Monday, March 31, 2008
i can't really differentiate, whether I'm just bored, or I'm feeling down. but that's the reason why I'm posting here. because i know I've a responsibility. a duty to fulfill. but not just for the sake of fulfilling that duty, not because i need to. but because i want to.
Phase Three : Raise the Bar
i know. lately, i haven't been myself, well, at least for the past 3 days or so. truthfully, i myself can't even comprehend why I'm in this state. simply, i don't know.
but then again, sometimes, there are somethings that we just don't know, yet, are of no importance knowing at all. i always preach this, to follow your heart. to trust your passions. as i type this post out, it seems that I'm reminded that I've forgotten that. forgotten to practice what i preach. i have to, i can't let myself pull myself down.
there are people that are relying on me. people whom I'm concerned for, whom i personally feel that i want to take care of. in short, people who i love. me being in this state isn't advantageous whatsoever, be it to myself, or to others.
I'm gonna do it. i won't fail. I'll lead by example. i have to be optimistic. i have to believe. and i will.
As Dusk Falls
3/31/2008 01:39:00 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
seems that my mood's been fluctuating quite alot lately. but still, i'm ok. haha. well, i'm feeling at an all time low right now. waiting. hoping.
Love is Sacrifice
you finally understand. this is truly what love is, the willingness to sacrifice oneself for another. to give up anything, to pay any price. but this love, we wonder, how much can a human heart endure. how far's the limit?
we push ourselves to the furthest point, some of us, just for another person. we hope that that other person would see it, feel it, and respond somewhat to it. we do so much, all in the name of love, all because we want to see the other happy. but is happiness overrated?
some of us know how it feels. the pain of sacrifice, the length that we're willing to go, to sacrifice anything and everything.
it's the same isn't it? just the way that God did it for us. just the way that Jesus sacrificed His all for us. shall we do the same? since we're called to be just like Him. I would.
As Dusk Falls
3/30/2008 09:27:00 PM
Saturday, March 29, 2008
I'm actually up quite early today. i think it was around 8am in the morning. well. quite a surprise. haha. the distance I'd go.
the month of march is coming to an end. time flies. but I'm thankful for it. although we all still complain about the lack of time, but still. I'm thankful for it in some manner whatsoever. sometimes, we encounter periods where you just wished time would come to a standstill. and at others, for time to just move a little faster.
ironic, we humans are. selfish, sometimes. we were never meant to be perfect, but only to find the other that would make us perfect. thus, we spend our lives seeking that other, unknowing of that other's presence right before us, taking that other for granted. but as time comes to pass, we learn to appreciate, not only that other, but everything around us as well. look around you, open your eyes, and you'll see the blessings in disguise, the God-ordained miracles that have already encompassed your soul. in time to come, we learn. we embrace our mistakes and flaws. but still, we will never be perfect without one another.
The Point of No Return
so throw in some irony and contradiction. i seem to be in a very deep thinking mood this morning. as the above apparently shows.
i guess I've come to a point where i made a decision to go down the point of no return. sometimes in life, we all hit that point. we all find things just happen and can't be changed, we can't go back. just as in relationships, once broken, it's over. or so they say.
i beg to differ. i guess I've chosen to do something that may or may not harm myself. to go to the point of no return, in the choice of forgiving and acceptance. to practice forgiveness when people hurt me. to give the chance, the 2nd chance and not just stop there. to go to the point of no return, and bring it back, to return from it.
you'll understand if you read deeper. the post's message is not very on the surface today.
i believe that whatever we believe in will become reality. what do you believe in?
As Dusk Falls
3/29/2008 11:46:00 AM
Friday, March 28, 2008
kinda spent my whole day at home. but at least i had Final Fantasy 7: Crisis Core to kill my boredom. at least after 3 pm that is. lol. it was cell group after that. was kinda worried as it was raining heavily around the afternoon.
well, it seems that the Soul Guardians post has created some hype. well, some at least. and yes, vyzhyn is quite an interesting name. haha. oh well. off i go.
As Dusk Falls
3/28/2008 10:43:00 PM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
ok, i finally made it for animation. haha. at long last. lol. but it wasn't exactly a lesson as i would have expected it to be. so i guess i didn't really miss out much. haha. i did do something during the lesson though.
Vaizard Ichigo by Henzy David
Original art by Kubo Tite
the day went out pretty nicely, or rather, i could say that it went out perfectly. haha. enjoyed myself. well. to the supposed feature of this post.
Phase Two : The Soul Guardians
essentially, the Soul Guardians was created about nearly 4 years ago. originally created as a group with a leader, without a purpose, and just purely for fun's sake. what are the Soul Guardians now?
recreated, not a group nor a docile gang. but instead, an organisation. without a leader, to prove the point of equality amongst members. the Soul Guardians may or may not belong to any other group whatsoever. what does it do? anything, unbound by rules, but not destructive in anyway possible. And most importantly, all in the name of fun.
counting the names will not give you the full role call of this organisation. because no names shall be revealed. only codenames, as goes. the ShadowHearts. Mhystry. the Dreamchaser. Vyzhyn. Illuzt Dfynt.
essentially, phase two, complete, and a success.
As Dusk Falls
3/27/2008 10:02:00 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
ok, i need a card worker. lol, that's the term i give to people who make cards. haha.
i actually don't really have stuff to blog about tonight. just replying tags and typing out "dinner at ajisen ramen at plaza singapura with Bobby, Frans and Keith and i bought that jacket already."
guess i do have something to blog about. the title is.
"I'll Stand the Defence"
note this. from the sidelines comes a sentence, a quote, a voice. the words are powerful, the voice is confident, the message is impactful. he says, "I'll stand the Defence."
i notice that it's what i do. although i am not usually aware of the power of my words, the impact they have on people. that's why i used "impactful" instead of "inspirational", because just as a coin has two sides, there are always a different side to the story, even if it's a word.
I'll stand the Defence. what do you mean Henzy David? i notice that I'm always standing the defence for the other side. whenever a topic is being brought up, i seem to be able to find the other side of that coin, the side that most people aren't looking at. that side that maybe sometimes people don't want to look at. is it a good thing? well, as feedback from people that i know have told me, it actually is.
standing the defence to me is more of being a neutraliser. to un-bias the situation. but the tension in the words is usually the catalyst to spark off the already flared time-bomb, waiting to seize it's divine moment. as you can see, i don't like bias-ness. i don't like people taking sides to be against others. i guess it's become my own personal character. to stand the defense and shed light on the road less taken, the side people don't usually see or want to look at.
kope from Laypeng's blog. the title is "alone" but it's not the way i'm feeling now. a long way away from alone. it just looks so familiar. now where have i see it be..f...o...r.... oh wait. looks like my main blog picture. LOL!
Next Up!
Initiate Phase Two: Resurrect the Soul Guardians. the next post's feature!
As Dusk Falls
3/26/2008 11:21:00 PM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
The Memories of Nobody; Baptism
after the change of blogskin. well, not exactly a change. i just remembered this bit about baptism. or rather, imagining baptism of a friend. and it just brought me back to when i was baptised, about, roughly nearly 2 years ago. it just reminds me of how far I've come.
with the darkness closing in on me. i guess this is a timely reminder. a reminder of how much God's brought me through, how far I've come from the darkness that so seeks to consume me once more. as much as i'm facinated with things of the dark, the powers and abilities that can be done with them. somehow, something in me just tells me not to go there. and for once, i will listen.
you've brought me thus far. given up even yourself for me and blessed me with so much. brought miracles to my life, given me hope and people that i can rely on, and brought me across the line. this time, i'm not going back. for all you've done, i will not. for all you've given me, i won't. just like the time where i came up through the waters, i'll leave everything behind and not return to them. i don't want to face them again, for i know the fear that the instill, the curse that they bring, the hate that the clothe the bearer.
the 2nd year is approaching. the 31st of march will mark that. which also marks the 4th year. here i stand, forgiven.
Those who stand for nothing, fall for anything. - Alexander Hamilton
As Dusk Falls
3/25/2008 12:06:00 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
ok. i need a new blog skin. lol. let's double check, when's the last time i changed a blog skin? hmm, nearly 2 years ago. haha. and well, as nice as it is, i'm starting to get bored of it. lol.
ok. i'm sincerely considering getting that jacket from addidas. $142. black and white. haha.
cool. nice. in the midst of blogging i actually changed my blogskin color. haha. presenting the Shadow version of the Vault of Memories; The Essence of Mystery.
As Dusk Falls
3/24/2008 10:13:00 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Easter Sunday service was quite normal. haha. the message was good though. the ugliness of death. well, i personally feel that the embodiment of death, or what death is normally portrayed as is pretty cool. but after all, the consequences, the stuff that death brings along begs to differ.
stuff happened that made my day. cheered me up, brought a smile to my face. haha. miracles truly exist. haha.
As Dusk Falls
3/23/2008 12:02:00 PM
Saturday, March 22, 2008
cool, headed down to the good friday harvest event at TCT. and well, it was just fun. haha. egg painting, item retrieving through the game "the devil is watching", amusing skit and moving message. i realise i'm very good with trickery. lol. in a good way. haha.
was considering going home, but well. i decided to head for lunch due to certain untold reasons. fellowshipped with the group at KFC, wayne, jasper, marcus, adeline, huiyu, eunice, shujun and cherie. hmm, can't exactly explain my mood at that point of time. it was halfway between happy and err, not so happy. haha. but the stuff that we talked about that day was darn funny.
well, after that i rushed down to city hall to get stuff, then peng qiao yu dao Cyndi and Vivien at Tanah Merah. headed down to hall 10 for sanctification. haha. and after that, took the bus with the two sisters, jonathan, bobby and huiyu. then it was home. haha,
As Dusk Falls
3/22/2008 11:13:00 PM
Friday, March 21, 2008
well, rushing down to sentosa, realised that the queue to go in way freaking long. like, very freaking long. long until the whole hall was packed. haha.
went in, didn't exactly street. got some gossips flying around, watched as ethan collected shells, got abit sun burnt, had an 'indecent' exposure, did quite nice reveals, and headed down to sanctification.
today's was pretty nice. talking about marriages. haha. well. then it was home, which on the way was suanned due to being sunburnt and called eLmo by both Cyndi and shujun. lol. ok. now for my very late small dinner.
went in, didn't exactly street. got some gossips flying around, watched as ethan collected shells, got abit sun burnt, had an 'indecent' exposure, did quite nice reveals, and headed down to sanctification.
today's was pretty nice. talking about marriages. haha. well. then it was home, which on the way was suanned due to being sunburnt and called eLmo by both Cyndi and shujun. lol. ok. now for my very late small dinner.
found this poor little guy at tanah merah mrt station. injured wing, so i pretty much ran down to the control station and called the guy up. receiving a comment about batman. lol. and yes, you're right, it's a bat.
As Dusk Falls
3/21/2008 11:16:00 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
help out adeline in the morning. well, cheered her up with a coin in can trick. i was quite encouraged by her reaction. haha. well. it was pretty ironic.
next was trying to street. but didn't get to. haha. oh well.
and then sanctification service at night. now i'm home. lol. short. sweet. cuz i'm tired.
As Dusk Falls
3/20/2008 11:56:00 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
had my presentation for my specialisation today. kinda irritated with the cab driver. rushed down to school in a cab, but the driver took me for a joy ride. give him the benefit of the doubt that he didn't know the shorter route. but it was getting irritating that he kept wanting to turn left. well. although the fare was a costly $17.40, i guess it ended off well. could've got into an accident or something. at least i got out of it alive. haha.
well, i've been blog hopping alot. wondering and thinking about stuff alot. church stuff especially. i just wonder, what's exactly going on? i kinda feel lost. seriously, all the things changing and moving so fast. and it's really. well, i don't know how to describe it.
it just seems like everyone's in their own clique. and seemingly, the clique just doesn't seem to want people there. truly, this sounds emo, but it just seems that i'm not wanted. why? well, as much as it seems. stupidly, logic must always overrule people. so here are some reasons.
1) the reaction i get when i go up to a group of people just to say hi.
2) the looks on others faces when i talk to certain people.
3) the rumours, gossip and "helpful comments" that are being passed around.
well, don't come over and give me the shit that it's me again alright. i've had enough of that shit. seriously, i've looked at myself head to toe, inspected every single inch of my character and behaviour and asked people about them. and the answer i get is that i'm fine.
seriously, i hate it. i hate people trying to mould other people to become just like them. i hate it. come on, some of you even bring people through trybe or thumbs up. you tell them there to be yourself, you tell them that you are unique and special. but then, your actions just don't tally.
i seriously think this is become a pain, just because people say that i'm 'dangerous' or 'not good to be around with' doesn't mean that i am. i mean, ask those people that i'm close with and true enough they'll tell you that i'm perfectly fine and maybe even totally opposite of what people are saying.
think about your actions. oversensitivity. mindsets. paradigms. perspectives. whatever you call them. think about it. if it seems logically right, it might not be. it seems right because logically your mind tells you so. but is it really right? what is really wrong? if it's grey, its neither right nor wrong.
i read this somewhere, and i really think that it's true.
"Logic only allows a person to be wrong with authority."
isn't it true? logic's what tells you what's right and what's wrong. think about it.
As Dusk Falls
3/19/2008 10:28:00 PM
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
my tiredness is causing me to get irritated abit faster. which to me, is a pretty big disadvantage.
nothing to blog about. pretty moodless.
As Dusk Falls
3/18/2008 10:48:00 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
my day started out on a very high note. a very very high note. haha. but it didn't get higher than that throughout the day, instead, it dropped. but it was still good nonetheless. last minute Trybe run at Bukit View sec, which was pretty fun. although i personally felt i was just floating around.
phobia. past hurts. as most would be able to see on my windows live messenger personal message
Phase One : Resurrección
no doubt about it. I'm doing something. something big. but personal. I'm tired. sick of it. sick of living in the curse of past hurt. sick of living in the shadow of the criticism of those who put me down before.
it's time to rise Henzy David. you've been dormant for long enough, sleeping within the ashes of your past failures. unknowing of it, all till today. where your words truly get back at you. rise up. have no fear. for have you not always spoken? "fear is but a four letter word." who do you place your trust in? in the words of man? the words of those who criticise you? who believe not in you? no. place your trust in God, in the people whom you trust, those whom you'd willingly sacrifice yourself for.
face it. rise up. be who you are. believe in all that which you hold dearly too.
believe. trust. understand. love.
-Henzy David; ShadowHearts
still high over the thing that made my day this morning. haha. not going to say what it is. don't think too much.
As Dusk Falls
3/17/2008 10:02:00 PM
Saturday, March 15, 2008
it was nearly a wasted day. nearly. =)
take a good walk around tampines, bump into someone you don't know and have him offer you to send you over to simei. what a kind soul that guy is. dead moths, rotten mangoes, setting sun and cloudbreaks.
travelling alone is pretty relaxing in some sense. well, sometimes it is, in others it's pretty irritating. other irritating stuff have happened too. you'd never know would you, when people are watching you, who's watching you.
"you will only find what you're looking for, when you know what you're looking for."
i love this song. this is one very soothing, beautiful song. haha. here. listen, enjoy.
喜歡看你走路充滿自信
說話時候你的專注眼神
溫柔的表情笑容裡的天真
我相信 找不到有比你更好的人
As Dusk Falls
3/15/2008 09:34:00 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008
you could say it was half of a good day for me. headed out in the morning for sentosa. but rushed off to plaza singapura for lunch with Joadine Dajie, cheryl and cherie. caught Kaiyee's performance at the white tent area outside PS. and headed back down to sentosa. collected brochures and went back in.
amazingly, it rained, slight drizzle according to those who were there. but it stopped before i reached. was waiting for ethan to swim back over from the other island at siloso beach, so i took yong ming's slippers, sat on them, convenientý leaned myself against a pillar and took a nap.
so he came back, and the group of us, consisting of Vanessa, Vege, Adlar, Ethan and myself, went around the beach streeting, or rather beaching. lol. pretty cool, cuz ethan tricked me by telling me he wasnt geared, so i had to do most of the stuff. but in the end he told me he was.
rainbows, cloudbreak, sunset and stuff. they finished bathing, and it was off to vivo city for dinner. joining the already huge crowd, was min, vivien, br and steven jr. and then it was homeward bound.
the circle rainbow
current status: recovering. (kinda got sick yesterday, sneezing, coughing, tired eyes, aching muscles.) throat feels abit sore. but other than that, i am perfectly fine. =)
As Dusk Falls
3/14/2008 11:44:00 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
ok, i woke up this morning feeling very dizzy, you know, tou yun? haha. as i walked, felt like i was on a ship with heavy waves crashing at it's sides and making the ship unstable. guess my neuro-stabilizer isn't working well this morning. still feeling abit dizzy though.
THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN A RELATIONSHIP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON;IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND .SUSTAINING
love is not a passive or spontaneous experience.
It'll never just happen to you.
You can't "find" LASTING love.
You have to "make" it day in and day out.
That's why we have the expression "the labour of love."
Because it takes time, effort, and energy.
And most importantly, it takes WISDOM .
You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your relationship work.
A nice, romantic dinner once in a while,
A surprise for the other party to add colours into this relationship,
A bouquet of flowers not just on valentines' day .
Gestures to show that you still cherish the other party and love him/her just like before.
sweet notes/messages (:
A fun day out just the two of you.
Be still as understanding as ever ! [:
was passing by Weiwei's blog. and saw this, so i decided to 'pirate' it. haha. the pirate that i am. well, let's put it in a nicer way lah huh. adopt it. yeah. cuz i felt that it was pretty meaningful. it's just half of the whole thing though. but yea.
research also shows that she took it off another person's blog, which the other person also took off another person's blog. lol. but well, let's not go there. i'll leave you guys with this for the moment. blog back later. my bleach has arrived.
As Dusk Falls
3/13/2008 10:15:00 AM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
for the past few days, the skies have been draining itself. rain just keeps falling, and falling, and falling, and falling. and it doesn't seem to end. the skies are dark, creating a moody feel. can't even tell whether it's day or night.
the rain's affecting my mood somehow. and my eyesight too. the darkening skies just doesn't seem to place me in an advantageous situation. well, just pray to God that he sears the skies soon. the only good thing about it is that the weather's cool enough for my hands to not sweat. which is a good thing. in some sense.
I'm actually considering not going to night cycling. well ain't that amazing. amazing cuz it's one of those things that you always thought henzy wouldn't turn down. I'm considering it, well, amazingly, cuz i don't think that my dad would be pretty happy about it. what's more amazing, is that I'm posting it up here. on my blog.
[added at 11:55pm]
other than that, I've also receive complaints that my posts aren't up to standard. well, considering me chionging my homework, taking abit of time off to relax and do personal stuff. hmm, i'm not running out of inspiration, i'm just running out of energy to keep the inspiration and post it. sometimes, i just lose my train of thoughts halfway thru blogging, wonder why am i even blogging on this topic, and just delete the whole damn thing. i dunno, i'm pretty low on energy these few nights.
you must press on Henzy David. no matter how tired you are, you have to. sometimes, i really admire myself, cuz i really do things that sometimes amaze even myself. so let's do this brethren. finish up your homework, go fo assessment, head on to level 1. bring home to gold. enjoy life, love, glorify God. ShadowHearts, Mhystry, Paradox and all. we will be able to do this. believe, xiang xing, and press in! jiayou!
As Dusk Falls
3/12/2008 06:14:00 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
11 march. it's say, one month away from my nineteenth birthday? jeez, 19. somehow i wish i just wouldn't grow older. haha. i mean, who doesn't? ok, confession, this is the first time i'm feeling this way. oh well.
well, there's one thing that i really look forward to this birthday. haha. but even if i don't get it, it's still fine. reasons undisclosed. haha.
my posts are getting shorter and shorter. lol. oh well. let's go get dinner.
As Dusk Falls
3/11/2008 08:19:00 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
chocolates for the high. basically running on chocolates today, just specially for the sugar high to keep me going.
"it's not about what you've got, it's about what you make with what you've got."
i seriously think about step up movies are great. lol. well. i've got nothing much to type about for tonight. so guess that's it.
As Dusk Falls
3/10/2008 09:25:00 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
i seem to be thinking. i mean, like, i seem to think to myself alot. consider possibilities. today was quite pleasant. pleasant in a sense that everything sort of went at an okay speed. cept for morning, where i had to cab down to expo. zzz. burn a hole in my wallet. lol.
well, not so bad. lunch at changi airport, ran around trying to find stuff. then headed to orchard to look for straws. then minds cafe with frans bobby and cheryl. and then home. haha. guess that's all for today.
quite hooked on chinese songs today. pretty surprised that i could sing the worship songs today too. they were in chinese. haha. but it seems the language is more familiar, unusually familiar to me. and i only realised that today. haha. guess it's all about the heart. haha.
As Dusk Falls
3/09/2008 10:15:00 PM
Saturday, March 08, 2008
today was quite a nice day. it just wasn't truly perfect. after doing up the prototype for the 3D project up at sengkang. headed down to bugis to run a few personal errands. then headed off to suntec city for dinner with Wayne, Bobby and Frans.
i guess the highlight for tonight was actually the conversation that i had with Bobby on the bus. true enough, the society of Singapore is so fast paced that it prevents ourselves from truly being ourselves, and also stopping to catch a breather. due to the fear that if we stop, we won't be able to catch up.
i replied, saying that if we don't stop, we'll one day finally break down. and breaking down is so much worse than not being able to catch up. we fear being ourselves because of the competitive society, focusing on the "only the best wanted" mentality. our parents do it, our teachers preach it, our society promotes it. we strive so hard to be the best of the best, the cream of the crop. we take the stress, suppress our emotions, disregard the tiredness and fatigue our body goes thru, all to become the best. but is it worth it?
i agree with bobby, whatever we do, we must never lose ourselves. truly, i support that statement with my life. guilty as it is, i once feared to be muself. feared that the true me wouldn't be accepted by all those around me. but once i did "be myself", i found myself hooked onto it. addicted to being myself. because only when you be yourself, and believe in yourself, that's where life truly begins. that's where true joy is found. not the artificial high you get during parties and the like. the joy, that can only be found when you be yourself. because only then, will you know that you, are the only one that can be the best you around. no one else can do that.
it's my life testimony, and i've found true joy and acceptance with the people that i love being around with. because they accept me for who i am. Henzy David, the best Henzy David that there will ever be in this world.
Cloudbreak. Canon IXUS 850 IS digital camera(08.03.2008). Henzy David.
just so suitable to end the whole post with this. haha.
As Dusk Falls
3/08/2008 11:49:00 PM
Friday, March 07, 2008
ready? time to face the world. the title of this post. well, it's not like as if i'm still living in dreamland, although i wish i could*. haha. it just felt like a nice title for this post.
today was school to central mall to home. was a clarke quay area to do abit of streeting. but my camera batteries died halfway thru, so it was homeward bound for me. haha, amazingly Ethan is shocked by me meeting people i know wherever i go. that's a good thing. lol.
well, guess i'll probably be going off soon. gonna go get some work done. post more later if there's anything else to update on. cheers. chill bro, chill.
As Dusk Falls
3/07/2008 05:51:00 PM
Thursday, March 06, 2008
i was thinking about this on the train. and i realised one thing. sometimes, i stress myself out. haha. although i'm not prone to stress. but i'm prone to giving myself stress by thinking too much. guess that's just life's fairness in everything huh. haha.
well. guess i'm going streeting tml. wanna try to reach home by 4, so i can chiong homework. dunno if i'm going for supper. that depends. haha. i might treat myself to supper. haha. oh well.
guess that's all for tonight. =)
quote Joel, "To be forgotten is worse than death." guess this has great meaning to the both of us huh bro? haha. cheers. truly, being forgotten can sometimes be worse than death. but how often do i show that i am? truly, things, are never what they seem.
As Dusk Falls
3/06/2008 11:56:00 PM
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
ok, truth be told. i'm not exactly feeling that good today. mentally unwell. stressed. finally understand what does stress and pressure feel like. and well, it's not such a good thing.
there's like a whole chunk of stuff inside my head right now that's pushing their way out. but i just can't exactly find a way to. hmm, i'm still ok. like, not dead, not mentally unstable. just stressed and require relaxing. haha.
well, that's the consequence of being lazy. God, help me out here. really require your help right now. haha. gimme a little bit of 'hardworking' and restore that passion for my studies like i used to have for one short period of time during secondary school. seriously sick of being such a slacker.
well, at least i'm not dead yet and still can enjoy and feel blessed. =) haha. cool down bro. still feel like banging my head against the wall though.(don't worry, i haven't done that yet. i'm not such a nut.)
As Dusk Falls
3/05/2008 04:38:00 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
we all know we have to do something. we have to finish up the stuff that we need to do, homework, schoolwork, work, etc. but then again, most of the time, we find ourselves not doing so.
well, i'm trying my best to be hardworking. but i just can't seem to get myself back on track. better do so quick, time's running out. hahaha.
today was a pretty good day, school, then open cell. haha.
guess that's all.
As Dusk Falls
3/04/2008 11:53:00 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
i seem moodless. totally moodless for school. but still i have to press on. can't give up.
right. i believe.
today i did something different, i fasted for a reason. both for God and personal reasons. a request to make it tougher. but it paid off. truly, it paid off. =)
right. i'm braindead, gotta get myself up and running again. guess that's all for a happy day. =)
smile. love. embrace. appreciate. treasure. promise. wait. hope. shadows.
a treasure, a relic, an agreement.
As Dusk Falls
3/03/2008 10:03:00 PM
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Shadow Definitions, the ShadowHearts.
we always wonder. always a step ahead of your audience. that's definitely something that i need to apply in my life. both in performing magic and in living my life. being a step ahead gives one the added advantage. the other advantage is knowing the tricks of the trade.
well, today was a pretty ordinary sunday, cept for the fact that i got up at 9.30am, rushed down to expo to try to get to the prayer meeting, but well. was late, and couldn't find them, so oh well. had dinner with the brothers at marina square carls jr. although i'm abit afraid of eating fast food after watch a video about accumulated fats that clog your blood vessels and arteries this morning. zzz. but still. oh well. haha.
guess that's all for tonight. haha. =) happy day. haha. thank God for everything that he's blessed me with.
within the shadows. the Shadow Definitions; the ShadowHearts
As Dusk Falls
3/02/2008 11:10:00 PM
Saturday, March 01, 2008
i'll just go thru a brief run thru. since i'm rushing for time.
trybe run today was great. although i had some minor problem in the morning. but it was great nonetheless. headed to bukit merah for gameslab after that. and here i am home. blog more tomorrow. =)
thank God for today.
As Dusk Falls
3/01/2008 10:07:00 PM
