Thursday, August 13, 2009
I believe God has a funny sense of Humour. one fateful day 2 years ago, i was sitting in a class in Nanyang Poly for Electronic computer communications engineering. 2 years later, i'm sitting in a class learning about programming and html, knowing almost nuts about it though i have already have some idea what it is about.
well, it's a new class. i'm still adjusting to the changes, but i kinda like it here. the class like got a little club house thing, a room totally for ourselves, and the new people are kinda friendly too. which is a plus. for a moment i thought i was gonna have to survive myself for the next 2 odd years or so. guess i won't have to now. i'm just kinda worried for tomorrow, since i wasn't at last friday's lesson. i didn't exactly know what's going on. haha. oh well. enough about school huh.
on another note. it seems that i'm getting a little pissed off with my life. so i kinda thought about things. what i wanna do with my life.
3) I wanna continue to further myself in Transformerology. or maybe just widen the scope into just plainly collecting toys, repainting toys etc etc etc.
4) I wanna change and improve myself so that i can support and help people.
5) I wanna develop a closer relationship with God.
seriously, i pray that i can do it. i pray for confidence in myself. i pray for myself to be able to love again. i pray that i'm not so confused anymore. i pray that i'll be able to have compassion and a heart for people and the children of God. i pray that i'll be able to uphold my morals. i pray that sooner or later, i'll be able to be a pillar of strength for the person i love. i pray that i won't lose heart anymore. and i pray that i won't become bored or indifferent with life anymore.
Life's too short and fragile to just waste it away worrying and wondering what's gonna come next. it's time to take charge of my own life. while maintaining that balance of God in it. so that i won't become solely the master of my life. but have the capabilities to balance it, doing what He wants for me, and what i want that doesn't go against his plan.
Mhystry. Mhystry is non-existent. neither is all of my other selves or entities. there's only one Henzy David. who goes by the name Duskfall. who is in charge of the name of Mhystry for whatever use that name may be to him. it's about time i stopped hiding myself underneath some veil and a defense mechanism. my lies and deceit have to come to an end one day.
As Dusk Falls
8/13/2009 11:02:00 PM
