Me: well, its been a great year, but what i'm hoping for is a greater year ahead. this year has been good, full of ups and downs, but it surely has been good. and i really want to give thanks to God for certain things that have happened over the year. it's been an eventful '09, break ups, new relationships, new revelations. but what i really want to do for 10' is really to begin another new chapter in my life. this year, what i want to do is to really get things right. for those who's walk is righteous, are those which God will be with. because i know that in this current relationship that i'm having with Vivian, God really has to be the center of it. otherwise, things are really gonna fall apart. we've come to far not only by our own efforts, but also by the blessings of the father up above.

another thing that i just really wanna get past this year, get into the next year of studies and just finish up everything, get my diploma. seems like it shows to many that i'm not really putting in much effort for my work. well, guess it's time to change that. haha, with such a hardworking and always-striving-for-excellence-girlfriend, you're bound to be affected.

there's just one notable that i'm really considering. for the past 2-3 weeks, Darkness has really been the main topic of discussion for me. indeed, the Darkest Nights give way to the Brightest Days. this indeed is true. without Darkness, there can be no Light. this is also true, as the strongest Light source can only be seen when all the other lights fade to darkness. but for me, hiding in the darkness has taken it's toll. as much as i enjoy the shade, its tiring to keep up the act. so there's the consideration. step out into the Light and let all see what i truly am, or just remain where i am and remain as i am. i shall decide this soon.

Duskfall: it seems you've made up most stuff in your mind, that is good. very well. looks like you've got it all covered brethren. you should be able to make it through this year again. i'm here, as always, if you need me.

Me: the realization that Humans ultimately find solace and comfort in knowing that they are not alone. this is a powerful notion, it gives them motivation, a source of strength and courage, something to live for.

Duskfall: indeed, it is a notion that serves you well. knowing that those who have been beside you for so long, those that stand by your side, truly appreciate you. that gives you strength doesn't it. the strength to pull yourself together and not allow yourself to fall apart. but i guess we shall cover this topic another time. it's getting late. we still have much to do later. rest well brethren, Happy New Year.