Wednesday, March 19, 2008
had my presentation for my specialisation today. kinda irritated with the cab driver. rushed down to school in a cab, but the driver took me for a joy ride. give him the benefit of the doubt that he didn't know the shorter route. but it was getting irritating that he kept wanting to turn left. well. although the fare was a costly $17.40, i guess it ended off well. could've got into an accident or something. at least i got out of it alive. haha.
well, i've been blog hopping alot. wondering and thinking about stuff alot. church stuff especially. i just wonder, what's exactly going on? i kinda feel lost. seriously, all the things changing and moving so fast. and it's really. well, i don't know how to describe it.
it just seems like everyone's in their own clique. and seemingly, the clique just doesn't seem to want people there. truly, this sounds emo, but it just seems that i'm not wanted. why? well, as much as it seems. stupidly, logic must always overrule people. so here are some reasons.
1) the reaction i get when i go up to a group of people just to say hi.
2) the looks on others faces when i talk to certain people.
3) the rumours, gossip and "helpful comments" that are being passed around.
well, don't come over and give me the shit that it's me again alright. i've had enough of that shit. seriously, i've looked at myself head to toe, inspected every single inch of my character and behaviour and asked people about them. and the answer i get is that i'm fine.
seriously, i hate it. i hate people trying to mould other people to become just like them. i hate it. come on, some of you even bring people through trybe or thumbs up. you tell them there to be yourself, you tell them that you are unique and special. but then, your actions just don't tally.
i seriously think this is become a pain, just because people say that i'm 'dangerous' or 'not good to be around with' doesn't mean that i am. i mean, ask those people that i'm close with and true enough they'll tell you that i'm perfectly fine and maybe even totally opposite of what people are saying.
think about your actions. oversensitivity. mindsets. paradigms. perspectives. whatever you call them. think about it. if it seems logically right, it might not be. it seems right because logically your mind tells you so. but is it really right? what is really wrong? if it's grey, its neither right nor wrong.
i read this somewhere, and i really think that it's true.
"Logic only allows a person to be wrong with authority."
isn't it true? logic's what tells you what's right and what's wrong. think about it.
As Dusk Falls
3/19/2008 10:28:00 PM
