Monday, October 19, 2009
recently. i've not been myself. or rather, i haven't had much control of myself outside of my relationship.
yes. i've not been going to school proper, i've been more vulgar than usual, i've been losing control more often. but now, i've found the cause. and it all comes to a stop right here. no longer will the brethren move down this path, for more hurt than joy does it bring him.
yea, everyone goes through it once or more in your lifetime. a period of time whereby you're sick and tired of living. when things get too routine and boring and you bring the 'sian' feeling everywhere you go even though you don't want to. it's inevitable, it just tags along. this instance in life too is inevitable. we must all go through it, we must all face it, but moreover, we must all overcome it.
letting it overrule your life would be disastrous. it's time we find something to do, it may not be a new thing. it may just be something that we haven't done for awhile. it may just be something that you love doing but don't have the time. whatever, so long as it brings you joy, it fits the bill. for through that joy, will one receive the strength to move on in life. and that's where things start to kick up again.
i admit, i'm in no position to say all this. but i know the reason why i can openly declare this is because i'm gonna do it.
let's finish up what's left of our unfinished business this year. take a long break, and start getting serious once the new year begins. i've wasted enough time. it's time to take the next step and initiate the next phase in growing up. living.
As Dusk Falls
10/19/2009 11:52:00 PM
