Tuesday, September 30, 2008
when a person takes his (or her) life, we have a few questions to ponder. why did he summon death in the first place. that's the way i like to put it. or in normal speech terms, why did he seek death? for what reasons.
the following questions are also asked, what happens to his family. how will his friends react. it's interesting, in a sense. death was so near to me these few days. friend's family member passed away, a couple committed suicide by jumping off the block opposite mine. but we have also, the most interesting yet unanswerable question yet. where will they go after death? do they see each other? we believe in one thing. but it's another to prove that one thing. we have faith, but is it blind? how strong is our heart to be able to conquer death?
my prayer is that those affected would be given peace of mind, calmness of heart. and joy, to know that those they've lost, have ascended to somewhere greater than where we are now. after all, just like that army slogan "it's not what you've left behind. but what you gain ahead."
to those who've faced Death before.
As Dusk Falls
9/30/2008 04:27:00 PM
Sunday, September 28, 2008
"i want it to be like a myth, a legend, some folklore. that people would talk about it. but be unsure of whether it exists..."
sounds like something controversial. guess I'm not the only one that can become upset with the way the church works. with that, I'm encouraged, and put to ease. guess we're all humans, and when those of us who dare to stand become agitated, we strike. i guess that's just natural ain't it.
concerning that though, I'm contemplating. should i continue on to be what i was like in the past, one that would just stand for his beliefs and voice out his opinions, or just take another path. due to the numerous accounts of well, my stories being told, it seems that that would be a better way. to just keep silent and not bother about whatever people say. I'm honestly unsure. it's just so, irritating that people have a certain mindset about you when you choose to stand for your beliefs and voice out what you feel. like you're being outcast by the society that you in the past, strive so hard to be accepted in.
i guess for us, it has to be that other way then. to create our own society instead of conform to the norm. due to the difference in perspectives, we'll never be accepted. our ideas will always be scrutinized. we will always be shot down. but i guess that's the way the world works. when the majority is your opposition. we can be a Soul Guardian, or we can be a Silent Guardian. it is our choice. to stand, or not to stand. i won't make my choice yet. staying in limbo is still the current best solution.
As Dusk Falls
9/28/2008 10:43:00 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
"i need not justify my actions to thee"
there's nothing much i can do about it if it has to be this way, i mean, blaming me for another's actions? i don't care, i don't even bother. if he wants to do that then let him be. it's his choice not mine, and i don't have anything to do with it.
we seem to have deceived ourself long enough.
in truth, it is probably better that i don't work for a few days in a row. cuz the amount of stress accumulated would probably kill me. i mean, i seem to have a habit of being unable to work for long hours without resting, in a sense of relaxing, playing games, stuff like that. sometimes, we just like put too much stress on ourselves. haha.
well. after all that's past throughout the day, we all try to end the day right.
End The Day
Henzy David
Canon IXUS 850IS
As Dusk Falls
9/27/2008 10:19:00 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
one dream, to have a gamer's computer system. with all the cool gamer stuff, like the n52e, the razer lachesis, razer goliathus, megalodon sound system, barracuda sound card, and the predator com. lol. what a dream eh. it is possible, but the amount spent on these things could taken to do something else. well, that's just me dreaming.
now an added advantage to the psp, the psp bible. lol.
and this picture should give you guys a little to laugh about.
chocolate bras? fail!
As Dusk Falls
9/25/2008 09:51:00 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
we want to start afresh. there's more to life that this. we've decided, it's time to turn back from our ways, time to not worry and contemplate so much. let's have it for a brand new day. to just believe and have faith.
As Dusk Falls
9/24/2008 10:22:00 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Silence.
this term is used to represent a phenomenon whereby no sound is produced in a particular area or by a particular person. it is also used to describe the action of relinquishing a person of his or her lifeforce, thereby killing said person. that however, is not my emphasis on this post.
One Man's Silence is Another's Bliss.
this is true. regardless of situations. whether it be a person that you dislike being silent, or you yourself not speaking for any particular reasons.
we've come to appreciate it for it's greatness and value. and thus, embracing it.
well, this is just darn cool. and funny. take a look at this.
As Dusk Falls
9/22/2008 11:48:00 PM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
it was a particularly weird feeling that we got while we were at Orchard area during the night. the streets, shopping malls and passageways were all nearly empty. it was like Singapore's population just got greatly reduced to around a thousand people. speculating the reason as to why the streets were near deserted, we came upon a few. one of which was, the rapture must have happened. or the other one, which was more logical, that the F1 night race was going on. but honestly, it was really darn empty. just take a look at the pictures.
well, there's this other thing that's pretty important. this paragraph is a special tribute to Keith Chan. lol. remember this?
i'm sure the rest of the BoC should remember too. other than that. that's just about it.
As Dusk Falls
9/21/2008 11:02:00 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
it has been awhile since i've been here, and yes, there are alot of new stuff to blog about now, from being absent from this space for 4 days. school's been eating my time, especially thursday class which spans from 2-6pm. smack right in the middle of the afternoon. instantly kills that day that one.
love is friday class though, the lecturer's great, the places that we go to are great, notably esplanade last week and T3 changi airport this week. next week would be suntec city. side from that, we've found a travelling buddy at school. haha. one Daryl Leonidas Tan for the win! lol. God bless him to be able to get to the next level and not retain like me. haha. well, i guess God really has his own plans that we won't know.
New Game that's being played: Star Wars; The Force Unleashed.
this one's cool. very very cool. there's really nothing much that i can say about it right now cuz i'm trying to hold in my thoughts for the next paragraph. but all i can say, is that this is one heck of a good game. for storyline, effects. especially when i'm playing it on a handheld console.
there was this interesting conversation that i wanna take special note of which happened on friday. we were at Popeye's at T1 after drawing class. I was with Gerry, Isabelle and Daryl. what were we talking about exactly? interesting topic, believing in Christ and the stuff that follows it. like why we do certain stuff as christians/catholic, why we believe in certain stuff.
i come to quote something that bobby said a week ago, that i really do believe in. I'm the kind of guy that new christians would be better off not being near me. but for the older ones, i'm the guy that challenges their beliefs. for what cause? i believe thats very simple. to make their belief stronger. apparently, i've come by to interpret that people of the faith don't want their people to challenge their beliefs due to the fear of them falling away. difference again, i'm not, i believe that i'm God's people.
honestly speaking, if you fall away, that just means that you've convinced yourself otherwise of what you initially believed in. i have a strong emphasis on a human's willpower in his or her own life. i believe that ultimately, every single one of us is in control of our own circumstances, situations, etc etc etc. i believe that for myself, i won't allow myself to fall away from God even if i challenge my beliefs due to the reason that i understand that He has sacrificed so much for me because He loves me and still does and will always do.
many would disagree with me. but like i always say, what to do? that's just me. and it's something that i love about myself. well, i'm used to it. so it doesn't matter to me. just think about it. challenging your beliefs for the sake of making yourself stronger.
Light of Above
Henzy David
Overcomer
Henzy David
Message of Love
Henzy David
You Gave It All
Henzy David
all images taken with Canon Digital IXUS 850IS camera.
As Dusk Falls
9/20/2008 11:45:00 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
it was quite a weird day for me. i mean, like really weird. you wake up on time, feeling totally awake, but just go back to sleep for a few more 5mins. get on the bus and feel like the whole world's spinning. and that's not all. it was almost the same after class ended. like blindly following your classmates to bugis for a moment, aimlessly walking over to the bus stop, then running across the road to catch the bus that you can take home.
maybe it's my lack of sleep. maybe i was hungry. too much water maybe? inhaled too much paint fumes? or maybe it really was just caused my the writing on my hand. i don't know. honestly, it was just darn weird. oh well. what to do. haha. it just happens doesn't it. like you totally just lose control over yourself for the time being.
As Dusk Falls
9/16/2008 09:36:00 PM
Monday, September 15, 2008
Ethereal
Silence
Shadow of the Wind
Duskfall
Moonhare
Mhystry
Henzy David
The Art of Deception, the Most Beautiful of Art Forms.
Silence
Shadow of the Wind
Duskfall
Moonhare
Mhystry
Henzy David
The Art of Deception, the Most Beautiful of Art Forms.
As Dusk Falls
9/15/2008 11:31:00 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
[post edited, retyped on 16/09/08 - the nexus of dominion]
well, today is a day that i have more time. instead of the sunday which this post is dated. after heading off to funan from service with Jasper, getting the new keyboard that i will elaborate more on later. we met up with the other group of people which we were supposed to be with initially. namely, Daryl, Frans, and Jonathan, Wayne and his friend whom which i forgot the name. joining us later would be Joadine Dajie, Cherie and Jaren. not too sure if i left anyone out.
chill out session at the Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf at Wheelock Place. it was a great time of fellowship, talking on about army stuff, laughing about it. joking about where Jasper and Frans would be posted to and stuff like that. lol. it was a bus ride home with Daryl and Jonathan, and that ends my day.
Product Review - The Razer Lycosa Gaming Keyboard
yes, if you're wondering, this is my new keyboard. so you're asking, why'd you go get such an expensive one. maybe you're just wondering how much of a waste of money it is. well, in a different perspective, this thing is a beauty.
the keyboard design is sleek, slim...
with rubber finish on the buttons, fully programmable macro keys(which means you can program a few different keys into a single key)...
touchscreen to switch gaming profiles, control music players, volume activate WASD cluster lighting...
and it's fully backlighted. it also has a 1ms response time. which means, the difference between the time that you press the key and the letter shows up on the screen is only 1millisecond.
i am satisified, serious. i'm loving this keyboard. haha. you can say it was one of the best buys since my diamondback. i mean, even if you don't use it to play games, you can simply admire it's beauty, and love the feel of the keys on your finger tips.
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well, aside from the keyboard. it seems that after church activities are getting more and more, unexciting. there's like nothing much to do, or just that we're not doing as much as we did before everyone went to national service. seems like when Jasper and Frans disappeared, the after-church-life became very mundane. lol. let's do something about it. i don't know what, but all i know is that we need to do something about it. yup.
it also seems that my command of the chinese language has improved. according to Huiyin, which me and jasper met on the bus to wheelock. because i was conversing with her in chinese all the way. well, that's a good sign isn't it. haha. not bad, not bad at all. and i know who i have to thank. haha.
Wishlist
Acer Aspire Predator - $5999
As Dusk Falls
9/14/2008 11:35:00 PM
Friday, September 12, 2008
i like going to the esplanade rooftop. the calm relaxing ambience, the cool breeze or occasional strong gust of wind that blows by, the skyline view, the waterfront. it's just a place that I like cuz it gives me that calm soothing feeling.
The Sentinels
Henzy David
Overgrowth
Henzy David
Hope or Despair
Henzy David
yeap, i was there for drawing this morning. there's nothing special about that. lol. it was a walk around the place day. esplanade, suntec, raffles city, funan, raffles city, city link, raffles city, raffles place, central, and then home. the amount of times raffles city appears on the list.
Heaven's Glow
Henzy David
standing for what you believe in comes with a price. sometimes, the price may very well be costly. it's happening everywhere. no matter where you go, this war is being fought. the opposition may be anyone. regardless of stature, rank or emotional status. this war is ruthless, it always seems negative to the one standing up for what he or she believes in. it requires courage, wit, and ultimately, determination. even the slightest falter of determination, a moving of one's heart, could cause the downfall of that belief. is this what i stand for? honestly, i cannot respond with an ultimate answer. strike only when provoked.
The Silent Guardian
Henzy David
Canon IXUS 850IS
*All pictures are taken with canon IXUS 850IS Digital Camera and are copyrights of Henzy David.
As Dusk Falls
9/12/2008 08:37:00 PM
Thursday, September 11, 2008
today's lesson was something fresh and exciting, it's great to learn something new. especially when it involes something that's closely related to something that you want to further study in. like, 3d modelling for exmaple.
well, this new program is called 3D sketch up. don't really know how it's spelt but yeah. haha. it works in a very peculiar manner, yet very easy to use. just click click click, click and drag, change tool, click and drag some more and you'd get stuff like this.
cool. but now, i've gotta come up with 3 different 3D sculptures, one of which i'm halfway through. first off, to get the program. haha.
there's also this little wishlist of little things that i want to get. namely computer stuff.
1) The Acer Aspire Predator [Here] $5999
2) The Razer Lycosa Gaming Keyboard [Here]
check it out.
guess that's all for tonight. oh yea. Happy birthday Adeline Sis! lol.
As Dusk Falls
9/11/2008 11:56:00 PM
Monday, September 08, 2008
there was just excess wire lying around in class that everybody didn't want. well, in truth, it was trash wire. my hands were itching, so i just grabbed a few pieces and weaved them into what you see before you now.
My personalised wire rock band.
made with 1mm galvanised wire. cute, cool, and interesting. that's all for today i guess. haha.
As Dusk Falls
9/08/2008 11:33:00 PM
Sunday, September 07, 2008
right. i'm back. after a few days of absence, i've gotten a few little new stuff. one of which will be in picture. firstly, i got myself a tripod, for $16. may not be very good quality, but i guess it'll serve its purpose. there's my faith in that product. next, i got myself my usual weekly comics, and a Stealth Bumblebee transformer action figure which i will soon customise. aside from these normal day to day stuff that happen in the life of Henzy David, there are also very interesting thoughts.
well. i find that me being myself is very irritating at times. sometimes, i just lose control and fully just be myself, the crazy side comes out. kinda childlike childish side. speaking whatever thought that comes out without processing, doing silly and stupid stuff. i like that side of me sometimes, but going overboard with it definitely becomes an irritance. that's just a minor note to self.
aside from that, there's this one that i went thinking about.
What we believe. is it defined by what others believe in? by what they say, what they tell us, the hearsay, or what we really think? sometimes, we just follow others blindly, taking their thoughts as ours in a sense that we become them in their way of thinking. sometimes, we really stand up for what we believe in. it's just really a good food-for-thought topic to think about. what your beliefs are defined by. that's just what i have to post for tonight.
it's been a long day. home to orchard to expo to vivocity and back home again. glad that i have bus concession though. haha.
Twilight Glimpse
Henzy David
Canon IXUS 850IS Digital Camera
7th September 2008
As Dusk Falls
9/07/2008 09:52:00 PM
Thursday, September 04, 2008
there are some who seek to know all, and there are others who seek to reveal all.
it's an irritance to secret keepers worldwide. what is it? the irritance of the ones who have chosen to reveal all. in magic, the magic is gone once the secret is found out, or when there are unbelievers.
unbelief. this is a term that is used greatly in my lifetime. why? because it doesn't only apply to the magic side, but in the reality side too. the amount of people who don't believe in the power of themselves, the power of believing, the power of words. its well, unbelievable. a curse upon mankind has it become. sadly, there's nothing we can do about it. yet, nevertheless, we will never give up in the task of inspiring others to achieve and realise their potential.
nevertheless, a secret keeper we shall be.
As Dusk Falls
9/04/2008 11:40:00 PM
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Deception is the most beautiful of Arts
i'm an artist, my whole life revolves around art forms. from my speech to my writing. from drawing to digital photography. from my canvas -the minds of people- to my life. and true enough, Daniel Madison said it well. Deception, is the most beautiful of arts. and Art, is the most beautiful of deceptions.
the art of creating a faux reality in an everyday life scenario is addictive, it's ecstatic. but it seems that that's just not the only link i have with deception. the truth is, deception is just the truth, the true name of anything that doesn't seem to be what we perceive it to be. it is an action, a thought, a word, a saying, a fragment of someone's conversation. it resides not only in magic, which heavily bases itself on the art of deception. and so, admiring the art of deception at work, allows us to see how beautiful it is. to make us utterly fooled by something that had never actually existed.
a little finger magic. watch and see.
As Dusk Falls
9/03/2008 04:14:00 PM
