otherwise. truthfully, it seems that my heart's more accurate than my mind. But then, i know the truth, i know that what i'm in now is meant to be happening, both as the circumstances of my actions and as the beginning of a new day, a new era, a new arc in my life.
as Jasper was preaching just now at NP open cell, in your greatest time of need, when you call upon God, the miracle that He gives you, might just be sitting right next to you. all you have have to do, is open your eyes to see it. i kinda like going for open cell, partially cuz of the reason that the messages are always to appropriate.
well, i know that the miracle that i need is right next to me. truly thank God for this miracle. the miracle of friendship, those truly loyal ones. that are willing to stand by me no matter what crap or chaos i can come up with. thank you God, and a great thanks to you people who've stood by me and are still willing to do that.
i guess there's one more thing that i learnt today, and that's to be true to yourself. that as youths, we don't need to be afraid to make mistakes.
Shattered. The Ace of Hearts.
As Dusk Falls
1/15/2008 09:46:00 PM
