Saturday, February 27, 2010
Dear God. thanks for everything. to be honest, if you didn't show me that, i wouldn't know that this is how far i've fallen. through the person closest to me, you showed me what i was before, what you made me to be. not this resolve-less, procrastinating, shell of a soul. i must admit though, i was blind to not be able to see. blinded by my own wit and gifting. giving up even without trying, but always covering it up by saying that there must be some other way around it. i've lost what i always believed in, to never give up on a particular way, to push forward all the way till the end.
i guess you could say that i lost my way, and now i've seen the light. the darkness is clearing, and the path that i must take, becoming clearer. i cannot continue on like this, a drifter. plainly just floating around everywhere, not taking ownership of anything for fear of responsibility and everything that comes with it. i must pick myself up. and the first step is awareness of your current plight.
thanks Vivian, bei er, without you, He couldn't have showed me what i'm doing now. i'm grateful to you for this. i know you'll continue to help me out where it's needed, after all, we do complete each other, where i'm lacking, you're not and vice versa. and yes, i do read your blog, in response to your blog post. haha.
i just thought i'd type it out before turning in. it's a good practice to jot down one's thoughts. thank you God, thanks Vivian. =)
As Dusk Falls
2/27/2010 11:52:00 PM
