Sunday, May 11, 2008
"...you are the missing piece to complete this puzzle."
it's strange, weird to find me home before the sun sets. this post, titled "Against the Setting Sun", is basically about the thoughts that i have on the way back home just now.
it's more of a thinking thing. you travel halfway across the island homeward bound alone. well, in some sense, it's good cuz it allows you time to think your thoughts, consider your options, think about who to trust, who not to. where to place this and that. but the cons, well, sometimes, it just makes you feel so, alone.
"it's so easy to misunderstand Henzy David"
so true, so very true. over the years, the amount of people that misunderstand Henzy David has grown. well, it isn't exponential, i wouldn't want it to be. but i've got the feeling that it's not just gonna stop here.
because of the things i do, the way i think, the stuff that i set into motion. it's just strange. but i can't blame them, i can't blame anyone. i'm the only one who really knows what's going on with myself. maybe it's my own upbringing, the way that i grew up. relying mainly on myself, with no pillar of support to lean on, no words of encouragement to push me forward. the only thing i told myself was this, "never give up". what i had, was the standard chinese family, using negative comments in hope of making the person work harder and become better.
"you don't know the pain that i endure with the passing of each day."
so, while the rest of the world out there celebrates mother's day today. i find myself sitting here in front of the computer screen blogging. knowing that my actual mum isn't exactly here. maybe that's the reason why i prefer to hang around girls more. just maybe. it's not proven. but it doesn't matter either way.
"i have a choice, to choose the art of deception, or the power of trust."
knowing me, well, i'd choose both. i'm a guy that's constantly seeking balance in my life. well, i'm constantly seeking it, that doesn't mean i've found it yet.
As Dusk Falls
5/11/2008 08:18:00 PM
