Friday, July 10, 2009
i don't think i'm ready yet. not at this time. 2 relationships in 2 years took a hell lot out of me. even though one totally threw me to hell and back and the other just seemed to be perfect for awhile, but that's where it ended, awhile. it seems like the perfect one isn't coming soon. well, least if she's here right now, i wouldn't know what i'd say to her to not make her feel awkward. haha. yea. what to do, guess i do have some expectations for my girlfriend after all. since the next one that i'm looking for is liable to be my life partner.
in the meantime, i do have much more to do. work on myself per se, my self control at times, my rage, learning to forgive others and stuff like that. filling my time up with stuff, hanging out with friends. getting closer with close friends and getting to know more about the people around me(which is why i asked if there was any other thing that i could ask you out for, if you know i'm referring to you. =P/joking manner). well. it takes awhile to mend a broken heart. especially when you tried to mend the broken heart by making another choice that ends up breaking your heart again.
i just wanna thank God that He's been good to me during this period of time. blessing me with so many people(okay, maybe not that many) to confide in and provide counsel. blessing me with friends, loved ones, success and favor in school and work, transformers, the list goes on i guess.
and i guess it's time to end here. haha. God bless. love the Lord with all your heart, for the fear of the Lord is the beginning of all wisdom.
As Dusk Falls
7/10/2009 11:25:00 PM
